Chapter 298 - 298 At SiSi place

Now her confused face is frowning heavily over the rim of her mug.

"Huh? He what? Throwing what?" She asks.

"He wants us having a baby," I clear her.

Her eyes widen and with a slightly gaped jaw before she puts her glass down very carefully.

"He told you that he wanted a baby? Seriously? That's fast?" She stuttered in surprised.

"Yes, before our wedding," I breathe.

"And I found my medicine bottle in his bin beside his table in office room, a week before our wedding," I tell her.

"So you knew he was taking them last week? But when you replaced them that time and lost them again, don't you should be able to find the culprit at that time already? You are a smart lady, even though you are clumsy." She asks.

"Hehe. I was too distracted, that's why," I admit my own mistakes.

"Gosh! Man attraction was a real deal. So scary." SiSi exclaims.

"And didn't you ask him to use other protection?" She ask.

"I did, but he don't always used it," I mutter indignantly, bracing myself for a lecture on carelessness.

Before I met him, I was very clumsy, but now it not because of myself, instead it was Feng Teng to be blame. And for the whole situation, he not the only one to be blamed after all. But mine too, if not because of too much distraction, I should've made him wear protection but I forgot everytime.

So my excuses was too weak but only God know, how good my husband got distracts me was far too well.

When I look at her, SiSi was still looks shocked. But am just calm.

"So when you knew he did it, then why didn't you take him out before the vow and ask for the reason?" She asked.

"Feng Teng would never have admitted it. He's a man of capable," I claim, thinking it's probably me who's the insane one insane for being so damn stupid.

"Yes, I know he only with you like that," SiSi agreed as if he know my husband too well.

"You right, only with me, he would become like that," I take a sip of my tea.

She's watching me, but not expressing her thoughts. She must have some.

"But why would you ignore it?" she asks.

I was dreading that question, but completely expecting it, and I'm wondering the same thing myself.

"Argh! That's I don't know and I have no idea." I feel so frustrated as it's not only him to be blame but me too.

Because I was to distract by him and careless as hell.

Then SiSi shakes her head which making me feel smaller.

"God! Wei Wei. Actually I couldn't understand you, and I certainly don't understand your husband well too. So what are you going to do next?" She ask.

"Hmm…he kept saying that was as scared I'd leave him which I've told him many times that's I won't," I mumble quietly.

"Lol. Is he crazy? You've married him already!' She laughs.

"What about he scared so much? Hey, I know he's a bit crazy but…" she stop.

"A bit only?" I scoff.

"Yes, but understatement of his way for this modern generation, but his way with you has always been so endearing to me. How much he loves you, frets, and protects you. We all know his behaviour is way past of unreasonable as man, but it's common knowledge that he's never cared any women before. Even when the royal came to him, he does ignore it. And for his things for throwing your protection med, I think he really got to much into it," She said.

"Yeah,he is,"' I muse, swirling my wine glass in slow, careful circling motions.

"So if you knew, and he knew you knew, then why you ran here now?" she ask.

"Herm…SiSi. I think his wishes might on the way to me," I announced my guessed which was the caused why I'm here in her home now.

Instantly, she chokes on her wine after heard me.

"WHH…AAT?! So you're really pregnant? Unbelie….vable!" she coughs.

The words got crash the dormant lump in my throat to swell rapidly, and before I can even calm it down about my inpection, my tears start pouring down to my cheeks.

I put down my wine glass to the table and cover my face with my palms… and I crying hard.

"Oh, f**k! Oh hell!" SiSi curse as she chair scr.a.p.es across the kitchen floor and the next thing I know, she's standing behind me with her arms wrapped around my shoulders.

She actually hushes me quietly in my ear, like I'm a child who's just fell and grazed their knee. Now, I feel so stupid all of a sudden.

So much stupid and f**King idiot for ignoring my careless matter for so long and now my stupidness got complete the pieces to click sooner which what made me afraid the most. And my stupid has distract me from the enormity for ignoring his plan.

"SiSi…My period is due tomorrow and I know it's won't coming, even Feng Teng know it why,"I sniffle and SiSi leaves me, hurrying over to a unit of drawers.

"Seriously, I've been ignoring it, which has caused Feng Teng disappointment but for my stupidness ignoring it, now I'm really not ready for this motherhood yet, and now I just feel furious with myself and even more incensed with him. Before I could let things pass sometimes, but this time it's really taking control to a whole new level. SiSi can't let him do this now," I say in my sobbing.

SiSi then hands me a tissue, and I set about wiping my nose as she takes a seat next to me.

"Yeah, I know that you was and I completely agree with you," she says.

Now, I can't believe how relieved I am to hear her say that. I know she's very fond of Feng Teng genereousity, and he generally nothing fazes her, not even my husband in all of his challenging ways, but this has blown her, and I'm so glad.

"So now what are you going to do?" she asks.

"Can I'm not have it?" I blurt out.

Then SiSi mouth hits the table, as if she was shocked with my decision.

She scoops her chin up.

"Oh God, the child is innocent WeiWei. And if you dare do it, you'll send your husband to the loony bin. Don't you know see that would coming?" She not support it.

"But I don't want to be a mother yet, this… way unwilling," I reply quietly.

I can imagined what this decisiion will impact to my Feng Teng, but he hasn't considered what any of his actions will made to me.

And I'm not ready for this, and he hasn't stopped once to consider how I might feel and wants.

"It's not just that, though. I have a career and I'm still young to be a mother, SiSi," I say frustrated.

"Oh, God. I don't even know what to say to you not," She exclaims.

"Hmm. Just say I'm doing the right thing." I tells her.

She shakes her head a little as if I was a heartless mother but most important right now I need her to understand.

"Hmm… Let we think about this first, don't make a rush decision. This is a new life is coming and you are the mother. We need time to solve this," she says thoughtfully.

She won't agreed but it's okay at all, but her suggest to halt any guilt trip is enough for me. Now I feel guilty enough already, although I shouldn't. When I need to regain control, and I can't see any other way of doing it as I can't have a baby right now.

"Hmm," I hum as I picking up my glass and taking a shaky sip.

I've spent all my wedding vacation at I'm at SiSi home now and it's Monday. A day to get back to work.

So I wake at the crack of dawn and cry silently to myself. Seriously, I'm only delaying the inevitable. I need to see a Doctor.

And Feng Teng...He really gives me time and space for me to be on my own. For the past day, he didn't calls or even texting me, that night after my runaway that's his last message I've received.

I wonder what going on with him. 

At noon, I drive to the town and stop for a few moments at the time square, absorbing the frantic rush hour blur of people. When I see here, I miss this the chaos of the crowded and walking the few blocks to my office. Here all of the hectic scrambling, the dodging of bodies and the loud voices, mostly shouting down a mobile phone.

There's coupled with the screeching of cars and buses, the honking of impatient horns and the ringing of cyclist bells, all strangely bring a small smile to my face, until I get nudged in the back, and then ridiculed for keeping the frantic stream of pedestrian traffic from flowing. I snap out of my daydream and shift my feet into gear, heading for my office.

"Morning, bride," Xu Feng call as he strides into my office toward my desk.

So I take my seat and swivel to face him.

"Good morning, Xu Feng Brother," I need to fake chirpiness on a stupidly over-the-top level.

He perches on my desk, prompting the usual shriek of strained wood and my usual tensing in anticipation.

It's going to give one day.

"How's the blushingas a new wife?" He clucks my cheek affectionately and winks.

"All Perfecto," I smile, laughing at myself and my ability to choose the most inaccurate word to describe how I'm really feeling.

If I could've said good, or fine, or great, but no… I say perfect.

Perfectly distraught, that's what I am.

"Wow. It was a wonderful gift. Thank you, boss," I says happily but in deepest of my feeling right now only God knows what going on.

"Oh, you're welcome." My boss says.

"So where is everyone?" I ask, desperate to divert the conversation from this my newlywed life.