CH 39

The father and son quickly walked back to the gate of the courtyard. Father Lu was about to push the iron fence door when he suddenly remembered something. He turned his head and asked, “By the way, do you want to sleep with Shen Wenqiu in the same room at night, or sleep in two separate rooms? I originally prepared two rooms.”

Lu Yong stood stupidly and blushed, his lips twitched, “I, I…”

Father Lu clicked his tongue impatiently. He rolled his eyes at him and turned his head away without waiting for him to speak. He reached out to push the door, “Oh, then it’s better to have two rooms.”

Seeing that he was about to be left behind, Lu Yong felt anxious and quickly said, “One room! One room!”

“Are you sure?” Father Lu asked, “We are very quiet here at night, don’t mess around.”

Lu Yong blushed, “I won’t mess around.”

Lu Yong himself felt hypocritical, “I just want to take care of Shen Wenqiu close by. Really.”

This was not a false statement.

Father Lu smiled without saying a word and laughed “haha” twice. Lu Yong felt his ears burning

The small building they lived in was just behind the small courtyard. In the middle of the night, the cats and dogs were much quieter than during the day, with a bark or two occasionally. It made this rural field even quieter and more deserted.

Shen Wenqiu was sitting in the living room on the first floor watching TV. The closer Lu Yong got, the lighter his steps, until he stood outside the line of light, in the darkness, silently looking at Shen Wenqiu’s silhouette.

Father Lu didn’t say anything, patted him on the shoulder and left, “You two have a good chat.”

However, after leaving for only more than ten minutes, Lu Yong had a feeling that he had been away for a long time and was indescribably anxious. For the past two months, he hardly let Shen Wenqiu out of his sight and he felt uncomfortable all over when he couldn’t see him for a moment.

It was almost like an addiction.

Right now, Lu Yong’s mind was full of what his father said to him just now but it was very strange. When he listened to it, he felt that everything was very clear and his chest was full of courage. But when Shen Wenqiu was in front of him, his head went blank again.

Shen Wenqiu was peeling pecan nuts to eat and looked up at him, “Why are you standing there staring at me? You want to eat too? I’ll share it with you.”

Lu Yong shook his head stupidly and said abruptly, “I’m relieved to see you are fine.”

Shen Wenqiu smiled, “What? You just walked away for ten minutes, right?”

It so happened that there was a collar dog leash on the table.

Shen Wenqiu picked it up and gestured around his neck, “Why don’t you just put a collar around my neck and tie a dog leash? To lead me wherever you go?”

Lu Yong solemnly denied, “No, no, it’s different from taking you with me. I’m…I’m…”

Shen Wenqiu put down his collar and said with a smile, “I’m joking.”

Shen Wenqiu thought that they had been arguing for several days and it was time to reconcile.

He had always been clear that Lu Yong was a person with such a dull character, so he could only take the initiative to resolve conflicts.

Lu Yong sat down beside him and asked, “Where are the others?”

Shen Wenqiu nodded and said, “They went to play mahjong. They asked me if I wanted to play and I said no. I promised you that I would never gamble again.”

In fact, when he was asked, he was feeling a little itchy. But he felt uncomfortable when he thought of Lu Yong’s disappointed eyes, especially when he recalled how Lu Yong was sitting at the gambling table.

Lu Yong’s heart warmed up.

‘So cute!’ Lu Yong really wanted to reach out and touch his head, especially when Shen Wenqiu was watching TV alone. He looked quiet and lonely.

Shen Wenqiu subtly noticed that Lu Yong had probably talked about something important with his father. When he came back, his attitude changed drastically and he actually took the initiative to get close to him.

He was no longer wary or deliberately avoiding him.

Shen Wenqiu silently felt flattered in his heart and then became uneasy. Lu Yong laughed softly and wanted to do something, his hands didn’t rest to peel oranges for Shen Wenqiu to eat, “En.”

Shen Wenqiu glanced at him and saw that the corner of Lu Yong’s mouth had a smile. Just one glance, he felt that his mood was also a little brightened.

The two shared a small sugar orange to eat and the one Lu Yong peeled felt a little sweeter.

Shen Wenqiu didn’t want to just sit and enjoy, so he peeled the nuts and fed Lu Yong. Two people, you feed me, I feed you and his mind wasn’t on the TV in front of him at all anymore.

“How did you get so focused??” Shen Wenqiu asked naturally. He had been thinking about this for a long time, “Dayong, during the day when your father teased you with a dog, you were not angry… I’ve always… I’ve always admired you for this. You only have one hand but I’ve never seen you feel inferior.”

Lu Yong was stunned for a moment and blurted out, “Why do you think I have no inferiority complex?”

Shen Wenqiu, “Do you have it?”

Lu Yong nodded generously, “If you didn’t take the initiative to make friends with me in high school, I would’ve definitely not dared to be your friend and when I came back to my senses I seemed to have become a lot more cheerful.”

“I also used to regret that I lost an arm. They would laugh at me as a disabled person and laugh at my house for opening a garbage station but you won’t. I slowly solved the knot in my heart and stopped caring about my flaws. “

While talking, Lu Yong looked at Shen Wenqiu and slowly regained his courage. The eyes of the two met as if they had been stained with glue, sticking together unknowingly and the surrounding air seemed to be quietly warming up.

Shen Wenqiu always felt that Lu Yong’s gentle eyes were saying, ‘The luckiest thing in my life was to meet you.’

Shen Wenqiu finally turned his face away and averted his gaze.

His fingertips were doing pinching gestures and were full of crumbs. He drew a paper towel, wiped his hands and changed the topic abruptly, “It’s late, we should go to bed.”

Lu Yong’s Adam’s apple rolled and said, “I-, My dad said that there is only one guest room. Let’s make do with sleeping together all night, is that okay?”

Of course, Shen Wenqiu would not say no.

But when they really saw that there was only one bed and two quilts in the room, with the size of the two of them, they could barely sleep.

Shen Wenqiu took a deep look and asked, “Would you sleep outside or inside?”

Lu Yong said, “You sleep inside, I sleep outside, so as not to squeeze you down in the middle of the night. Go wash your face and brush your teeth first.”

Shen Wenqiu nodded, accepted the location arrangement, walked to the bathroom silently and whispered, “It’s not that we haven’t slept on the same bed before and I wasn’t pushed down either…”

He helped with work today and played with cats and dogs. There was always a smell on his body, so Shen Wenqiu took a bath anyway.

Lu Yong sat stiffly on the edge of the bed as he listened to the sound of water splashing in the bathroom as if he was waiting on their wedding night. He took off his coat, slowly bent down, put his elbows on his legs and covered his mouth. He confusedly thought,

‘Should I wait for Shen Wenqiu to come out of the bathroom…and ask him if he could be his boyfriend?’

Lu Yong sighed.

He felt that the current order was not right.

In fact, no matter how much he thought of himself as righteous and awe-inspiring, he couldn’t say that when he brought Shen Wenqiu back, he had no ambiguous thoughts at all.

But he felt that he should respect Shen Wenqiu. According to the world’s most normal relationship process, the first was to help Shen Wenqiu regain the ability to live independently but also to let Shen Wenqiu have friends, find some old friends or make some good new friends. For example when Sheng Xu came to look for Shen Wenqiu last time, he thought that Shen Wenqiu could also go out with them.

He should wait for Shen Wenqiu to establish a healthy and broad life circle before he could really cheer up in a proper way.

Then they would stand equally and he would go after Shen Wenqiu again.

It was a total mess.

Just because he was a beast who can’t control himself.

Now, what was the matter with confessing to Shen Wenqiu? He wasn’t really that stupid. Of course, he felt that Shen Wenqiu was very dependent on him now.

Did that count as liking? Maybe it was just an illusion caused by the suspension bridge effect, an irrational emotion after being captive.

Lu Yong thought about these things in his head and stayed in a daze until Shen Wenqiu came out of the shower and saw that he was still wearing his prosthetic limb. He said, “You haven’t taken off the prosthetic limb yet?”

Lu Yong, “….I’m about to take it off.”

Shen Wenqiu sat on his right with water vapour still lingering on his body and stared at him. He sat so close as if he was leaning against him. Shen Wenqiu asked in a soft voice, “Dayong, can I take it off for you?? I’ve been wanting to try it for a long time.”

This sounded so ambiguous and Lu Yong was so red to the root of his neck.

In front of Shen Wenqiu, he will always become mute and stupid. Dayong who was unable to refuse, “Okay, okay…”

Shen Wenqiu’s hand touched his alloy prosthetic arm.

Of course, this expensive prosthetic limb could not completely replace the real arm. The fingers had the most advanced tactile conduction but the feeling of it was also vastly different from his left arm, not to mention other places.

But when Shen Wenqiu’s hand touched him, he had a real feeling of being touched. As if his soul was gently approached and grasped by Shen Wenqiu and he asked, “Do I press here? “

Lu Yong said, “Yes.”

Shen Wenqiu pressed the button, imitating Lu Yong’s movement of removing his arm and with a slight twist, took off his prosthetic limb, “I’ll sterilise it for you.”

Lu Yong carried a disinfection kit with him.

When he went out, he would wipe it down with an alcohol swab.

Lu Yong didn’t even dare to turn his head, his ears were twitching. He gritted his teeth and thought, ‘That’s it. It’s better to coax people over first, even though the order is wrong.’

But…but how should he ask?

—”Xiao Baa, can I be your boyfriend?”

Isn’t it a little insincere to call him Xiao Baa? Does it seem a little arrogant with “I” as the subject?

—”Shen Wenqiu, I want to date you.”

It didn’t seem so clear? Or the tone to notify him was too rough.

—”Shen Wenqiu, can you fall in love with me?”

He thinks the word “love” makes people shy. How about replacing it with “in a relationship”? It seemed too corny again. Moreover, this question sounds so weak and if it was not firm enough, it would be rejected by Shen Wenqiu again.

Lu Yong hadn’t decided about it yet.

Shen Wenqiu asked beside him, “Is this okay? Do you want to have a look?”

Lu Yong turned his head in a daze and bumped into Shen Wenqiu’s gaze, his face instantly turned red.

Shen Wenqiu obviously just approached him and didn’t do anything out of the ordinary but Lu Yong still felt like a little lamb had slipped into his arms, rubbing against his heart and begging him to caress him.

Shen Wenqiu stared at him without blinking as if he was afraid that he would escape and asked with a blushing face, “Dayong, do you want to have another accident?”