Chapter 197

"I don't know power, and I don't like it," I said bluntly.

"How do you know I'm lonely and self admiring? I struggle and walk alone. Up to now, I'm still alone. I miss that time, but I also know that if I don't fight, I can't even get to this place."

His soft voice of helplessness and sigh rang in his ears.

Emperor, there is also the emperor's sorrow. I can't help him.

In the whole world, such a big, busy, no one knows, is also a pity.

Born as an emperor, it's better to be ordinary.

Because in the palace, they are used to power, because every pair of eyes look forward to each other, so they have to ignore themselves.

This is also the reason why he and the seventh Prince have always had the same ambition, but they are defending each other.

In solitude, some changed things will never come back.

"Chuxue, will you stay with me again?" he cried softly, without the dignity of the emperor.

Junlang's face was beseeching, but I said firmly, "the emperor let the maidservant in the palace, and the maidservant had to be in the palace."

"Ni chuxue." he shouted angrily, "what do you want from me?"

I didn't think about him. I just wanted him to let go.

Things are still things, people are still people, but the residual fragrance is no longer.

He was angry and glared at me.

I face it squarely without hiding. This is my determination. If my heart is soft, in the end, even I don't know myself. I firmly believe that there are things that can change people in this deep palace.

He was angry and looked at the water: "jump down for me."

I jumped down without saying a word.

It's so cold that I can hardly feel it.

He was so angry that he wanted to tear me apart: "Ni chuxue, you're cruel." he gave me a hard look and walked outside the cold palace.

I can't. hurry up to the grass. I was so cold that I could hardly move. I was shaking and my clothes were wet.

His temptation is over. There is no possibility between Ni chuxue and him.

I ran and danced to keep myself warm.

It was still very cold. I trembled out of the cold palace, and the imperial guard looked at me respectfully.

Alas, they probably want to be the kind of love affair between me and the emperor.

I'm so down, my whole body is wet, and my face is shaking. How do you think it should be pathetic.

I ran straight into the room. As soon as I stopped, it was so cold that I felt pain through my heart and lungs.

On the other side of the imperial garden, the play had stopped, and there were lights shining on it. I felt colder and colder.

Back to where he lived, he quickly changed his wet clothes.

He asked another maid for a bowl of ginger soup.

There is no one around. I have to learn to take care of myself. Some sad, still have to stick to it.

However, after drinking the ginger soup, I was relieved. At midnight, I still felt very cold.

Lit the palace lantern and waved the darkness aside.

Shaking his light body, he covered all the quilts in the room. It's still very cold. But I feel a little uneasy, as if I haven't done anything.

I looked around the room and saw the pictures on the table.

Yes, painting, I haven't had time to give it to Xiaojing?

I can't break my promise. He's afraid that every relative will throw him away.

He got up vaguely, put on thick clothes, took the picture on the table and went to the east palace.

The prince is the emperor and has lived in the emperor's palace, while the East Palace is empty, but Xiaojing still lives there. He is too young to learn enough real skills and can't stay with the emperor. I am also a little relieved. This is also good.

When I walked past, it was three o'clock, and the moonlight was colder and colder. The sound of watching was more and more distant.

Xiao Jing is still practicing her sword by the garden of the east palace. She has a model and looks like him. She is much more powerful than when I saw him before.

"Xiaojing." I called softly.

He wiped his sweat and stood there looking at me.

Then he shed two lines of tears in his eyes, bit his lips and said softly, "I've been waiting for you, aunt."

I sighed. Luckily I came. Otherwise, he will stay here all night. Will he practice all night?

The child, at a young age, is more stubborn than me.

I wish he could learn from Lin Pei. He has edges and corners. If he grinds it, it will hurt. It's better to be smooth, so there's nothing you can't get through. And when people always have horns, they will be hurt.

I Yangyang the painting in my hand and smiled apologetically: "sorry, aunt is late."

"Aunt." he wiped his tears and smiled, "I'll wait for you."

I wiped his tears and whispered, "silly, isn't it? Don't do this next time. Think about it. If my aunt doesn't have time to come for a while, don't you wait all night. You can go back to bed first. My aunt knows where you live and send it to your room. Don't you feel good when you look the next day?" he has to learn from him tomorrow. The emperor is going to train him, both civil and military.

It's not easy for him to cope with it and make people admire it. It has to pay a lot of costs and things.

Xiaojing held my waist: "aunt, Xiaojing knows you won't forget."

I touched his head, looked at the moon and sighed. Where did he know? If the emperor, alas, if the emperor really violated me, I guess I'll jump into the small river and freeze to death.

Will he wait for me all night? I think so.

He will be disappointed, and then, after knowing the news, he will be in pain, very pain, very pain.

I smiled: "aunt is not good. Xiaojing wants to go to bed early, okay?"

He nodded, his bright eyes soaked in tears, still so clear.

Moreover, I will go to the Empress Dowager tomorrow. There are many things that are difficult to estimate.

"No matter whether my aunt is around you or not, you should learn to be strong and happy, you know?" I looked at him and said gently, "my aunt hopes you will be more sensible year by year."

He nodded and smiled at the corners of his lips: "aunt, Xiaojing understands. Xiaojing should be as happy as aunt. Aunt will float on the road."

I chuckled: "how can aunt float?"

"Xiaojing doesn't understand, but my aunt will. My aunt always smiles on her lips and eyes. It's beautiful, light and floating." he said seriously.

I pinched his face: "Xiaojing has learned more and more things, and she can speak more and more. My aunt likes it, ha ha."

Half squat down, against his forehead: "grow up, happy."

He nodded, gently kissed me on the cheek: "Xiaojing likes aunt best."

I was so happy that I smiled: "OK, Xiaojing, it's midnight, I have to sleep. My aunt has to go back."

"OK, Xiaojing will be very good. My aunt doesn't like to go first, so Xiaojing will go back first." he said calmly. When he turned to the palace, he looked back three steps and smiled at me.

What a sensible child. Well, I'll be alone in the future. There's nothing to be afraid of. Xiaojing will support me. Lin Peng also said that it's good to support me.

They are my closest people. In this world, in addition to love, there are many important things around me.

I turned and walked outside the east palace. The wind was cold, the moon was cold, and my head hurt. However, I didn't feel sleepy at all.

Today last year, Lou poxie and I went out of the palace. Outside the palace, we watched lanterns.

And the mask that was almost cut off, just like my road, always died halfway.

He will not return to the palace again and seal the king. When he is outside, he has a place to live. He arrives at the palace alone. From then on, if he wants to enter the palace, he doesn't come or leave.

Once the emperor and a courtier, everything has changed.

I went back to Chongge palace unconsciously.

The gatekeepers were still those people. I wanted to go in and ask them if they could go in. They didn't stop me.

Here is the same as before he left. I like his study.

There are many books that can't be read. If you choose any one, you can see traces of careful reading, and some have made some changes.

The red lanterns outside the corridor have no owner, but they are still the same.

By the light, I sat in his position and still felt too big.

In the vase, there is my picture.

He said, go and have a look. That's my favorite.

In fact, I guessed half at that time, but I didn't dare to prove it all.

How silly we are, ha ha, we can't say it.

I'm sitting in a chair. My head hurts.

I lay on his soft couch again, and a blanket? It was wrapped up carefully and couldn't wrap my cold body.

I think it would be nice if there were wine at this time.

I want to get drunk. I feel terrible pain in the dead of night.

I want to break evil, I also want to go to the official rain, so I'm doomed to such pain.

The handsome, affectionate, persistent and lonely of Lou poxie.

Shangguan Yu is tolerant, generous, arrogant and understanding.

Every minute makes me move. I can't tell who I love more.

I'm a damn man. I have this idea. It's hard to choose one of the two. It's easy, but I can't look at my heart.

Repressing is not the way.

Forget it, now in the palace, I just have 11 million ideas, which are empty talk.

I have agreed not to choose. I have agreed to go there. I can't go around anymore.

After getting drunk, I clearly wanted to hate him, but I hugged him and slept on this couch all night.

I betrayed again and again, betraying my will and Shangguan.

In Qinhuai, I promised Shangguan's marriage proposal. I should devote myself to him.

Who says I have no affection for Shangguan? Isn't it wonderful that the green love and appreciation, the same joy after success? Eat together, watch him angry, and always fight against him.

How can people who haven't looked at each other in the beginning feel that way?

At that time, I wanted to hit him. Later, I liked him slightly. I felt good when he was around.

In fact, I always like to be alone. He taught me a lot of things.