Chapter 128 - 128 If only...

In urgent, I hold his shoulders try to lifting his unconscious body and succeed in turning him over. I was incredulous, don't know where I get my freaking strength from, but I manage to turn him over and yanking him over so his head pillow on my lap.

I got incredibly fl.u.s.tered just by seeing his lifeless body like this.

My hands desperately smoothing over his bearded face, I scrutinise his pale face and noticing his hand got swollen than before and bruises with dried blood all over his knuckles. I getting tears up.

"Babe, wake up. Please, wake up!" I burst and turn into hysteria as I look at the man I love was unconscious and unresponsive lifelessly, lying on my lap.

The tears pour down all over my face even drop onto his cheeks.

"Feng Teng, babe. Please open your eyes," I desperately run my hands over his face, his chest, his hair.

Oh, God! Is this what's the meaning of him that I had have caused damage to him. His face looks sunken, he's even lost weight and him totally in mess.

"President Feng!" Yu scream when he finds me on the terrace with Feng Teng head supported in my lap.

"Yu, I don't know if he's still breathing." I wailing, looking up through Yu approaching us.

Oh no! I've forgotten's the first rule in first aid.

Immediately, I grab his wrist, but my quiver hands made me couldn't establish the pulse.

"Miss, let me do it," Yu gestures as he kneeling and retrieve Feng Teng arm from me.

I look up and find Kevin stood at the doorway.

"What an idiot dumbass...!" Kevin curse as he saw Feng Teng state.

The revulsion of my feeling was unspeakable horror, the remorse, was more than I could bear as I'm seeing his state right now. The accusing that I've caused him great damage keep flashing in my ears. I'm burst into bawling uncontrollably.

Kevin lowering himself down next to me. He rubbing my arm gently as he tries to calm me down.

"I'll call 911," Junjie says urgently as reach us and seeing the motionless Feng Teng.

"Don't!" Yu barks harshly at Junjie

Then he leaning over and frown as he inspecting every part of  Feng Teng body.

"Not necessary. He's fine. He just went into deep drunken of state semi-coma! Not critical, Miss Bei. The president he just fine, calm down," Yu assure after checking his boss body and condition.

I look at Junjie then Kevin, but I couldn't find their reactions according to Yu conclusion.

Wait! How does he sure and know that he will be fine?

Just looking at Feng Teng motionless condition right now, he could be concluded as half-dead.  But judge by Yu serious look; he looks a certainty.

"No, I think we should call an ambulance." I push in between sniffles.

Yu looks at me sympathetically. A complete impassive expression on his hard face, so the way he is looking at me now, all sorrowful and likely he sees I'm a little naive but strangely I feel surging comforting at the same time.

"Miss Bei. I've been working with President Feng for a very long period. So I'm sure his condition the most. He only needs his bed and some care to get him through this. His states right now don't need a doctor. Not that sort, anyway." shakes his head.

What? So does that means he has been this condition more than once?

Assistant Yu sounds like he knows his boss better than anyone here. Indeed his reaction didn't show any concerned by the condition of Feng Teng lying in my lap motionless.

Whereas I am got a hysterical wreck as soon I found him lying half-dead out here.

Even Kevin and Junjie are not all that better either.

So they hadn't seen him like this before? Is it?

Yu hoists himself up off the floor. This is my first time heard Yu talking this much.

"Hey! What happened to his hand?" Junjie asks when he notices the bruised, which looks terrible and probably needs medication on it.

"He smashed the window on his car," I sniffle, and they all look at me.

"When he makes a commotion at SiSi apartment roadway," I added.

"Hmm, shall we get him into his bed?" Kevin asks timidly.

"Just lay him on the couch," Yu instructs. 

I look at Kevin who gets up and cleaning up the mess at the lounge terrace. He looks at it in complete disgust at the emptied vodka bottle and smashes it on the side of a raised planter. I've flinched at the loud noise that echoes around us, but more significantly, I see Feng Teng got flinches too from the noise.

"Feng Teng," I shake him slightly.

"Hey, please, open your eyes." I cry.

Everyone gets around us immediately when they heard me. Feng Teng arm starts to rise above his head and he flapping around. I grab it and place it back by his side, but the sooner have I released it, he flaps back in front of my face and mumbling inaudibly words.

"Miss Bei, President is looking for you," Yu says quietly.

Immediately I throw a shocked glance at Assitant Yu, and he nods at me gesturing 'Yes'.

What? He's looking for me?

How did Yu could even understand this?

As I go touched at Yu words, slowly I reach for his hand again and take it to my face gently, placing his palms against my cheek. Then he unconscious wailing instantly calms. His cold palm on my face also gives me little comfort, but it seems to soothe him more than I am. So I hold it there and let him feel me, horrified that he has, quite possibly, been out here on the terrace for days, unclothed and unconscious.

Now was autumn season daytime, but nightfall at the temperatures would drop.

A guilty and regret sweep in me instantly.

Questioning myself, why did I walk out and heartlessly leaving him on his own?

As I witnessing the damage that I had caused him, I cried inside.

I should have stayed and calming him down, I shouldn't have cowardly walk away from him. I should have stayed and comforting him. 

But if only I know he would be turn out like this, I won't ever leave him. No matter how heartbroken I am at that time. 

Oh God! Why I did that?!