Chapter 76 - So This Is What You Think Of Me

That night the dinner finished in a subdued mood , Lin Chen did try to raise the moral by injecting his ' wife the food is delicious ,' comments but Su Wan who was still angry about not being coaxed in the afternoon , ignored him . 

In the end after being snubbed a couple of times , Lin Chen ate his rice sulkily glaring at his bowl , each bite that he took was eaten in such a ferocious manner like he wasn't eating pork meat but Luo Chenxi's meat . 

Su Wan ate her fill , she never once looked at her husbands , on the other hand it was Lin Rui who kept glancing at his wife , he knew that he had to make up with his wife soon and he also knew that he needed to coax his wife but the more he thought about it the more he felt like hundreds of ants were crawling in his pants. 

If someone  asked him to whip a poetry , he would have done it with ease but he knew that a simple poetry won't make Su Wan forgive him , thus the entire , matter was making him antsy. 

Even mother Lin understood that something was wrong , she was wondering what went wrong when Su Wan stood up from her chair and picked her cutlery . 

" I will wa..wash  it " said Lin Yu hurriedly taking the bowls and chopsticks from his wife's hand " Wan Wan , I have already boiled the water for you, if you want you can take hot water bath right now "

Su Wan expressionlessly handed her bowl and chopsticks to Lin Yu and nodded , her head was aching so badly after thinking so much that she desperately needed a relaxing bath .

After the bath Su Wan hanged her clothes that she had just washed in the bath house then headed to her room . Her head was hurting but her heart was hurting as well , after much deliberation she finally came to the conclusion that if Lin Rui really did have something with Luo Chenxi , she would just let him go . It wasn't that she couldn't live without him ? What was the point of beating herself until , she couldn't even think straight ? 

Lin Rui was just a man , a man that could be easily replaced - no one in the world was irreplaceable . Didn't her ex husband also had a change of heart in just a few years of marriage , when he clearly promised her that she will be the only one in his heart ? 

If a woman can be easily replaced by a man then why should the woman keep hanging on to that man , beating herself for not being good enough ? 

Even without Lin Rui , she would still have four husbands wouldn't she ? It was just that her heart was raising some minor objections . 

When Su Wan entered her room , Lin Rui entered behind her as well , he didn't want to drag on this matter for long . If he needed to apologise then he just need to be done with that , after all it wasn't like he was in the wrong was he ? 

Su Wan might be feeling angry but once he speaks his side and explain it to her clearly then she would definitely understand him right ? 

Su Wan took off her clothes and laid down to her side while Lin Rui who was standing at the entrance of the door sighed and closed them before taking of his robe and sitting down at the edge of the mattress . He waited for Su Wan to jump at him and accuse him or even scold him but she didn't , instead she complained ignored him . 

Lin Rui wasn't used to coaxing girls , even his sisters often complained to their mother that He was a little too ' calm ' and couldn't say the right things at the right times , so Lin Rui was a bit worried about apologising , on one hand he thought that he wasn't wrong and on the other he knew that there were times when a man needed to swallow his pride to coax his woman , in the end he rubbed his face and finally bit the bullet " Wan Wan , I'm sorry "

Su Wan actually had no idea when Lin Rui followed behind her , she was too engrossed in her thoughts that she didn't even notice him until , he sat down on her mattress . At first she wanted to kick him out of her room but then she decided to wait and see what Lin Rui wanted to say , thus she waited but never did she thought that the first thing he would say was ' I'm sorry ' these  words were like trigger to her because with these three words , her ex husband came clean in front of her about his affair was Lin Rui going to do the same? Was he going to tell her that he didn't want to marry her but have to because he was poor and had no choice ? 

Poor Su Wan who was traumatised because of her last life jumped hoops and loops in her overthinking and before she knew it , she sat up straight " what are you sorry about ? Is there something between you and Luo Chenxi ?"

Lin Rui who was in between his apology was shocked , something between him and Luo Chenxi? Where did this came from ? " what are you talking about?" He asked Su Wan staring at her incredulously 

" If there is you better come clean " said Su Wan who had not heard a single word in her anxiousness " because if you two have something , I will just divorce you and be done with it , don't you dare to cheat on me !"

She finished abruptly but no response came from Lin Rui , for a second Su Wan thought that maybe she had hit the mark but when she looked up , all the breath was knocked out of her lungs .

Lin Rui was glaring at her - like literally glaring her at with red rimmed eyes there was so much hurt and disappointment in those dark orbs that Su Wan felt her heart ache . 

" Ah Rui-"

" so this is what you think of me ?" Said Lin Rui quietly " I agree that our marriage was not based on something normal , there was not a single chance for anyone of us to lay the foundation of trust and love but at least , I would not doubt you over a man who just casually popped in your life , and even if he did , I wouldn't question you - I would question that man and make him disappear from your life but I will still trust you , I will protect you and most definitely I won't hurt you . At least you could have done the same for me , I might not be as much of a smooth talker as my brothers but I cam assure you I won't disrespect you or our marriage , I expected the same from you " 

Then without waiting for Su Wan to say anything , Lin Rui stood up and left the room but even when he left the room , he didn't do it in an aggressive way , he calmly all too calmly closed the door and walked out . 

Su Wan who was left alone was shocked with her mouth agape . She was the one who was angry , how did the tables turn so suddenly that Lin Rui was the one who angrily walked out on her ? 

A/n : I know that you guys were waiting for hanky panky , but surprise !! Muhahahaha ! Alright I'm just joking , this chap was important for Su Wan's character development and her lack of trust . I hope you understand , I will make it up in Lin yan and Lin yu 's scenes, smexy scenes coming  right up ;)

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