Chapter 258 - IT'S NOT EASY TO FORGIVE

Stefan woke up to the sound of the pitter-pattering raindrops on the window in Cayenne's room. He removed the wet face towel from his forehead and looked around the place.

'I'm still in her room.' He thought to himself as he pushed his body up to sit up straight on her bed. He was wearing one of Kyle's clothes and there was a drip standing on the side of the bed, obviously it was the one that Dr. Rivera gave him.

Cayenne opened the door to check on him once again and found that he's already awake. "Are you feeling better now?"

"If you stay beside me, I will feel even better." Stefan responded and tried walking towards Cayenne but he felt dizzy and wobbled on his way.

Cayenne helped him back to the bed and sat on the space beside him. "Stefan, once you're fully recovered, you can go back home."

"You're not forgiving me?"

"When I opened up myself to you and give you my body, my heart and soul, it took me all my courage to do that. When you break me apart, I didn't take any of those back. I'm empty. I buried everything that had happened between us. I no longer have anything to give you"

"Ayen, I don't want to give up on us. I didn't sign the divorce papers because I still love you. I want to stay with you. I want to see your smile. I want to hear your laughter. I want to eat with you. I want to wake up to the sight of you beside me. I just want to be with my wife forever. Is it wrong of me to ask for that?"

Cayenne didn't say anything. She also wanted to do all those things with him but she was scared that she'll get hurt once again.

Stefan watched his wife going silent for few minutes. "Ayen, I –"

"If you're okay, go to the kitchen and eat your food." Cayenne stood up, wanting to leave him as soon as she could but Stefan held her hand to stop her.

"I'm still dizzy and my fever isn't gone yet."

"Fine. Just stay here and skip your meal." She yanked her hand from him and walked out of her room. She said those words to him but after few minutes, she came back with a bowl of hot chicken and mushroom porridge.

"Are you going to feed me?" Stefan asked with anticipation.

"Can you feed yourself?"

"No."

Cayenne rolled her eyes at him and that familiar reaction made Stefan smile faintly. She placed pillows on his back to support him and sat on the side of her bed with his food to feed him.

"Did you cook this for me?"

"No. It was Erwin who cooked it." She lied with a straight face but Stefan knew it was her who cooked it because of the taste. But he didn't let her know that her lie was uncovered. "You have to finish this food since you won't have anything other than this. No solid food for you as stated by the doctor."

"Hn."

"After this, I'll have Erwin send you back to your house."

"Hn."

Cayenne stiffened when she heard his response. She thought that he'd insist to stay. She even decided to let him stay with her until she's ready to open herself again. 'Looks like things has to end.'

"Ayen?"

"What?"

"Why are you so quiet?"

"Because I don't have anything to say to you."

"About your stepfather, I have decided to withdraw the case and provide the information about my brother having a suicide."

"It's your matter. You can do whatever you want. It has nothing to do with me."

"I want to set him free because of you. I don't want his situation to hinder as from getting back together."

"It's not just him, Stefan. You said those words to me. It would have been better if I heard those from someone else but they came directly from you."

"Ayen, I was really upset that time. I didn't think clearly and said those words but the next day, I realized that I don't want those things to happen. You still matter to me."

'Liar. You just admitted that you're going home.'

"Ayen –"

"Just finish your food." Cayenne fed him one spoonful after another, not giving him the chance to speak again. She didn't want to hear anything from him anymore.

After feeding him, Cayenne left her room once again without looking back at him. Few minutes later, Erwin came inside to get Stefan and send him back home.

"I thought you want to earn her forgiveness? Why did you make her cry again? She even took care of you."

"Cry? She was crying? Where is she?" Stefan got out of bed to find Cayenne but Erwin's words stopped him.

"Young miss left with her siblings. They'd be back tomorrow. Go and get your things. I'll send you back to your house."

Stefan's face fell as he walked to the couch to get his things. He didn't even get the chance to bid farewell to her. "Erwin, thank you for helping me."

"No worries. Her happiness is the top priority in Sir Reuben's list. I will help you if needed."

"Do you also think that I can make her happy after what happened?"

"Hn. Trust me, I know that you will get a chance as long as you persevere." 'After all, the young miss still keeps the stuff toy you gave and the wallpaper in her phone wasn't changed.'

Stefan didn't know about this since Cayenne didn't take her phone out whenever he's around. And the stuff toy was placed inside her wardrobe to make sure that he wouldn't see it.

In truth, Cayenne didn't leave the house. She was inside Kyle's room, hiding herself.

"If you still love him, go and get him. Why are you pushing him away? Shouldn't you run to him and accept him with open arms?" Luiz questioned without looking at his sister. He was playing chess with his brother, Kyle.

"It hurts you know." Kyle responded to his brother. "It's not easy to forgive someone. And he didn't trust me in the first place which was why it was easy for him to say those words to me."

"But he already apologized. He didn't even sign the divorce papers." Luiz retorted with a wide grin on his face.

"He didn't sign it now but he will sign it in the future." Kyle answered.

Cayenne looked at her brothers who were obviously teasing her. They were even playing her part as if they really knew what has happened. "You two, will you zip your mouth or do you want me to cut your allowance?"