Chapter 52

Chapter 52

Chapter 52

trigger warning: mentions of suicide. this topic will be mentioned again here and there throughout the novel. i wont leave another trigger warning in the future.

Lady Elvas little daughter, Lianne, followed after her mother, then she looked up at Carynnes face. The girls eyes widened.

Wow.

Children were easy. They liked pretty things and their thoughts could easily be revealed through this. Tom was a kid who had already become too quiet and less interesting.

At the thought, Carynne grinned. Lady Lianne smiled as well.

The fief lord kissed the back of Countess Elvas hand and gave a simple greeting.

Its so delightful that youve come all the way here, Lady Elva.

The festival is quite spectacular. Lianne found it fun, too, so I enjoyed myself as well.

Im glad that you did.

At this point, the owner of this land was the Hare family, not Verdic. The countess turned slowly and came closer to Carynne, who was next to her father.Reêad latest novels at novelhall.com

You look like your mother.

Carynne heard this all the time, but its like she was hearing it anew this time. She greeted the countess back with a slightly melancholy smile.

I am very delighted to meet you, Lady Elva.

The countess must have met Catherine once before. How much did she know? Carynne realized that she had been too emotional back then when she had killed Deere, and she felt a bit regrettable. Right now, she hoped that Lady Elva could be of help to her instead of Missus Deere.

She was so lovely, too. Come to my salon later if youll be making your debut at the capital.

Thank you.

Thus far, Carynne had regressed to the past back many times, but she had never been interested in her dead mother. Was Nancy responsible for that, too? It would remain a mystery for this iteration. Carynne would just ask Nancy in the next life.

Carynne sat down and brought out her fan, watching Isella fume in anger as Madam Elva had not even listened to Isellas greeting. Captivated by Carynnes breathtaking beauty, Madam Elvas little daughter was chattering about while holding onto her mothers hand.

Isella and Verdic were both absolutely incensed. That reaction of theirs was more precious than gold.

Carynne truly appreciated her mother. She gave her life, this face, and death as well, so its safe to say that her mother had given her almost everything.

After observing those two, Carynne turned around and found her father next to her.

Then, isnt it time for me to hear your reason?

As he sat down at the chair next to Carynne, the fief lord looked over at the countess and Raymond as they were having a conversation.

The reason.

Yes. Is it because youre curious about how much your life will change?

I told you already before.

Explain it more kindly this time.

The fief lord watched Carynnes fingers as they tightened over the champagne glass, her knuckles going white. Then, he opened his lips again.

Then the only way I can help you is

Carynne looked up to face the fief lord as he spoke. She was expressionless.

Please show me proof of your love, she said.

How?

If you truly believe, if you truly love, then you would not be afraid of death. Once I die again, youll come back to life, Father. And even if you really do die, you shouldnt be scared of anything. After all, youll be able to see her.

Ah.

Of course, the extent of it Its for the sake of confirmation. If you refuse to do this, then theres nothing I can do.

Carynne shrugged.

With all the servants in the manor along with Dullan, I wont be able to force you if you waver.

She looked into the fief lords gray eyes, and in those eyes was the reflection of his daughters face, the exact mirror image of his wife.

But whatever you choose, Ill be able to confirm it. The extent of your love, Father.

Carynne lifted the empty glass. Some distance away, a servant came forward and refilled the glass. The lord also raised his own glass. At that corner of the hall, the father and daughter raised their glasses for a toast.

Ah, I knew it. Everything tastes so much better without the drugs. Dullan, that terrible jerk.

Dont be so hard on him. It was all for your sake.

But what he did was too much. There must have been a couple times that I died from overdose. And I dont like it because Ive had a taste of gourmet food elsewhere.

Which place do you like the most?

Outside the novel What, wrong answer?

He looked troubled.

Why dont you choose one from here?

Sir Raymonds head chef is magnificent. Hes called Mister Cray, and hes bald, you know. Oh, but he hasnt been hired yet, hell come in after three months.

Is that so.

As she continued to chatter, Carynne noticed that the fief lord was staring blankly at the silverware on the table.

Um, this is a trivial warning, but Its difficult to use a knife like that. Ive tried it before.

ThatI wasnt thinking of using this.

The fief lord averted his gaze, perhaps a little embarrassed.

It can be a little scary at first. I wasnt used to it either and I failed several times. Never try to slit your wrists. Youre going to have to cut into your wrist until youre halfway through to make it work, and when youre really about to die, it just feels so cold until you die.

Carynne turned her head. She couldnt hold back the peal of laughter bubbling up inside her.

The fief lord just raised his glass again. He didnt know whether he should smile or not.