CH 202

After making Heinrich rest in the blacksmith hut, I laid down on the bed with Yurina-san. Then, I stared absentmindedly at the familiar and nostalgic ceiling. I watched the wood grain pattern with an empty mind. 

……..I believe in the chains of human’s intention. I mean that if you do good things then good things will come to you and vice versa, if you do bad things then bad things will happen to you. 

I certainly have suffered because of Heinrich but what exactly would I get from taking my revenge on him? The people close to Heinrich might harbor resentment toward me if I do. Besides, it was thanks to Heinrich that I was able to go on a great adventure for my honeymoon with Yurina-san.

Above everything else, I don’t have any desire for revenge in the slightest. I can’t possibly be heartless enough to ignore someone on the brink of death and leave him to death. I prefer to believe in the virtue of the people rather than their malice. 

That is why, I want to try to rehabilitate a man who had lost everything and ended up being abandoned by everyone around him. Especially since I’ve lost everything myself too and had to live in seclusion all on my own. This place has helped me in realizing what is important to me as a human being. 

That’s why, I can understand the pain he’s going through right now. I just can’t leave him alone. I know I’m too much of a softie but that’s just who I am. This is simply just a matter of whether I will compromise with the values that make me who I am now or not. 

“Okay. I think I’ve reached my decision.”

I decided that I would help Heinrich. I knew about the Blue Brigade so I knew Margo and the others must be feeling complicated because of this decision of mine but since I, the biggest victim of this incident, had come to my decision then surely they would come to an understanding as well. 

“Hoammmmm~”

Once I’d made up my mind, the sleepiness caught on to me. As I closed my eyes, I could hear the even breathing of Yurina-san and Ash in their sleep along with the crackling sound from the fireplace. The white noises felt pleasant to my ear and before I noticed it, I had embarked on a journey to the land of dream.

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T/N: Well to be honest, as much as I want Heinrich to suffer, I also don’t think I can let anyone die in front of me when I can prevent it with just simple stuff like offering shelter and some of my food. Ahhh, humans are really complicated. No one is truly evil and at the same time, no one is truly virtuous either. We’re all just a bunch of shades of gray.