Chapter 159： Banban extra 1

I am getting smaller.

Just overnight.

When I was gathering with friends, I once said jokingly that it would be great if I could rejuvenate. I didn't expect this to happen to me.

To be honest, I don't really understand the meaning of getting smaller.

It's better to just make me amnesia.

In this way, all pain can be forgotten.

My mental state is not right, I know.

I have secretly visited a psychiatrist several times without telling them. The doctor’s advice to me is always only one sentence: "Let me go."

He refused to prescribe me medicine.

I once secretly speculated that this doctor didn't want to cure me, but I didn't know why I didn't replace him, so I liked to seek medical treatment. Later I found out that I was wrong.

It's not that he doesn't want to heal me, but that he is powerless.

Only myself can heal me.

As long as I am willing to'look away'.

But how easy is it?

I used to think that I was a lucky person. I was born in a wealthy family. I never felt embarrassed by money. Even if my parents didn't love me, I still have a younger brother.

then……

My brother was lost by me.

We became enemies, in various senses.

In fact, I don't want to, I love him very much, after all, he is my only relatives, not the parents.

And I also know that I did a lot of wrong things, many, many things.

For example, I added two spoonfuls of milk powder when I was learning to make milk for him. I think my brother needs to eat more to grow taller.

Another example is that I can play hard when I help him assemble toys, and finally do not let my brother mess with me.

Because when he comes, the parts I have just assembled will be destroyed. When he was a child, he was really a master of destruction.

He knows nothing except eating, drinking, sleeping, and sabotaging.

Like a black and white dog that I watched on TV, handsome but stupid.

Well, I shouldn't say that about brother.

I think I have to apologize, no matter what, I have to say to him: "I'm sorry."

Sorry, Gu Xiaolan, I haven't been a good sister.

I thought I could take the role of parents and give you enough love, but it turns out I can't.

Because a person who doesn't even love himself, how can he love others?

In other words, I don't know how to love.

You have to apologize.

After that slap, watching my brother crying away from the back, I said to myself.

But I dare not.

What if my brother refuses to forgive me?

The angel in my heart was timid, but the demon bravely encouraged me.

Come on, rush forward, your relationship can't get worse anyway, can it?

No chance.

Lying on the dirty ground, I looked up at the sky dyed red by the sunset, and between my neck were a pair of hands that wanted to kill me.

Facing death.

I have struggled, but my strength is like a mayfly shaking a tree, faint and ridiculous.

I'm going to die.

I'm sorry Gu Xiaolan, I have no chance to tell you the apology that I decided to do.

Hope, you can find someone who truly loves you in the future.

I also hope that the parents can treat you a little bit better after seeing a daughter who has died and you are their only remaining son.

Not much, just a little bit.

At least remember to give the child a little pocket money, right? It feels really uncomfortable to have no money.

I was rescued.

It happened like a romantic drama at eight o'clock.

Yes, wealthy daughters also like to watch this.

Who doesn't have a youth who is ignorant and longing for love?

The young man in clean school uniform stepped on the light, walked slowly in front of me, drove away the bad guys, and saved my life.

With the last sunset, I saw the student card on his chest.

[Fu Heng, Grade Two of High School. ]

It turned out to be the senior of our school.

Fortunately, when I wake up, I must thank others.

No chance.

Sitting on the hospital bed, I depressedly drank the soup carefully cooked by the housekeeper's grandmother, and the black clouds above my head were almost condensed into substance.

Ask why?

Because I missed the college entrance examination.

Someone might ask what does the college entrance examination have to do with me as a high school student?

It's a big relationship, not only because I have to go through it two years later, but also because I can't find him.

My savior.

After all, I don't know who he is, except for his name and information about a high school that he has read together.

I feel that I am broken in love.

Although the mother and mother are single, this does not prevent me from taking this excuse to vent my anger.

Turn grief and anger into appetite.

Of course, before indulging myself in overeating, I have to be a red scarf of justice.

Send the bad guys to prison.

Before entering the court, I was so scared that my feet were trembling. I glanced at the tiled wall that could be used as a mirror, and my face was as white as a ghost.

Countless times, I wanted to escape, but my legs were so soft that I couldn't walk.

I was too scared to face the man who almost killed me. The strangulation on the neck seemed to be still aching, bringing a fatal suffocation.

I don't love

Holding tightly the clothes on his chest, he breathed.

Like a fish out of the water.

Dididi.

The phone rang like the sound of heaven.

I lowered my head, it was the voice from the housekeeper's grandma.

"The young master is already asleep. When will the eldest be back? I will make your favorite peanut dumplings."

Tangyuan, reunion.

Today is not a festival to eat glutinous rice balls, but seeing such words here, I always think it is a hint to me.

The bad guy once threatened me. If I dare to stand up and testify against him, he would definitely retaliate against me.

I don't doubt what he said, after all, the villains who have killed people can't do anything.

Therefore, I need to send him to jail even more.

For nothing else, just because I am a sister, I have to protect my brother.

On the way to escape, I once met Xiaolan. Although I drove him away in time, I am not sure if the murderer saw him.

Based on my superficial understanding of him, he would never let our siblings off easily.

In that case, let me do it first.

The door of justice opened before my eyes, and I took a step in my destiny.

Later, I often wondered, if I didn't take this step at the beginning, would there be less misery in the future?

I will not suffer long-term mental torture. My eldest son will not be exposed to mental problems. In the end, he almost hurt a group of people who love me and I love.

This idea is often rejected by me as soon as it appears.

Because no matter how many times I come back, my answer will not change.

My choice is not wrong!

The cry of the child awakened me, who was lost in memory. I turned my head and saw my husband holding me wet and humorously standing next to the bed, looking at a loss.

It was the first time I saw this expression on his face, it was a little funny.

But when my eyes turned down, I couldn't laugh anymore.

Because, I... bedwetting.

No, no, the bedwetting is the three-year-old Xiao Qingqing. What does it have to do with my Gu Qingqing?

Thinking of this, I can get rid of the embarrassment and slowly comb through the gray feathers on my body.

Yes, I found out long ago.

Not surprised at all.

I became a bird, the rumored dream bird.

It fulfilled my wish.

Always be a carefree kid.

The condition is that part of my soul and most of my memory will be locked in Zhu Mengniao's body forever, watching me doing all kinds of stupid things when I was young.

It’s really better to just give me a bowl of Mengpo soup and forget one

Isn't it fragrant to cut it?

Others can't see me.

Just try this out and you will know it.

Only the little dumpling can see me, maybe because she and I are the same person.

It turns out I was so cute when I was a kid.

Forget it, for your cuteness, a little stupid is not intolerable.

It was the first time that Fu Heng was able to take care of children. After all, he also took care of his two sons.

This proves that I am not a widowed baby.

Shocked, he still cooks!

Wouldn't you want to poison me when I was young?

Face slapped.

Fu Heng cooks, it's... it's actually quite delicious.

Shouldn’t I be shocked that my sense of taste is shared with Xiao Qingqing?

It's not surprising, after all, it's the same soul.

I feel that no matter what happens, it can be explained by this reason.

After I became a bird, did my personality become more lively?

With Xiao Qingqing's curious gaze, the bird patted its little wings on the treetop and bounced twice.

Regardless of him, I am a little bird anyway. No one knows me. I love to play and play. This is a good time to let myself go.

Hey, I can actually fly.

The little guy is going to the mall, of course I have to follow it.

I was already desperate for Fu Heng's straight man aesthetic.

He can really buy more than a dozen of one style of clothes at one go, and wear them every day.

Those who don't know thought he didn't take a bath.

Fortunately, I was witty, and later specially dressed him in couture.

There is only one piece for one style, and you can’t buy duplicates.

My husband still has to dress nicely.

It wasn't for the little fairies outside, but it was pleasing to the eye.

Oh, I forgot.

Fu Heng will not be my husband soon.

I want to divorce.

This idea is not a whim.

It's the result of me having been in marriage for more than 20 years, and after careful consideration.

It's not a terrible plot that I think he doesn't love me, or he cheated on something.

Although he is quite talkative outside, and there is a rumor that he has an illegitimate child, and what is more ridiculous is that I have seen the child and the child's mother, but I believe him as always.

The main reason is that this person's real wife is a job. If he is willing to divorce his "wife", I won't have that much money to spend.

Fu Heng loves me.

I can feel it.

Otherwise, I would not marry him just after he reached the legal marriage age.

We are married after free love, not a commercial marriage rumored to the outside world.

To put it ugly, the Gu family, who was not taken over by his younger brother, could not reach the Fu family's threshold.

I can marry into Fu's family.

One is that Fu Heng loves me, the other is that I am excellent, and the third is that mothers are expensive with children.

The last point is not important.

There is no child Fu Heng loves me.

I firmly believe this, but I still want to divorce him.

There is no other reason, I am tired.

I failed a lot.

This is how I feel, what the outside world thinks of me...maybe the same.

I will not love people, even if I am deeply loved.

This is my original sin.

I can't give the same love to those who love me, so they can't feel my love, and they are dissatisfied with me.

Even if I work hard to express my love.

They are just like me, unable to get the love of their parents, and then resent them.

Ask but not to be □□.

It detonated all the contradictions afterwards.

In the end, it wounded the person who loved me and ruined everything about me.

Maybe, I should die under Han Dayu.

Perhaps that is my real destiny.

Maybe, I didn't deserve to be happy.

I want to divorce Fu Heng.

Because I don't want to hurt him.

There is a wife with mental problems, he will be laughed at.

Yes, I still insist that I am sick.

The symptom is not knowing how to love someone.

I have found a beautiful seaside villa, which has been renovated.

After the divorce, I can take a large amount of breakup fees and enjoy my retirement life here comfortably.

I might learn something that interests me, maybe painting, maybe dancing, or flower arrangement photography, or even all kinds of sports.

I have to travel four times a year, once every season.

Use the remaining time to see this beautiful world.

Most of the time I will cultivate in a seaside villa. There are takeaways and various games, movies and TV shows. I can stay away for a whole year.

Don't think that Auntie won't play games anymore. Auntie can just play games.

Occasionally, I will gather with my best friends and enjoy a good social time.

My plan for the future is very detailed, but I am the only protagonist.

The children don't need me.

This is a reality that I have already realized.

They no longer love to go to the amusement park, no longer like to eat candy, and... they no longer love their mother.

Because I don't think I love them.

But fool sons, if you don’t love, why should I give birth to you?

It hurts to have a baby.

pain

Until I dare not ask for another daughter.

Although I am eager for it.

But it’s okay, I can’t give birth, I can adopt one.

It can be said that it was a fate when I found Enron.

Back then, on a whim, I suddenly wanted to go to the village to test my life.

Then on the road full of loess and weeds, I found her sitting on the side of the road and crying loudly.

Dirty, but like a delicate and poor stray cat, people can't help but feel distressed.

"Kid, why are you here? Where are your parents?"

I do my best to be a long-legged aunt who is going to help my children find parents.

The child just cried and didn't answer my words.

I understand her.

It's just a question of whether a child of two or three years old can speak. How can he tell where his parents are?

I picked up a child.

The third time I came out of the police station holding a sleeping girl, I already had this full knowledge.

This is not a cat or a dog, just throw it away.

Even if it is a real cat, it is absolutely not to be thrown away at will. It is a life.

Since you picked her up, you have to be responsible to her.

I don't remember who it was, and I said this to me.

But I think it makes sense, so I took the responsibility.

Raise this child as his own daughter.

Still being raised outside by me.

It's very interesting. Fu Heng didn't raise a woman, but I raised one, and I used the money he earned to raise it.

Although this woman is lovely and loving, she is so cute that it makes people's hearts melted.

It's not that I haven't touched the idea of ​​taking Xiao Anran home for formal adoption, but I just raised a little bit of suggestion to the children at home, which attracted their great resistance.

"Mom, isn't it enough for you and brother?"

I still remember the eldest son staring at me with those eyes similar to hers.

It almost caused a panic in my heart.

I was very scared, afraid that I would not be a good mother and become a person like my parents.

It was a nightmare, and I haven't woke up yet.

I gave up.

very sorry.

As compensation, I will help you find your real family, my baby is just fine.

It is definitely not an easy task to find someone in the vast crowd.

Fortunately, I have money.

Even better, I did it.

However, it messed up again.

When my loving daughter wore a large dress that was obviously not hers, she sat in embarrassment in front of me, using

When the very small voice told me to borrow money to go to school.

I heard my heart dripping blood.

The devil roared

I'm like an enraged lioness, frantically trying to tear the Anjia group of **** who dared to bully my daughter to pieces.

How dare you guys!

How dare to treat my treasure like this!

However, I am a gentle mother.

At least in front of a good girl.

So I gave her a sum of money to send her to study abroad.

Aunt Qing will take care of the rest for you.

Accidents frequently broke out in Anjia, and stocks fell frantically.

The Anjia scandal spread throughout the upper class overnight and became a joke.

Anyone with a discerning eye can see that they are offending people.

No one dared to stand up and help them.

Because the people who settled for the crime were also the existence they couldn't provoke.

In order to save the family, An’s son was urgently recalled.

Qingqing still remembers that child.

She is very handsome, and the most important thing is that she resembles her.

Based on this face, she was born to have a good impression of him.

"Your career is much more promising than the dying bug in the An family. There is no need to be dragged to death by this bug."

This is a kind reminder and a threat.

I crushed Anjia to death as easily as a small bug.

It’s been too long, everyone may have forgotten that I was also a top student in the Finance Department of Jinda University.

"Thank you Mrs. Gu for reminding me, but I am not here this time to plead for the An family." An Yuan said neither humble nor humble.

"Then what are you here for?"

"Please give me a chance to be a brother."

This is a very smart boy, I think.

Smart and able to understand his identity, he can see his current situation better.

Well, I have to admit.

He convinced me.

I agreed to Anyuan's terms.

Let go of Anjia, and he personally offered the entire Anjia with both hands.

This is of course not for me, it's useless for me to settle in this bug shell.

Is there not enough property under the name, or the stock of Fu's Gu's is not popular?

But these can mention the identity of my Ranran Baby.

As my baby, it is inevitable that she will enter the upper-class social circle in the future.

What does this circle say...

Everyone is well-educated, but there are also some idiots who see the existence of inferior people. There is a family backing on the bright side, which at least allows my baby to have the capital to stand in front of the public.

I didn't even think about it.

I raised such a big cabbage, and it was actually lost!

The object is my piglet, no

Fa gets angry and can only hold it back.

Of course, no one cares about an angry fat bird.

I am not fat, but I have too many feathers and look puffy.

But the snacks Xiaoqingqing gave me are really delicious. I hope she can give me more next time.

After I became a bird, I found that I couldn't do without my body, and could only fly one kilometer away at the farthest distance, and then there was no more.

Beyond one kilometer, I will be bound by an invisible rope and forcibly pulled back to my body.

After a few attempts, I gave up struggling.

The main reason is that I found that following Xiaoqingqing, I can watch many big shows.

With relish.

Although a lot of melons are eaten on my head, it doesn't matter, Xiao Qingqing doesn't understand anything, and I am just a ignorant and ignorant bird.

I really want to breathe fragrance.

To my eldest son.

Is my education too failed?

Why is this stinky kid capable of doing such a wicked thing and leaving a three-year-old child alone in the company? He is also a brave man.

It must be because I usually play less.

In fact, I haven't beaten a child yet, and I regret it now. I should have beaten my child a few more times when I was young.

As long as I have a snack on their education, this **** will not become what it is today.

I am disappointed.

Disappointment in one's own education is also disappointment in children.

From the perspective of a bystander, of course I could see that Fu Si had a problem at that time, and his condition was obviously wrong.

It looks like a certain group of people getting sick.

It's a pity, I don't know the reason, but I only pay attention to Xiaoqingqing.

After all, this is me, and only three years old.

Too dangerous.

It really complied with my words.

I flapped my wings anxiously all the way, followed closely behind me as a young girl, twittering desperately, trying to lead her back.

Even if you can't go back to your son's company, you have to find a police uncle to turn in yourself.

It's a pity that the little guy ignored me. She decided she was wrong and wanted to apologize to her elder son.

Of course, she lost herself, and not surprisingly, she was taken away by traffickers.

My heart is tired.

Standing at the top of a car with a group of children, facing the wind, letting his feathers be messed up.

A whole fried feather bird.

why?

Why can't others see me.

For the first time, I felt resentful about my state.

Even more suspicious, is the wish I made at the beginning really correct?

There is a trace of regret.

Fu Heng, come and save

I.

I couldn't help but pray inside.

Quite unexpected.

When I was a child, I was far smarter than I thought.

Run, run!

Come here, I will show you the way, follow me, and run quickly.

I flapped my wings desperately, guiding the two children to flee in the dark, behind which was the sound of gradually pulling in.

This scene is a bit familiar, and in a daze, I almost recalled the fear of the year.

Just a moment.

My whole bird was scared to a blank brain.

Me, my... children...

I fell off the cliff!

What will happen to the two children after falling off such a high cliff?

I can only answer, without a doubt.

I didn't even realize what was going on. When I returned to my senses, I found that the'little bird' was flying in the sky, its wings spread like a kunpeng, covering the sky.

With a violent wave, it brought up a violent gust of wind, which rolled up all the fallen leaves at the bottom of the cliff and gathered them under the two children.

Risks saved their lives.

Too... shocked!

No, shock is not enough to describe my mood at this moment.

The three views of materialism for a long time were completely broken. Although I had been broken once when I saw me become smaller, but this time I really couldn't fight it together.

502 glue can't save me. Is this world mysterious, or am I too ignorant?