Chapter 145

The pain of the body is sour and soft, but it can't control me.

The stone stabbed in the center of my foot. It hurts. It hurts better than my heart.

People who come and go are looking at me. I'm crazy. Yes, I'm crazy.

More reasons, more why? It's all the past.

It really happened. Nothing can be saved.

Out of the palace, on one side of the wall, the man standing there is so familiar.

Tears are surging out.

"Shangguanyu." I cried broken and ran over.

He stood up straight and was shocked to see me like this. I rushed into his arms and cried.

He said anxiously, "what's the matter with you, chuxue? Don't cry, tell me what's the matter?"

He looked at my face and narrowed his eyes slowly. His fingers crossed my neck and slid over the red kiss mark, causing a pain and making me shrink slightly. He said in a low voice, "what's going on?"

"Shangguan, don't ask." I don't want to mention last night.

He narrowed his eyes and propped up my shoulder. "Is it broken evil?"

I nodded and felt sad. "Don't mention it again, I'm so sad." I really don't want to recall. It's terrible. How could it be like that?

"I killed him and touched you!" he roared, pushed me away and went to the palace.

The whole body is a hot flame.

I have never seen Shangguan so angry that his eyes are red.

I hugged him from behind, "Shangguan, don't go, don't blame him."

He turned and looked at me with disbelief. "Chuxue, what do you say? Don't you blame him?"

"Anyway, don't mention it again." it was a nightmare, an ugly dream. If the wind doesn't come, I will die.

He shook my shoulder and shouted low, "Ni chuxue, wake up. What happened? Don't blame him?"

"Shangguan, I don't want to." I looked up at him.

Some disappointed, I thought he would pity me, I want him to hold me, just hold me, my heart can be calm.

That night, no one can blame, only if the wind.

But how can we settle accounts?

He looked at me cautiously with ice in his eyes. "Ni chuxue, you and him, you always have a heart. You tell me not to blame him for such a thing. It's good for you to protect him." he roared low, like a trapped animal, pulling his hair, trying to send out his anger.

I didn't know what to do. I cried in a low voice, "Shangguan, I've always thought about you. I only have you in my heart."

"You can deceive yourself, can you deceive me? In your eyes, there is clearly his shadow. Last night, I waited all night. I don't blame you for not coming. But you said that I can't even blame him for such a thing. Ni chuxue, you really make me angry and hate, you know?" he roared, "You said, did you do anything with him? Did you feel excited for him and fascinated by him, so you slept together?"

Shangguan Yu's words are so ugly. I always know that he has a bad temper and he is a little impatient.

Now, it sounds stabbing in my heart.

I held my head and cried, "yes, Shangguan Yu, I slept in the same bed with him. We were..."

With a loud slap, he slapped me in the face.

"Ni chuxue, it's useless for me to hold you in the palm of my hand and love you." he looked at me with hurt in his eyes. Leaving this cold sentence, he turned and left. His lonely back didn't look back at me again.

I slid down the corner and cried silently. I'm sorry, Shangguan. No matter how painful my face is, it can't be half as painful as my heart.

Why? I want to tell him not to go, but what else can I say.

A woman who has lost her virginity, a woman who is no longer innocent.

Since ancient times, there are documents on the top and Langlang's mouth on the bottom. They all say that there is no chastity, and everything has become a blank. Don't want to marry another good family. Both men and women care about these very much.

I have never forgotten the commandments since ancient times. Losing my virginity is like a shackle, tightly locking my eyebrows.

What's the use of remorse? A heavy slap hurt me and him.

I gently stroked, Shangguan. I'm sorry for 10000, but it's useless. I can only wait for you to calm down. If you can't accept it, I won't pester you. After all, what happened, I can't erase it.

The biting cold wind blows so comfortably.

I've hurt Shangguan's heart so much. I'll give him anything back all my life. I really like him. I really want to stay away from right and wrong. I want to travel with him. I also like him to kiss me.

Waiting for the Lantern Festival, in fact, I'm in a hurry, but I don't know. That's what I'm waiting for.

Shangguan, you are the most sorry person in my life. What can I take to deserve you and what can I take to face you? That's it. It doesn't matter. You can rest assured and don't hide anymore. We missed it long ago. Now it's just fate. I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I don't know. Everything is in a mess. Looking at the sky, it's raining. It's even colder.

I blinked, tears did not know when to stop.

Empty eyes watching the flying rain, I want to shout, I can't make a sound.

"First snow." the cry of the seventh prince.

I put my hand over my face, do not see him, do not see him, bury my head in my knees, and do not listen to him.

"Ruofeng, you have done a good deed." the seventh Prince shouted coldly and angrily, "you're taking medicine in the room of the first snow."

"If the wind." is the prince's voice, angry and shocked.

Why are they all here? I'm even worse.

The sound of pulling the sword rang clearly. After a while, the woman screamed, "Lou Po RI, you are so cruel that you scratched my face."

"Cruel, you spy, how can the crown prince spare you."

"Hahaha." ruofeng laughed, "the prince doesn't love me for a long time. It's just a use to keep me around. Do you love her more? It's too late. Maybe something happy will happen in the palace in a few months."

I don't want to listen to this. It's too cruel. My head shrinks in my coat and is buried in my own world.

"Didn't you two brothers find out long ago? Don't you care about the seventh Prince because it's good for you? It's ecstasy in the ecstasy account."

"First snow." Lin Peng's trembling voice.

Why is it so well known? Do I want to learn from a faithful woman, throwing into a well, jumping off a building and hitting a wall? I don't know. I opened my empty eyes and always remembered the pain of the senior official in my mind.

I want to cry, but I'm laughing, laughing out hot tears.

"It's me, Lin Peng," he said low.

I couldn't help but bury myself in his arms and cry softly.

"Chuxue, don't let these dirty sounds into your ears, let's go back." he picked me up.

I didn't struggle. My head was buried in his arms and shrunk into a ball.

The sound of fighting became a ball and slowly moved away from me.

He is a very careful man. He is afraid that I will be seen and walk back from the lush flower and tree path higher than others.

As soon as he looked down, he saw my eyes wide open and looking at the sky. Only tears slid down on both sides.

He said painfully, "don't look at Chu Xue, don't look at anything."

I squeezed out a faint smile, "Lin Pei, you said, how can I react?"

He even hugged me, "silly chuxue."

"Lin Pei, in fact, I don't need anything. I'm very tired." my heart is confused and my head hurts.

"I'll take you back to your room to sleep. I'll watch you and draw you lotus leaves and fields connected by Qinhuai River." he said gently.

I opened my eyes and looked at him. My eyes were moist. "Lin Pei, I don't want to go back to that room."

"Don't go back there," he coaxed me. "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid."

"Lin Pei, it's very kind of you." I smiled at him, tried to smile, and smiled more tears.

He said, "chuxue, stop talking, please."

Don't talk, woo, yes, I don't want to say, I don't want to say anything. My heart is bitter and astringent, and my heart is numb. I can't say anything.

He took me to a new elegant room without any smell. He drew at the table and I fell asleep sweetly.

In the dream, I construct my Qinhuai dream.

Lotus leaf lotus field, lotus wind is gentle and soft, nothing bothers me. I am the most carefree, comfortable and lazy Ni chuxue.

The nanny's love, Xiaojing's whisper, and the cold sweet lotus seed sugar water.

When I wake up, I can't tell whether it's morning or night.

I rubbed my eyes and sat up. Lin was still painting.

"When is it?" I asked softly.

"Would you prefer morning or evening?" he chuckled.

I thought for a moment and said, "if it was in Qinhuai, I would hope it was morning and a new day came again. If it was in the palace, I hope it was night and finally a day."

"That's when you want it," he waved. "Come and see if I look like it."

I put on my embroidered shoes. It's a little big. Lin Pei is really careful and put a thin layer of cotton, so that the soles of my feet don't hurt so much.

After walking over, I saw a girl on the paper, sleeping with her head on one hand, with an easel in front of her and a pen in the other hand.

His face was at ease. He opened a carefree smile, and his slender eyelashes were beautiful.

The paper in the painting is also painted with lotus flowers, which set off beautifully.

My fingers touched gently, "Lin, what's this called painting?"

"It's called 'beauty's spring sleep', how about it?" he chuckled.

I sighed out, "thank you, Lin Pei."

"What's our relationship? Why thank you? It's lucky that we can communicate with each other in the palace." he sighed.

I nodded, "in fact, I appreciate you and like you very much." it's not like that.

He smiled and sighed in his eyes, "I know. I'll call him my brother later."

I smiled and hugged his neck. "Brother, I have a brother."

"Brother, do you want your sister to thank you?" he also smiled. In his smile, a lot of things were passing.