Chapter 37 - Speak Your Mind To Me

Su Wan had a feeling that something was off  about  Lin Chen  but  she had no idea  that he was thinking  of something  so severe instead she believed that this big baby  of her was just jealous .( a/n : gotta develop  her character  bro ) 

It  wasn't  that she didn't  care  about Lin Chen but  because she never once  compared him to his brothers  . To her the Lin  brothers  had both strength and flaws , Lin Chen  might believe that he wasn't good at anything but Su Wan  never  thought  him as useless . In her eyes , his brute strength  was something  incredibly  useful  .

As a modern person she  was a firm believer  of everyone was unique and never liked to put others down because  of  their flaws  or things they couldn't  do .If  she knew that Lin Chen had such dark thoughts  she  would have definitely  sat down with him and  had a motivating  chat with him but she didn't  .

So , Su Wan  picked  up her wrapped pancakes handed them to Lin Jing  and walked out of the house  with  a smile on her face . Not  having the slightest inclination about  what was going  on in  Lin Chen 's mind .

She kept  humming  a tune in good mood as this was her first time out of the house .  As she walked , she kept taking deep breaths  and her smile widened  even  further , she had lived quite a few years in town and she had forgotten  all about how the air of village smelled so fresh and clean . And because it was an ancient  era the air was naturally even  more clean than modern time.

" Wan..Wan a..are yo..you haa..happy ?" asked  Lin Yu who was limping  beside her , seeing  his wife smile so happily Lin Yu smiled as well .

" Of course I'm  happy " said Su Wan  as she looked at Lin  Yu and was startled  when she caught sight of his smile . Lin Yu was usually  reticent  and because he was bullied  a lot when he was a child he was a lot reserved , that's  why Su Wan  had never  seen him smile before . 

Lin Yu was a handsome guy , even though  his beauty was slightly  feminine  , in the end he was still a man .  Thus , when he smiled, he exposed his pearly  white teeth and sparkling  eyes  , his curly  eyelashes  fluttered as he blinked at her and Su Wan - well as the one who  was at the closest  proximity  to this deadly  smile , she was well stupified for whole two minutes as she continued  to stare  at Lin Yu .

While her mind went 'Opppaaaaaa '.

" Wan Wan  ?" when Lin Yu didn't  hear her  respond  , he called her . If they were not outside , he might  have  even  shook her but because they were walking outside and  there were quite a villagers  outside  he didn't  touch Su Wan  and kept  a proper distance .

" Ah ? " only when Lin Yu called her with  a worried expression  did she realized what she had done , slightly flustered  , Su Wan  swallowed  and shook her head " its  nothing  , I was just trying  to remember whether  or not I forgot to bring something. " 

" Oh " nodded  Lin Yu  and then stopped talking , Su Wan  naturally  thought  it was a pity , she wanted to change  Lin Yu 's introvert  like personality  so she hurriedly  asked  Lin Yu another question to keep him talking  . 

As long as she kept working  hard , she believed she could change Lin Yu a bit ( a/n : you gonna regret it ) 

" Ah Yu , have you ever been to the town ? " asked Su Wan  , since all of them were walking to where they were going  to hire the ox cart . Su Wan  decided to continue with their short chat and naturally didn't  ignore any of her husbands  who were  walking beside  her .

" I did " answered  Lin Yu  with an excited smile "  Brother  Jing took me to the town  with him once, when it was spring festival  " 

" Really that's  nice " then she turned to Lin Jing  who was walking in the front and called out " Jing ge  , will you take me to the town  at spring festival too ?" 

Lin Jing  who was walking in front trembled slightly  and his ears turned  red when he heard Su Wan  call him Jing ge in front  of his brother , and that wasn't  all .. when she called him that name all the memories of last night came rushing in his mind and his pace faltered  a bit  . 

Naturally  , Lin Jing  no longer dared to say no to Su Wan  he could nod his head and agree with  an " En " 

Su Wan  smiled then  tugged  at Lin Yu 's hand intertwining her fingers with his " did you hear that , I will go to the town at spring festival too " 

" Ah - eh ?"  Lin Yu whose fingers were intertwined  , stammered and hurriedly looked around before tugging  his hand from Su Wan's  grip . Having his hand held like that by Su Wan while  walking  made Lin Yu 's heart race , his face  went red as he kept looking  around . He wanted to ask Su Wan  to let go of him but he didn't  want  to say the wrong thing and hurt Su Wan  .

During this era , it didn't  mattered if one was husband  and wife  . They naturally  need to keep  their distance  when they were outside , such  intimate gesture was frowned upon and no man and woman were  allowed  to act intimately  in public .

Lin Yu didn't  want to bring shame to Su Wan 's good name thus he tugged  his hand free  " Wan Wan l..let go . Do..don't  hold on t..to me , pe..people  will talk ." 

Su Wan  pouted but she saw how uncomfortable  Lin Yu looked so she didn't  make it hard  for him but that didn't  mean that she will let this  go just like  that ! 

" Ah Yu , you don't  like me right ?" she deliberately  put on a wronged expression and crossed her arms in front  as she faced away from Lin Yu with a 'humph '.

" N..no  h..how ca..can I?  I ..I  ju.. .just  " when Lin Yu  saw that Su Wan  got angry he naturally  panicked , because  he was  in a nervous  frenzy his stuttering got worse and he couldn't even  make a comprehensible  sentence  .  So , he could only look  at his brothers with a pleading  look .

Lin Jing and the others ofcourse heard what went between Su Wan  and Lin Yu. They knew that Su Wan  wasn't  wrong but what Lin Yu  wasn't  wrong either , Lin Yan wanted to talk some sense to Su Wan  about  how she should keep her distance  with men even if they were her husbands  .

Lin Rui cut him off hurriedly  clearly  afraid that his brother might anger Su Wan  even  more " Wan Wan .. don't  be angry , alright ? Lin Yu is just worried about bringing shame to your name . He just don't  want you to get criticised isn't  that right , Yu ?" 

Lin Yu nodded  hurriedly but  didn't  speak because he was afraid  of angering Su Wan  even more . Su Wan  rolled her eyes at Lin Yu who acted like a scaredy cat and stomped her feet " if there is something  you want to say ...say it directly  to me ! Don't  ask your brothers  to speak  for you !  What are you afraid  of ? I'm  your wife will I eat you or will I beat you up ? , I  am willing to listen to you no matter  but you gotta speak your  mind to me , get it Ah Yu ?" 

Su Wan  wanted to help Lin Yu get rid of his stuttering  , she  knew that this wasn't something  that cam be treated  by just some medicines alone , if Lin Yu  wanted to speak  properly  then he needed to speak more !