Arc 8, Chapter 6 - 'Won’t Beg for Forgiveness”

Arc 8, Chapter 6 - “Won’t Beg for Forgiveness”

As blood was gushing from their gouged shoulder and thigh, rough breaths filled with a feverish heat and their blood-drained complexion made it evident that the countdown to their death was ticking.

Unless they received treatment immediately, their life would be in danger, as the countdown could not be stopped.

However, if healing magic were to be cast, they would definitely be saved. It was an absolutely treatable injury.

Subaru: [Even so, why...]

Next to the pulverized mill, amidst the lingering smell of burnt wood from the remaining embers, Subaru faced off against an “enemy” in the slowly swelling waterlogged Imperial Capital.

And yet, it was someone who no longer could be called an “enemy”, Todd Fang.

――Calling Todd an “enemy” was not something Subaru wanted to do anymore.

Since their very first meeting, Todd continuously subjected him to all sorts of grief. He had been targeted and killed numerous times, with death and fear etched into his memories that fostered a deep-seated grudge.

Each time Subaru had Returned by Death and dealt with Todd’s attacks, he ultimately undid each and every tragedy that occurred.

The forest that the People of Shudraq lived in was burned down, leading to their annihilation. In the surprise attack on the Fortress City of Guaral, Flop had been killed numerous times. During the operation to capture the City Hall of Guaral, Subaru had experienced the feeling of walking on a tightrope that was set ablaze.

The pinnacle of it all was the massacre on the Gladiator Island Ginunhive, where Tanza, Idra, Hiain, Weitz, Gustav, Old Man Null, and many other companions on the island were all killed. However, Subaru had even managed to overturn that outcome.

Subaru had no intention of pretending like Todd’s actions had never happened.

It was just that through Subaru’s struggles of protecting what was dear to him by Returning by Death, these actions by Todd had gradually been erased.

The reason why Subaru regarded Todd as an enemy was something that existed only within Subaru’s mind.

And finally, now that an unprecedented disaster had struck the Capital and they were forced to retreat, Todd showed a willingness to cooperate with Subaru and the others to protect his fiancée.

Indeed, without Todd’s cooperation, it would have been difficult to find effective countermeasures against the overflow of zombies, and it would have taken numerous retries to achieve an outcome where everyone escaped.

The same was true for the battle with that zombie, the one-eyed warrior.

In order to defeat that twisted enemy who had transformed into a monster, Subaru also required Todd’s cooperation. They both knew that without each other, their lives would be at risk.

That was why they needed just one more step.

If only he had taken one more step, Subaru could have walked alongside Todd while bottling up his conflicting emotions.

And yet――,

Subaru: [Why...!]

Todd: [Don’t speak so hypocritically. You averted this just now because you also had a slight hunch. It’s not like you reacted to my intent to kill, you were just wary the whole time, right?]

Todd closed his bloodshot right eye as Subaru spoke with a trembling voice.

With a face that seemed like he was dealing with an unreasonable child, Todd’s gaze fell on the axe floating in the air―― or that was how it would have appeared to him as the weapon was grabbed by a black hand.

In Subaru’s mind, the axe was synonymous with Todd.

Subaru had experienced being struck in the head with Todd’s axe more than once or twice. Even though he had taken it away from Todd’s hand, just seeing it at the corner of his vision was enough to make Subaru’s teeth grind in unease.

Todd hit the nail on the head. Subaru had been wary of him all along.

So, when Subaru turned his back on the injured Todd, he activated Invisible Providence to protect his head since that would have been the surest way to kill him in case he was targeted.

However, he certainly did not wish for it to happen.

Nothing that occurred should have ever happened.

In that case――,

Todd: [My bad, my bad. I fell right for your trap.]

Subaru: [That’s not true...]

Todd: [We’re separated from the others, so right after we took care of the enemy I thought that was my chance but... You’re quite the actor.]

Subaru: [You’re wrong...]

Todd: [Did you plan to blow me up with that explosion earlier? If that was the case, it’s too bad that your aim was off.]

Subaru: [No! I really wanted to cooperate with you...!]

Todd: [――Spare me with your lies.]

Subaru’s throat gulped as Todd’s cold voice hit.

With one eye closed, Todd looked into Subaru’s eyes with a gaze devoid of heat and humidity. His gaze did not contain any hint of evaluating Subaru, which it had just moments ago.

Todd had already finished appraising Subaru, and that was why he was like this now.

Todd: [You should get it deep down as well. We just can’t understand each other.]

Subaru: [――――]

Todd: [I outwardly am suspicious of others, and you believe others to a fault. No matter how many words we exchange, our values are different.]

Slowly changing position, Todd cautiously watched Subaru, especially his axe that floated in the air. Subaru also bit his lip and glared at Todd with sorrow over the hovering axe.

They could not understand each other, Todd had said. Subaru continued to wonder if that was really the case.

He wondered if there really was no way to make it work.

Subaru: [If you kill me here, how will you handle the zombies and...]

Todd: [You don’t know when to quit. As long as I get out of the Imperial Capital, it’s all good. Thanks to your help, we were able to get Katya to the city walls. After that, I’m better off without you.]

Subaru: [Why! I have no intention to hurt Katya-san! I didn’t even intend to fight you! And yet!]

Todd: [――But you were willing to choose whether to save Katya or not, right?]

Subaru: [Huh...?]

Todd, standing in front of Subaru, who was raising his voice, said one cold comment.

Subaru’s cheeks hardened as he felt like he had been doused with cold water by Todd’s words.

He had no idea what he had meant.

To begin with, that was at odds with what Subaru was claiming. There was no need to choose as Subaru had no intention of harming Katya in the first place, so such an accusation was misplaced.

And yet, Subaru’s thoughts were frozen.

――Todd did not miss that moment.

Todd: [――I won’t beg for your forgiveness.]

Slipping through the opening of Subaru stumbling over his words, Todd lowered his stance and lunged at him.

The feeling of the shrinking distance between the two sides was so great that every cell in Subaru’s body screamed. Subaru immediately commanded his Unseen Hand, which was extended in the air, to throw the axe he had seized back at Todd.

However――,

Subaru: [Kk, gaaahk!?]

Instantly, Subaru’s vision was dyed bright red by a burning sensation that pierced his right thigh.

In Subaru’s right leg, a knife was sticking out of his thigh.

It was in Todd’s hand just a moment ago. Right before he leapt, he threw it into Subaru’s thigh while Subaru was unable to think, and he unfortunately took the brunt of it.

Then, while he was distracted by the pain, the Unseen Hand that was supposed to have thrown the axe was disrupted―― the floating axe was snatched back, and Todd’s forward kick smashed into Subaru’s chest.

Subaru: [Oof.]

Subaru’s body fell backward with a cry of pain, unable to put weight on his stabbed leg. He hit the back of his head and his back, and his scattered thoughts became even more fragmented.

His legs, chest, head, back, and then, the blade of the axe falling in front of him――.

Subaru: [Aaaaaa!]

He frantically shouted and forced the black hand to interrupt the axe in the midst of swinging down.

The overused Unseen Hand protruded from Subaru’s chest to stop the axe that approached the tip of his nose, and he mobilized his own two hands to keep the trembling blade from falling, resisting the murderous intent with his three arms.

Then Todd, holding the axe, also pushed in with all his might to force down the jostling blade.

His leg that was stabbed hurt. His chest where he was kicked hurt. His back where he was hit hurt. His head hurt as well. If this axe were to go through his face, it would hurt more than all of that and would furthermore hurt to the point of death.

Todd: [You’re, too tenacious... hk. Give up and die already...!]

Subaru: [No, way... Absolutely, no way...!]

With his hand on the ridge of the axe, Todd used his full weight to try to kill Subaru.

Subaru resisted with his three arms, including the Unseen Hand, but the child’s two hands and Authority, which had little advantage other than being invisible, could not push Todd away.

From the outside, it would appear to be a very absurd and miserable deathmatch.

The battle between Subaru and Todd was crude and unceremonious at such a critical juncture in the battle for the Imperial Capital of Lupugana, where a multitude of soldiers and warriors competed with their well-honed skills and weapons.

They had no trained skills, no special weapons, nor trump cards that could overpower others.

By the standards of the Vollachian Empire, this was a low level battle of life and death―― The decisive battle between Natsuki Subaru and Todd Fang, two people who could not understand each other.

Todd: [You’re too damn inconsistent! Your eyes say that you’re willing to die at any moment, you’re willing to put other people’s lives on a scale selfishly, but when it comes to this, you’re desperate to resist. It’s creepy!]

Subaru: [Don’t say, something so unreasonable...! Like hell I think I’m ready to die whenever. I’ve also never put anyone’s life, on a scale...! I don’t want to die!]

Todd: [Die!]

Subaru: [No!]

Todd’s eyes, chilled with a black, murderous intent, were about to freeze Subaru’s racing heart. While the grinding struggle of the blade of the axe that was locked between the two continued, their fierce battle could not go on forever.

Because――,

Subaru: [Guh, gee...]

Subaru stifled a grunt in the back of his throat as blood trickled from his earlobes.

It was the backlash due to the heavy use of the Authority of the Unseen Hand. This was a screaming warning signal from Subaru’s eroding body. However, he had no choice but to rely on it. Otherwise, the falling blade would cleave Subaru’s face in two.

Todd: [That strange trick seems to be nearing its limits.]

The ghastly look on Subaru’s face and the outpouring of blood helped Todd understand the repercussions of using the Unseen Hand. He knew that if he kept on going at this pace, Subaru would reach his limit first.

Whatever it took, before it happened―― that was what he thought at that moment.

Both: [――Hk!?]

――That was Todd Fang’s ultimatum.

Subaru: [――――]

Having spat that out, Todd’s bones creaked as his form changed.

The wounds peeking through the tears of his Imperial Soldier’s uniform were closed, and his skin was covered with animal hair that matched the color of the hair atop his head. His nose protruded and his mouth grew wide as if it were ripping open, and newly grown white teeth began to sharpen, transforming his appearance into that of a ferocious beast.

A werewolf, he looked just as he had declared.

He stood on two legs, handled his weapon with two arms, and would bite the life out of his opponent with his ferocious fangs. He had transformed into that type of existence―― no, his true nature was revealed.

Todd: [Die.]

Briefly, Todd stepped toward Subaru once again with that intention in his words.

His step was large, and the speed with which he kicked the ground with his hind legs exploded. His aim was to kill Subaru, the object of his unknown fear, not allowing his opponent who knew his true identity to live.

Subaru’s fighting spirit exploded as he realized this.

Subaru: [――Invisible Providence.]

Todd, now a werewolf, leapt at Subaru with an axe in his hand.

Before the axe could reach him, Subaru picked up debris with the black arm that extended from his chest, and knocked the axe away to the other side, past Todd’s head.

Todd: [――Hk!]

But even if his axe was gone, Todd now had another weapon, his fangs.

Subaru had also used the Unseen Hand to block the axe and could not rely on his Authority to block Todd’s fangs.

Instead, Subaru pulled out the knife that was stuck in his leg with his own hand.

Subaru: [Ghi, gaaa!!]

Screaming from the intense pain that he had never gotten used to, Subaru held the knife he had pulled out in both hands, and he clamped it in the gap between Todd’s fangs as he bit down on it.

The closing, sharp fangs were stopped by the knife, and Subaru’s face was pushed down again as drool spilled from the knife-biting werewolf’s mouth, dripping onto his cheeks.

Todd: [――Oh!!]

Subaru: [Aaaaaah!!]

Like that, his fangs pushed forward, closing in on Subaru’s neck.

While desperately trying to hold him back, Subaru screamed in pain.

Subaru: [I’m... not going to kill you...!]

He screamed as he was about to be killed, just before the tips of their fangs gouged into his neck.

The one who was about to take a life was being chastised by the one whose life was about to be taken.

Even if he was pushed to the edge and his head was bitten off, even if he lost his life, even if he was sent back to where he was in the middle of the battle.

For reasons unknown to Subaru, Todd felt a sense of grief and resentment for the world.

It was at that moment.

???: [――That’s enough.]

The sound of that voice caught Subaru by surprise, plucking resoundingly at his soul.

Every one of the beast’s breaths, every little rumble of the earth, every bit of ongoing chaos in various parts of the Imperial Capital, it was all a noisy hell where every sound was rampaging around as it pleased.

Even in such a world, nothing could impede that voice.

It was as if the very existence of Natsuki Subaru was made to resonate with that voice.

Todd: [Goh――]

Immediately after, as Todd’s body pressed down on Subaru’s, trying to bring his fangs down to end his life, Todd was blown away by a tremendous impact, slamming him from the side.

Subaru: [――――]

In front of him, Todd, who became a werewolf, was propelled into open view, and reflected in Subaru’s eyes were shining and gleaming shards of raining ice. What scattered them was a hammer made out of ice.

With a full-power blow using a sizable ice hammer, Todd was sent flying.

And the one who had swung that ice hammer with both hands, making her long, silver hair dance, was a girl in a white outfit with a stunningly beautiful figure――,

Subaru: [――Emilia.]

Subaru’s mouth unconsciously moved to trace the name that had suddenly passed through his mind.

The girl looked back, her amethyst eyes blinked, and they met Subaru’s black ones. Subaru, captivated by the beauty of her eyes, involuntarily gasped.

Emilia: [You there, come here!]

Subaru: [Huh?]

He forgot to breathe, or perhaps he was holding his breath, but it was forcibly interrupted.

White fingers, reaching out with great strength, pulled Subaru’s body up into her arms with a strength that one could not have imagined from her appearance. Without hesitation, the girl, Emilia, picked up Subaru who was muddied with blood as she bent her knees with an “Alright,”

Emilia: [Haa!]

With a shout, Emilia jumped and kicked the wall of a nearby building, and leaped up even higher onto the roof of a building. Subaru, wrapped in her embrace, was dumbfounded, but he soon understood.

Below them, the street below the building where Emilia had landed with Subaru in her arms was swept away at a tremendous pace by a muddy stream, engulfing everything in sight.

Emilia: [That was dangerous... You almost got swallowed by the water.]

At that overwhelming sight, Emilia patted her chest in relief.

Emilia’s reaction did not convey much urgency or sense of tragedy, although the despairing scene was overwhelming as both the ruins of the grain mill that was blown up by the dust explosion and the street where Todd had dragged the zombie around until the grain mill was prepared were collectively engulfed in the flash flood.

If she had been a little slower, Subaru would have been swallowed by the current, just as Emilia had said. If that had happened, there was no way he could have survived――,

Emilia: [――Hk, who was that guy!?]

Todd, who was on the verge of biting Subaru to death, was sent flying by Emilia.

If he had failed to escape, would he have been swallowed by the flash flood as well? If he had been swallowed by the force of the water, there would have been no way for Todd to have survived that strong of water.

Forgetting the pain in his leg, Subaru quickly looked around and searched for Todd in the muddy streets of the Imperial Capital that were swallowed up by the murky water. Subaru did not even know the answer to the question of whether he wanted Todd to be found or not.

Emilia: [Hey, relax! Who are you looking for... Oh! Looking closer, I see that you’re badly hurt! I need to get you treated right away...]

As Subaru looked around frantically, Emilia noticed the wound on Subaru’s leg, and moved to sit him down on the edge of the rooftop,

Emilia: [Hold on! A user of healing magic will be here soon...]

Subaru: [There’s no time for that! Leave me alone, and...]

Emilia: [You’re the one who needs to get on your feet...]

Emilia raised an eyebrow at Subaru as he tried to stand up, brushing off her words of advice. However, her scolding was interrupted before it reached its conclusion.

Her large, amethyst eyes opened wide, and he could see the scene behind him reflected in her beautiful eyes.

As Subaru sat on the edge of the rooftop, the werewolf came out from behind him as it broke the water and opened its gaping mouth to bite Subaru on the nape of the neck.

Subaru: [――――]

Either the bite would pull him into the water, or it would mercilessly bite down on his jugular. It was a moment that even Emilia, right in front of him, would not be able to stop in time.

Todd’s dogged determination defied even the flash flood and attempted to gnaw away at Subaru’s life.

At that moment――,

???: [――Don’t touch.]

The sound of a strong wind rattled as he heard footsteps treading on the rooftop.

Neither the exhausted Subaru, nor the too-distant Emilia, could stop Todd’s attack.

Instead, it was a girl with angry, light blue eyes who leapt in.

???: [――Him!!]

At the same time as that yell, an axe was unleashed, swung with all its might.

Subaru had knocked away the axe as the werewolf pounced towards him. Somehow, it landed in the hands of the girl and was sent back to its owner, who was trying to bite Subaru.

Todd: [――Gah.]

A second attack pushed through, overlapping with the wound on his left shoulder where the axe had once deeply pierced. The impact threw off the wolfman’s momentum, and his huge body was knocked away, thrown into the muddy waters.

With a loud splash and a column of water, this time, the werewolf―― Todd Fang sank below the surface.

???: [Haa, haa, haa...]

The girl who had swung the axe, breathing heavily with her shoulders heaving, held Subaru’s head to her chest. As she did so, she dropped the axe from her trembling hands into the water and knelt down on the spot.

Then, the girl―― Rem’s light blue eyes and Subaru’s black eyes met.

Rem: [It, seems like you’re fine.]

Subaru: [I’m not really fine, but...]

Subaru replied in a wavering tone to Rem as he lowered the corners of his eyes with a faint sense of relief.

Then, he looked behind him for Todd, who had been thrown into the water by Rem’s blow. ――He was nowhere to be found. There was no way he could be found. And even if he was found...

Subaru: [――Hk.]

With frustration and bitterness welling up inside him, Subaru put his hand on his chest.

Subaru and Todd could not understand each other in any way. What Subaru wanted him to understand, and that Todd did not wish to be understood, none of it.

That was what frustrated him. It was so frustrating and disappointing.

With that feeling of helpless frustration――,

Emilia: [Rem! Thank goodness. Heal this boy’s wounds! Then, quickly, to Subaru...]

Rem: [Wait a minute! This is the child! This boy is him! This is the one that calls himself Natsuki Subaru...]

Emilia: [Huh! That kid is Subaru!? But he’s so cute...?]

Slowly, little by little, Subaru’s strength slipped away on the edge of the rooftop, and right in front of him, the two women who had helped him―― Emilia and Rem were shouting this and that about Subaru.

Then, with those two in front of him, the thought of how long it had been since he last had seen them talking to each other passed through his mind, and faded――.

Subaru: [Todd, you goddamn idiot...]

With this sense of frustration and defeat as the final straw, Subaru’s consciousness abruptly faded.