Chapter 139

"Ge'er, do you know that feeling? You want to find a hole in the ground."

Ye Ge hugs Gu qianrou. She can understand Gu qianrou's helplessness at that moment.

"I just felt as if the sky had fallen down. I had never been ridiculed like that."

"It has never been said that way."

"During that period of time, I was afraid to go out and meet people. I was afraid that people would laugh at me when they saw me. I was ugly and fat, and I had a delusion to marry Zhan Shuhao."

"Qianrou, those are in the past."

"Yes, it's gone, but everyone doesn't know that during that time, I got depression."

"During the period when I went abroad, my depression was very serious, and I even committed suicide."

Ye GE's eyebrows tighten a little. She never thought that Gu qianrou had encountered these things abroad.

"In that period of time, I hated him to the extreme, but how can I easily erase the person I have liked for so many years from the bottom of my heart."

"Depression is rolling in the night. She's seriously tormenting my nerves and almost killing me."

"I'm miserable every day. How happy I was before, how sad I was later."

"Later, my parents guarded me every day, snatched me back from death several times, and finally I was safe."

Ye Ge is fond of such ancient qianrou.

She had never heard Gu qianrou mention these things, and she didn't think it was worth it at this moment.

She hugged Gu qianrou into her arms, "qianrou, you will have me with you in the future, I will always accompany you."

Gu qianrou looked at her gratefully, "thank you, Ge'er."

"Silly girl."

"Later, I was cured. I thought I had put everything down and returned to China, but fate still pulled me and Warring States Hao together."

"I have vowed to stay away from the man, but did not expect to finally come back to me."

"Ge'er, I've always told myself that I don't love him any more, and I won't think about him any more."

"But when he appeared in front of me, my heartstrings were fluctuating again."

"I warned myself over and over again not to move, if a move means I will step into hell on earth."

"So every time I see him, I pretend to be tough and quarrel with him."

"I think it's better to go on like this. Don't let yourself sink."

"However, things are far from the direction I want to go."

"When I try to control my feelings."

"In the afternoon of war, Hao will gradually appear in my life. He will come to provoke me and tell me that he made a mistake. He hopes I can give him a chance to make up for it."

"He said he could marry me to make up for me, but he never said he loved me."

"I don't know if he just offered to marry me because of his guilt."

"I'm afraid that if I agree to him, I'll be sent to a hell of endless pain the next second."

"I don't have the courage to accept it."

"But sometimes I can't help being greedy for his kindness to me. Do you think I'm too cheap?"

Ye Ge frowned, "you are not cheap, you just love fighting doctors too much."

Gu qianrou sneered and hugged himself more and more. "Maybe, he married me because of guilt, but I was afraid. If one day he didn't feel guilty, would he abandon me and leave?"

“……”

"If so, I'd rather he never married me."

"And song, I can't afford to gamble. I'm afraid I can't afford to lose. If I lose again, I may fall into the cliff."

"I'm afraid that again, no matter who comes to save me, it won't save me."

Glancing at Gu qianrou's helpless appearance, ye Ge is very distressed. She wanted to comfort Gu qianrou and try to accept Hao's words in the Warring States, but all choked in her throat.

No one knows what the end result will be.

She did not dare to let Gu qianrou gamble.

"Ge'er, I only found out now that in this relationship, I lack a sense of security, I am very insecure, so I would rather quarrel with Zhan Shuhao."

"I don't want to marry him either."

"I'm afraid I'll lose the bet, so I resist."

"I don't have enough security to accept him anymore."

"Maybe the moment I met him, he would have been the doom of my life."

Ye Ge twisted her eyebrows and opened her mouth several times, but she didn't know what to say.

After a long time, she said, "qianrou, if you really like him, try it bravely. Maybe the result will be different."

"Ge'er, you don't know, I've spent too much time to like him before, but now I'm afraid to let me like him.""I pretend that all this has passed, but only in the dead of night, when I have him in my dream, I know that those forgetting are just my own deception."

Ye Ge twists her eyebrows and holds Gu qianrou tightly.

Coaxing Gu qianrou to sleep, ye Ge leaves Gu qianrou's tent.

As soon as she got out of the tent, she saw the afternoon Hao outside the tent. He was smoking, and the smoke shrouded inside, which made him worried.

"Little sister-in-law, if you have time, I'd like to chat with you for a while."

"Well, I want to talk to you, too."

Looking for a clean stone stool, ye Ge sits down.

In the afternoon, Hao is still smoking. He is more fierce. He has smoked two cigarettes all the way.

Seeing her sitting down, he handed her the cigarette in his hand. "Do you want one?"

"No, I don't smoke."

In the afternoon, Hao took back the smoke in his hand. In the smoke, he said slowly, "I just heard some of your chats."

Ye Ge surprised, but did not expect that in the afternoon Hao even heard her conversation with Gu qianrou.

"Is there anything you want to say?"

In the afternoon, Hao chuckled, "I'm such a jerk."

Ye Ge glares at the afternoon Hao, his smile with irony, obviously despises the one who used to be.

She didn't speak, she just dropped her eyes on the fir trees not far away.

The leaves fall from the top and fall to the ground. When the wind blows, the fallen leaves are blown away.

The leaves that fall in the distance seem to have nothing to do with fir trees.

She didn't even know that the leaves had fallen from the fir trees not far away.

"Look at those fallen leaves. If I didn't watch them fall, I wouldn't know which tree they fell from."

In the afternoon, Hao looks over.

"Do you think the leaves fall down because of the ruthlessness of the trees, or because the leaves want to pursue the further world?"

In the afternoon, Hao was silent for a moment, "it's the ruthlessness of trees."

"If the tree is merciless, what does it say that it gives birth to these leaves?"