Chapter 101

Chapter 101

The hymns echoed between the two, the melody unbefitting of the current situation. Raymond stared at Dullan. Dullan stared back at Raymond. Unlike how he was in the hallway, he did not avert his gaze. He didnt even look afraid. Dullan stared at Raymond with an unreadable look. Then, he answered.

You dont need to seek forgiveness. I-In your situation, its only n-natural to doubt.

Do I?

Raymond took in Dullans answer. He was not surprised. Hadnt he anticipated this answer, too? The fire of that day, tooit was unnatural.

Raymond lowered his head and interlaced his fingers. Even if he were to confirm the truth here, he couldnt help but feel strange. For some reason, Raymond could feel something wriggling around his chest.Thê source of this content n/o/v/(el)bi((n))

Raymond closed his eyes. He listened to the hymns being sung at the main hall, far away from his ears. O Lord, thy heavenly grace impart. The incongruous hymns continued to echo. Raymond felt a surge of emotion that could not be his own feelings. He opened his eyes, and he saw Dullans red face.

I understand. Thank you.

D-Do you have anything else to confess?

Please forgive me for not being able to trust you, even now.

What?

The priest was clumsy in all manners. Even when it came to lying.

After hearing the other mans answer, Raymond became certain. Dullan might try to hide it behind his silence, but Raymond knew. He didnt know exactly what he was thinking inside, but this was enough for Raymond to confirm it.

Raymond looked up again at Dullan. He seemed to have given up a little.

For my ignorance, may the Lord forgive me for this sin.

Sir R-Raymond?

Thank you for healing Zion. You are an instrument of God, and I apologize for doubting you for a moment.

Raymond rose from his seat. Dullans expression changed.

W-Wait.

You are not the type of person who can kill your fellow man.

Not unlike Raymond.

Thank you for listening to my confession. Do take care.

!

Following after Raymond, Dullan left the confessional booth. With light casting down on the priest, he looked more ungainly. He reached out with a slender arm and grabbed Raymond.

Why did you come here?

I came here to confess my sins. I know it myself that Ive sinned, so I came here to confess and then go back.

Through Dullans reply, Raymond saw how willing he was to defend Carynne. That was enough. And he was also thankful towards the priest for saving Zion. However, Dullan held Raymond back this time. His expression had become distorted.

Did I not say t-that you have not s-sin sinned?

Raymonds older brother had already started taking successorship lessons, so Raymond had more paths open to him regarding his future. Most of the households land and property would go to the successor, but the second son was at least free to choose for himself.

The young Raymond thought that this was a lot cooler, so he had no problems with this. It was a childlike method of believing and facing lifes trials and hardships. And so, back then, Raymond wanted to become a scholar.

I want to study more.

Seeing the childs attitude be the complete opposite of the first son, his father chuckled. Raymonds wish to study was an exemplary and pure endeavor into learning more about the truth of the world in his life. It wasnt about making money or diving into the arts, and it wasnt the same kind of discipline that a priest would have in his worldly suffering and divestment.

It wont be easy.

What the. Brother, dont pick a fight with me.

Handsome men have a difficult time living in the world. Once youre fifteen years old, Im sure women wont let you go.

Does Brother also live like that?

Of course.

The baroness patted Raymonds head.

Live as you please. Still, studying wont be easy.

It was a peaceful time. In the same way that children from other happy families did, Raymond loved his family. Sunlight streamed through the gaps of the trees leaves, and white sheep were grazing in the wide meadow. Several shepherds waved towards the baron and baroness, who were watching from the side. Though he was not conscious of it, Raymond was happy.

It was a beautiful period in his life.

Yet, as with everything, those days were bound to come to an early end.

My head

Mother?

One day, his mother winced and complained of a headache. Her fine features became distorted. Then, the baroness lay sick in bed as she collapsed. The doctors rushed in. Raymond tried to come near the baroness, but his brother stopped him.

You cant.

Why? You went in though

Raymond pouted, but that didnt work.

Its okay for me to go in because Im an adult, but youre still young so you cant. Go to your room and pray.

Father! Brother is stopping me from going in!

Raymond clutched his fathers pants, but his father also had a grave expression. The baron took off Raymonds hands from his pants, then he held them tightly. His fathers hands were too hot. The expression that Raymond saw on the barons face made it more difficult for him to complain.

Raymond, listen to your older brother. And The doctors here, so it will be fine. Just wait a little more, please.

Why cant I go in? Why is Mother sick?

Ill tell you later.

The adults entered the room. After being left out alone, Raymond grew sad. He was also part of the family. He was also worried about his mother.

Raymond didnt give up. He leaned forward, resting his ear on the door.