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Such a light and elegant sentence made my heart burn with anxiety. "Isn't it just an excuse to invite a husband or give him medicine? What's so great about that? Just drop it."

Why? Many of them intertwined together, making my head hurt even more.

I don't want to think about it anymore. It's so tiring, so painful, and I didn't sleep all night. I'm in a bad mood, so of course I can't paint anything good.

He picked up the pen and carefully wrote the name of the dynasty in the lower right corner. The date was also written with the name of Ni Chu Xue.

How could I have known that this painting had such a different meaning?

I just want little quiet and safe, changes, alas, in life, there are always changes. He is still a child, how can he bear it? Poor little Jing, this time, he was definitely going to suffer.

Thousand Li laughed, "Ni Chuxue, your calligraphy looks pretty good."

Of course, I followed Ning Concubine, but I've seen quite a few of her placards, so I can still learn a bit.

"Fine, I'll put it away. I will do what I've said. This Black Eyed Heaven Pearl is still yours." He took out his Heavenly Jewels and placed them on the table.

The black light on the table was so dazzling that I no longer had the heart to admire it.

He was worried about Shangguan Yu and Little Jing, their lives were like a year.

Finally, after a whole day, Lin Bei also finished painting.

When I came out, I thought, it would be nice if I didn't have to go back to the capital, but now I was actually thinking, Hurry up, go back earlier.

Why does my state of mind always change?

I know that once I return to the palace, I will no longer be so free and at peace.

I wanted to go back to the capital. Shangguan Xue would pick me up outside the city, and I would have to trouble him to take care of Jing for me.

With an uneasy feeling, his heart was hanging high in the air. The carriage rolled over and over, and his heart also started to roll down and down.

Well, if it's coming, I can't avoid it.

Shangguan Xue, please don't let me return to the capital, I will be so heartbroken.

My hopes are so high, and I am so selfish. In fact, in my heart, I have already surpassed the boundaries of what I like.

After walking for a few days, probably because Shangguan Yushi's medicine was no longer effective, I threw up all over the place again. I was so dizzy that I could see everything swinging back and forth.

He was so weak that he could not taste anything, and he had a headache whenever he thought about it.

Lin Xin looked at me worriedly. "Chu Xue, how can you be so dizzy? Little Mu Zi, you guys hurry up and slow down."

"No, we should go back as soon as possible."

"Do you want to go back to the cage as soon as possible?" He looked at me incredulously.

He really knows me, but he's not me, how can he know what's on my mind? I really want to see Shangguan Yu, I want to know everything about the capital.

I weakly smiled. "I'm fine. I just want to go back earlier."

He seemed to have understood and let out a long sigh. "Early snow, the road is still far away."

I know what he means. The road is really too far away. There are too many things between us. Even though there wasn't any form of etiquette in the Yellow Mountain, he never did.

He wanted to grab my hand and put his arm around my shoulder, but he didn't ask me. He even sneakily kissed me, and when he thought of it, his face burned with anger.

I am also very worried about the matters in the capital. On the way, as long as they rested, the news would spread like wildfire.

I hate to hear this news. I wish I could fly to the capital and see what this is all about.

Although Lin Xin didn't say anything, but the worry in his expression made me somewhat happy.

Friend, it really isn't about that.

Worry for you, care for you, look at you, help you, friend, it's good.

"Chu Xue, to be honest, the difference is too great." he said softly, and floated into my ear like smoke.

I know, it really is a huge gap, I am just a palace maid, he is the only son of Princess Tian Feng, he is the Divine Doctor of the entire Yan Dynasty, he has high wrists, he is handsome, his family is rich, even though he does not have any officials to be the king, he does not want them, he does not care, the emperor has taken a fancy to him as his prince consort.

And me? Do I have the right to stand together with Princess Yuzhen? No, really not.

I looked helplessly at Lin. "I don't know, I have to see it first."

I can't give up like this, and I don't want to think about it. I like Shangguan Yushi, and I have to admit, I really do.

Lin Xin couldn't bear to look at me, so he turned his head away.

"We have reached the capital," he said quietly after a long while.

My heart jolted. I heard the hubbub. I knew that they had arrived at the capital.

Opening the curtain, will he be waiting for me here? I said yes, we made an appointment.

Because there were too many people on the streets, they would not walk on the streets, but would instead return to the Imperial Palace from that quiet and secluded path.

With trembling hands, I lifted the curtain and looked at the bustling city gate.

However, I was really disappointed, I looked at it several times, I was afraid of missing it, carefully looked at it, carefully looked at it, did not have the person I thought of day and night.

His heart continued to drop all the way down to the lowest point. He was still grieving.

They had said so, why didn't they come? Could it be that they were really getting married?

"Early Snow." Lin Bei patted my shoulder. "Get out of the car and accompany me on the street to buy some ink."

Lin Xin, why didn't you expose my dream? I looked at him, and I felt a little dazed in my eyes.

He chuckled, "What are you looking at? Get out of the car. "

He jumped down and had Mu Zi drive the carriage into the city. They were waiting for him at the designated location.

I held the pictures in my arms. These were all the pictures I wanted to give him. There was also a big painting, but I spent a lot of money to buy this Xuan paper.

I drew this for a whole day, and even Lin Xin didn't say anything when he saw it. He knew that I was very attentive to painting.

And pine trees, strong as that, I had made for him.

Busy, maybe, I said.

I carried the painting and walked in a disordered manner. The closer I got to the medicine store, the more confused I became.

Lin Si did not say anything, he went straight, not to buy ink, but to the Shangguan Medicine Shop.

When I got to his medicine store, I found that same waiter looking at me with disdain. "You're looking for our young master. Young master is busy with marriage matters, so he wouldn't come to the medicine store."

Busy with marriage? What shocking news.

I don't even know how I got out.

The noise around me was so quiet I couldn't hear it. Were they all looking at me? I looked over, but there was no meaning to it. I didn't even know what I was looking at.

I don't even feel pain in my heart, what's wrong with me, am I too muddle-headed? The ball turned into a circle and rolled.

If it were not for Lin Bei pulling my clothes, I would not be able to walk and I would not be able to distinguish between north, south and east.

Keep walking, and then, I feel pain in my heart, I feel tired in my eyes.

"Lin Xin, let's go back to the palace." I heard my own voice, so low, so low, every word, with a throaty hoarseness, coming out of my heart, so disappointed and sad.

Lin Xin stopped and looked at me, his eyes filled with worry and anger. "In the beginning of the snow, go to Shangguan Yu."

I was even more unwilling to leave. "No, I'm not going."

"What are you afraid of? "Chu Xue, you're a little arrogant."

Lin Xin, I don't want to go. He is preparing for his marriage, and my appearance will not be good. If I go, I'm afraid I might see something even more painful.

"I am just a palace maid." I said self-deprecatingly, "What qualifications do I have to go?"

He looked at me, his eyes firm. "You have to go. "But you're Ni Chuxue, you have your dignity and your pride. No matter what, you have to walk in with your shoulders straight."

Can I? I'm powerless, the weight of my hanging shoulders.

"Or can you listen to what he says? Isn't it the same as being disappointed?"

"I'm afraid of meeting the people from his estate." I was a little timid, but even though this was the way things were going, I still believed that Shangguan Bing had a little more. How could he be so easily convinced and disappointed? I've been worried from the start that I, too, was unprepared after carrying the burden for so long.

"Don't be afraid, you are just a palace maid. If you follow behind me, Painter Lin will not make things difficult for the palace maids who follow him."

I looked at Lin Bei, so real, for a friend, so firm.

Or maybe there's no real friend between men and women, he likes me, I'm sure, just as I'm sure I like Shangguan Bing. Once I know, that's like, and I'm not that stupid.

The care in his eyes, the pain in his eyes, made my nose sour.

He took me to the house of Shangguan Yu, where the three large golden characters, "Shangguan", hung high above the main gate, and where the wild grass was written, as was his disposition.

Lin Xin knocked on the door and politely said, "Lin Xin, the art artist from the Palace, requests an audience."

"Wait, I'll go look for our Young Master." The gatekeeper watched for a while before turning around and walking away.

The wall also posted red joy letters, stinging my eyes, won't, how to marry, married?

So painful, so painful, now I know what is called heartache, so painful that I can't breathe, so painful that my heart has turned upside down.

"Lin Xin, let's go, okay?" I begged.

I really don't want to see it. I don't know if it will hurt to see it again.

He stood there as steady as a rock. "You must see him."

After a while, a steward came over and said, "I don't know what is the purpose of this visit. Our young master is going to get married in three days, I have no time to think about it."

Three days, what a coincidence. It just so happened to be the Emperor's birthday. Why, was he willing? Was he impressed?

Why doesn't he want to come out and see me? I'm here.

"Marry in three days?"

"Don't say anything, Lin Xin. Let's go back." Don't see the red joy, the pain in your heart.