Chapter 65

65 Chapter 65 ~ “Everything Is Messed Up”

“Haaah?!”

Cathain heavily breathed as he sat up abruptly from his sleep. His body was full of cold sweats and his heart was beating really fast.

‘What was that? Was it our past?’

The room was dark and only a few candle was lit up to make it dim light. The curtains was moving because of the light cold wind.

Cathain felt something over his hands and as he glanced over, Eleanora’s sleeping face beside him came to his view.

She was sleeping beside him, holding his hands tightly.

Cathain rubbed his forehead with his thumb and felt a light headache. If that was really their past life, then is this what Eleanora remembers?

Does she hates him for not cherishing her?

But something is still missing... he needs to find that out too. He can’t repeat the same mistake twice.

.....

Sudden possissevness and obsession takes over Cathain as he leans over to kiss on her forehead.

‘I won’t let you go again from me, Either it’s past or present... you can only be mine.’

Sensing his movements, Eleanora blinked and rubbed her eyes before opening them.

“You are awake?!”

Seeing him awake, Eleanora immediately opens her eyes in shock and sits up.

“Do you feel pain somewhere? Are you okay now?”

Cathain just blankly stared at her, before he hugged her so tightly that she couldn’t even breathe.

‘I finally meet you again... My Aria. Am sorry... I love you... I can’t let you go.’

The past Cathain’s emotions was still inside of him as it’s hasn’t been long since he remembered their first life.

A part of his heart calmed down. He is finally feeling a peaceful... his headache is also gone too.

But he was surprised when Eleanora hugged him back and patted on his back.

“Everything is okay... Calm down.”

Eleanora said to him but somehow he had the feeling that something isn’t okay at all.

He felt goosebumps because of her sudden change of behaviour.

Something is going very wrong...

Eleanora was anxious. The moment she saw him falling down suddenly and become unconscious, she felt like her life become dark again.

Thankfully Brayden kept following them in an distance and took him back to their room secretly without anyone noticing.

He was breathing normally and from outside, he just looked like he was sleeping. But she knew, he was not just sleeping.

She have faced this many times. She knew he must have remembered something from the past.

“No... Don’t remember... Don’t change... I beg you.

Don’t make me quiver for you again by your changed behaviour and make me repeat my past again... Just to kill me like before.”

Eleanora kept looking at him, stroking his hair to comfort him. She knows how painful it is to face the abyss.

“I love you...”

Cathain murmured in his dream and Eleanora’s body froze. How eagerly she had waited to hear this from him, in her past life.

Eleanora sneered at herself for being like this. She momentary gave in to him. Thanks to his words that she has gotten back her rationality.

Who is she to pity him, where he have never bothered to do the same for her?

“Haah...! Am still pathetic... No matter how strong i pretend to be, you are able to crush it all just by a fling of your hands...

How good it would be if the present you and my past self meet? Who loved each other?

I feel like i snatched your love from you... I tainted the 13 year old Eleanora’s heart with my coldness.

Otherwise she and you would be a lover who would be deep in love. When i stopped loving you, You started to love me...

Just what should i do with you, My executioner?”

Eleanora narrowed her eyes as Cathain hold her hands tightly in her dream. She stared at his face with great seriousness as she continued to spoke to herself.

“If i think that the current you is innocent... then wasn’t the past me innocent too?

Should i make you suffer like you did to me... or just kill you?”

Eleanora devilishly smirked at his handsome face. She tried to pull her hands out from his grip but they tightened more.

“D-Don’t leave me...”

Cathain again murmured in his dream and Eleanora couldn’t help but sneer. How pathetically she had begged him countless time to not leave her alone...

“The past Eleanora’s only mistake was to love the past you... Then, shouldn’t the current yours mistake should be the same?

You want to play love game? Then should i join you to make it a little more interesting?”

Eleanora laid beside him and laughed at herself before she closed her eyes.

‘Look... what you turned me into... From a innocent girl to a scheming villainess!’

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The Eleanora, Cathain knew would never let him hug her, let alone being close or sleeping beside him.

Something is really wrong...

He grabbed her shoulders and look into her deep blue eyes. All he could see was hidden disgust and hatred that she was trying so hard to hide under the pretense of worrying.

Eleanora was really worried... worried about what he remembered and how much.

“You know... the first emperor and empress?”

Eleanora was taken aback for a moment before she replied.

“Yeah, The first emperor was Cathain Valentino...”

She slowed down a little before she uttered her last words.

“And the empress was saintess Ariande...”

Eleanora become lost in thoughts. She knew the first emperor’s name long ago but never paid that much attention.

As for saintess Ariande... Is it merely a coincidence for both of their name to be same and her getting the saintess name?

‘Why have i never thought about this before?’

Seeing Eleanora in daze, Cathain was surprised a little. Because to him, the dream he had jist now was their past life.

Then what was those vision?

Both of them fall silent. Everything was messing up. Nothing was clear.

If she got one clue, then it would get entangle with another.

Cathain’s grip on her shoulders become a little more tight, Was the memory he saw was not the only life they shared together?

He had a feeling that if he doesn’t short this out, he will only make more mistakes and lose her forever again.

He can’t let that happen. So, he needs to know what exactly happened even if he doesn’t remember.

Cathain started to speak in a low but gentle tone, that Eleanora was unfamiliar with.

“Eleanora... I want you to be honest with me. What exactly happened in our past life?”