Chapter 135 - 135 Wants You To Stay Only

"Oh. You need to eat as well and those wrists should be taking care. Does it hurt?"  I inform him, feeling strange dishing out instructions to him. 

"Babe, like hell," he confirms.

I knew it is because it looks terrible. I hope it's not infected by any bacteria that could harm him. Because five days without any medical treatment, bacteria could have spread over his flesh and the bones might be setting out of place too.

"Let me take a look on it," I peel myself out of his vice grip.

He grumbles but still releases me. I stand up, I put my hand out to him, and he looks up at me with a small smile before taking it and lifting himself from the floor.

We walk quietly up the stairs and back to the master suite.

"Get in the tub," I order quietly, pointing at the tub.

"Are you making demands?" His eyebrows rise.

He finds the reversal peculiar too.

"Yeah, since you are stubborn child," I nod towards the bath.

He starts chewing his lip, not attempt to get in the bath.

"Wei Lin. Erm, can you get in with me?" he asks quietly.

I suddenly feel awkward and out of place.

"No, I can't." I shake my head and step back slightly.

This goes against all of my impulses, but I know as soon as I surrender to his affection and touch, I'll be sidetracked from my aim to straighten my head, to get answers.

"Babe, you're not letting me touch you. But that goes against all of my instincts. Please," he put on a disappointed face.

"Feng Teng, please understand. At least give me a bit of time, I need it," I request.

"It's not natural for me not to touch you, and it's not right." He says.

Yeah, he's right, but I can't let myself to get swallowed up by him.

Anyways, I need to keep a level head because as soon as he gets his hands on me, I'm distracted. I just look at the bath again before returning my eyes to him.

He shakes his head, un-wrapping the blanket from around his waist before stepping into the bath and lowering himself gingerly into the water. I collect a cup from the vanity unit and crouch by the side of the bath to wash his hair.

"Hmm, the warmth not the same without you in here with me," he grumbles, leaning back and closing his eyes.

I ignore his gripe and start washing his hair and soaping his fine body from head to toe, fighting off the inevitable fizzles streaming through me at the contact.

My hand lingering around his scar on his waist thoughtfully, I quietly hope this will prompt him to explain how he gets this scar. He should open to me more.

But it doesn't seem like he will. Because he keeps his eyes closed and his lip shut.

And I have a feeling this is going to be a tough ride. I know he would never give in and he always dodges of my questions with a stern warning or by distraction tactics.

This, I can't let that happen again. Even this is going to take all of my strength and willpower. But this is not natural for me to evade him.

As I cleaning his body, slowly running my hand down on his rough face.

"Would you like a shave?" I ask.

He opens his eyes and cups his chin with his good hand, stroking his stubble.

"You don't like it?" He asks.

"No. I like you however you come." I say honestly. 

Yeah, I love all his feature and state. But just not drunk state!

The fleeting look that passes over his face nearly has me convinced he's read my mind, but then he's probably thinking the exact same thing.

"I won't touch any another drop again." he declares confidently, ensuring he maintains our eye contact as he makes his vow.

Oh, he vows as if he can read my mind.

"You sound confident." I retort quietly.

"Yes, I am." He sits himself up in the bath and turns to face me, lifting his battered hand to cup my face and wincing when he realises he can't.

"Wei Lin, I mean it, never again and I promise you." He sounds very sincere.

I know he is a man of words.

"Wei Lin, I'm not a raving drinker. Yes, I admit I get carried away once I do have a drink and I find it very hard to stop, but I can take it or leave it. But I was in a very bad situation after you left me. At that time, all I wanted just to numb the pain of the fact that you had left me. It's was very hard for me to accept it, it's clearly a mind-blowing." he says seriously.

As I heard him, my heart tightens in my chest, and I feel a sense of relief mixed with a little doubt. Everyone gets a little carried away when they've had a drink, right?

"Now I here, with you," I look past him, trying to piece together what I need to say.

Millions of words have been flooding my mind for days, but now I can't think of any of them.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner? Is this what you did meant when you've said that I would cause more damage if I ever left you?" I ask.

His head drops.

"That was a shitty thing to say," he says.

"Yeah. It was." I nod at him as I agree with him.

He returns his eyes to mine.

"Wei Lin. All I wanted just for you to stay.' He smiles a little, and I feel stupid.

"Things got pretty intense, pretty quickly. I didn't know how to tell you. I didn't want you to run away again. You kept running away after seeing the reality of me." He spells out the last four words, clearly still frustrated by my evasion of him.

He was right, though. All along I was right to try and escape him.