Chapter 397

Chapter 397

Leading soldiers is a lot of work.

Its not all training drills and motivational speeches, or logistics and tactics either. Much of the effort which goes into leading soldiers isnt obvious at first glance, but once Daxian pointed out all of my retinues deficiencies, I felt like a complete moron for not seeing them first. Mixed units, dwindling discipline, and piss-poor formations are the most concerning issues, but there are a plethora of other minor matters of contention I need to deal with the immediate future.

Like my drunk of a hundred-man commander for one. Oh Jorani, what happened? You were doing so well before, and now this?

... and thus enabling your retinue to react to ambush or sabotage in the most optimal manner, whether it be to counter-attack or fall back to defend our supplies. Looking up from the formation he drew in the sand, Daxian asks, Shall I move on, or do you require clarification, Sir?

I dont like him much. Its not his bare minimum of respect or his harsh criticism of how I do almost everything, grating though it may be. I get it, hes a former Major reduced to serving in the retinue of a grossly incompetent Warrant Officer. He doesnt want to be here any more than I want him around, but were both stuck with one another due to circumstances beyond our control. Doesnt mean I have to like him, and while I must admit hes not the trumped up, over-hyped, pretty-boy, toy soldier I took him for, my initial plan remains unchanged.

I intend to treat Daxian like garbage until he runs home crying to daddy, because I dont want either of them around Pong Pong.

I admit, its not a great plan, or even a good one, but what else am I supposed to do? You dont refuse an Ancestral Beast, doubly so when he knows a big secret. Even though I havent seen Blobby in a month now, it doesnt change the fact that GangShu kept quiet about him. I owe him for this, but if I tell him to hit the road and go take Imperial Orders, its entirely possible he blabs about it and I get black-bagged and forced to give up my Heavenly Droplet. Im guessing GangShu and his Ascendants are the powerful allies the Legate was talking about, but what he doesnt know is that theyre not here to help me. Im just the most convenient excuse GangShu could find to avoid following Imperial orders, and maybe also because he hopes Ill find Blobby again and keep him safe from Anathema.

I hope that happens too.

I feel kinda bad about abusing Daxian just because I dont want him or his sexy daddy hanging around, but Id feel worse if I liked him more. I mean, who calls themselves The Virtuous? I have no questions, I say, but lets continue this discussion after dinner. Report to Mister Rustram as his aide and bodyguard, and inform him to arrange an officers meeting in two hours.

Shock and disbelief give way to smouldering anger as Daxian processes my command. Yes, thats it. Give in to your rage and refuse this assignment, then go into hiding with your daddy and his friends. Theyre around here somewhere, but Ive seen neither hide nor hair of GangShu since Mahakalas death and Id like to keep it that way. Unfortunately, instead of flying off the handle and spewing a torrent of insults and obscenities, Daxian diplomatically replies through clenched teeth. I am to be your seconds aide? You would be better served utilizing my tactical and martial expertise in a command position.

Youll take whatever position I tell you to, soldier. Is it wrong to enjoy this so much? Its not a decision I make lightly. Im merely a figurehead and I try to stay out of the way while Mister Rustram runs the retinue. Keep him safe and show him the ropes. Seeing Daxians confused gaze, I explain the idiom, Teach him and keep him alive so I dont have to step in and mess everything up. Mother knows how we made it this far, but hes in over his head and so am I. Your guidance in the command tent is more valuable than your spear on the battlefield, and your help will be much appreciated.

Oops. Too polite. Curse my good manners!

Though still unconvinced, Daxian nods and marches off to harass poor Rustram while I whisper an apology to my second-in-command. Finally free to unclench my butt-hole, I heave a sigh of relief and turn to Lin with a smile, reassured that Pong Pongs presence has gone unnoticed for yet another day. Most days hes happy to sleep in Mama Buns embrace, but hes recently grown restless of his comfortable lifestyle and insists on swimming with the quins and Ping Ping in plain sight. I tried to explain the dangers, but communication is still an issue. Hes intelligent and learns quickly, but at the end of the day, hes still a turtle. Telling him to remain hidden didnt work because Pong Pong doesnt hide from threats.

He seeks them out and destroys them.

Thankfully, his... unique status isnt apparent at first glance, or even second or third. So long as he refrains from smashing someone with his Aura or performing any Heavenly Energy shenanigans, hes no different from a regular, run of the mill turtle, albeit a beautiful one who swims faster and jumps higher than a turtle his size should. Sick as I am of having an anxiety attack every time Daxian shows his face, my options are limited. King Pong does whatever he pleases, so I can only pray he goes unnoticed and doesnt recognize GangShu and the Ascendants as his attackers. Should they come to blows, Im not sure which side would emerge victorious, but I do know I dont want to be in the vicinity when it happens. I say when because its only a matter of time before things go horrifically wrong. Even if they never notice anything strange, GangShu has some means of tracking Pong-Pong. While it may be awhile before he goes back to hunting for Heavenly Droplets, Ill have to choose a side eventually.

Oh who am I kidding? I pick Pong Pong because hes too damned cute, but also because my primal attraction to GangShus chest hair makes me extremely uncomfortable.Follow current novels at novelhall.com)

Putting my worries aside, I resume cooking dinner for Taduk, Lin, and Luo-Luo. I should thank Charok for igniting my love of cooking, because without his patient and careful guidance, Id never have discovered how immensely soothing it can be. There are rules laid out to follow, but enough leeway to allow for creative exploration. Its meaningful work with a clear purpose, and when everything is said and done, I have something to show for all my effort, something I can share with my family and whoever else I so choose to.

Which makes it a hell of a lot more satisfying than most of the things I do on a daily basis.

That said, I cant keep burying my head in the sand. Daxians right. My retinue is a mess and its largely my fault. I knew Rustram was busy training with Mom and I didnt do anything to help. Bulat and Ravil were probably holding things together, but then I assigned them to lead the Death Corps and didnt promote anyone to take their place. Tack on the constant stream of festivities taking place in and around Nan Ping and Im surprised my soldiers have yet to start a brawl or incite a riot. I need to get everyone back into fighting shape, or else the Defiled will chew us up and spit us out.

Cant say. Words slurred and almost beyond comprehension, Jorani rests his head against the chamber pots rim, which is disgusting for so very many reasons. National Sec hic curity. Real hush-hush.

Unable to bear the stench, I step out and call my Death Corps escort over. Take him to the latrines to sober up, then bring him back for a chat. Gently, please. Chey, Ral, you stay where I can keep an eye on you. Unable to sit still, I busy myself airing out Joranis yurt, opening the roof and fanning the door until the interior is filled with breathable air once more. Thankfully, the Death Corps were diligent enough to bring the vomit-filled chamber pot with them or else Id feel pretty stupid wasting all that effort, so I light a fire and search for a clean place to sit down.

Fifteen minutes and one furious cleaning session later, the Death Corps return with Jorani in tow. Sober as a judge, the half-rat has enough sense to look ashamed, but wisely keeps silent and takes a seat across from me. Gesturing for the Death Corps to leave, I spy a concerned Ral and Chey standing outside the door as it slams shut. Alone with Jorani, I let the silence work for me while studying his sombre expression. Though I would never call him handsome, Jorani looks particularly wretched today, the dark circles and heavy bags beneath his eyes contrasting sharply with his pale, wan cheeks and rose-tipped nose. Bereft of the haze of alcohol, his clear eyes tell a tale of torment and misery, though tinged with a hint of relief. Its like he wanted to be caught, and perhaps he did, making this all a not so subtle cry for help.

What happened at the winery, Jorani?

Surprised by the lack of anger in my voice, Jorani nervously shakes his head. I aint supposed to say. Legates orders.

If I followed orders all the time, Id hang you for dereliction of duty.

Flinching at my cold logic, Jorani sighs. Fair enough. Taking a deep breath, he launches into his tale with a faraway look. Though seated across the table, his mind is a hundred kilometres away as he relives the harrowing ordeal of how he saw a Defiled Ancestral Beast dismantle three Heroes of the Empire, peak Experts and Living Legends alike. He tells me how the experience robbed him of courage and instilled terror in its place, and where he once held hope now only had despair. She toyed with them, he says, still unable or unwilling to believe it. Whole thing werent nothing but a game to her. Shouldve seen it from the start when lifted thousands of kilograms of dirt to make her entrance, but even then, I believed we could win. Looking me in the eyes for the first time, Jorani asks, When faced with so much power, how are we supposed to make a difference?

Most nights, I ask myself the same question.

And the answer?

I shrug, wishing I had a better one for him. We dont.

Ah. And with that, I watch the last vestige of hope and courage drift away on the wind as Jorani deflates in defeat. Then ye might as well hang me fer all the...

In the flickering firelight, the shadows coalesce around Jorani as he waxes on about how useless he is, but I only listen with half a mind. The other half is busy trying to comprehend whats happening before my eyes as the light darkens and air thickens around him. My vision blurs for a moment and I blink to clear it away, only to realize theres nothing wrong with my eyes. Its the world itself which turns hazy and indistinct, but only the area directly around Jorani as the rest of the room remains clear and distinct. My belly protests in discomfort as I focus on the anomaly, my skin crawling and hairs standing at the loathsome sight before me. Its not Jorani, but something around him, emerging from him, yet the person in question seems wholly unaware of the abominable happenings around him. As if stretched beyond breaking, the fabric of reality snap back into place and everything is as it was before.

Except now, a Spectre haunts Joranis mind, born of his resignation and misery.

Well... Thats... disconcerting.

...And no need to worry about the old rat bastard, he wont shed a tear. I aint nothing but a sorry excuse to him, but I can talks to him first. Actually, Id very much like to talk to him first, the old bastard got a few words comin to him, he do. Joranis eyes burn with anger as he rambles on, wholly unaware he just gave birth to a disembodied phantom of negative emotion which is now egging him on from within. In fact, Id -

Quiet. Outraged by the interruption, Jorani holds his tongue, though barely. Still not sure what to make of this, I reach over and palm his head, obscuring his vision as I devour the newborn Spectre with ease. Drained by the seesaw of emotions raging through him, Jorani shudders with its passing and slumps down and almost passes out, taxed by the cleansing despite being host to only a single Spectre. Putting the metaphysical developments aside, I tell Jorani, Hand over command to your second and report to latrine duty until further notice. You think youre the only one whos afraid? There will always be someone stronger, but that doesnt mean you give up the fight.

Standing to leave, I stop and try to think of something to say, something Id want someone to tell me when Im wallowing in the depths of despair. Sanshu looked hopeless until Hangman Jorani arrived to stem the Defiled tide. His efforts kept the city alive long enough for others to join the fight, and in doing so, saved millions of lives. Giving him time to let my words sink in, I look him in the eye and continue, You still live and breathe not because Im afraid of GangShu, but because I want Hangman Jorani fighting at my side. Let me know when you find him, will you?

And if I cant? Joranis voice is barely more than a whisper, his spirits low despite the cleansing.

I can take care of supernatural manifestations of anger and despair, but I cant do shit about plain old depression. Then let me know and Ill send you somewhere safe. I wont force you to fight Jorani, but I could use your help. Closing the door behind me, I shake my head and keep Ral from going inside. Give him some time to think. God, I hope he doesnt kill himself. But uh... stay close, just in case. Hes had a rough time.

Now... what the fuck happened back there and how can I make it stop?

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