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To calm my mind, I walk around the temple with no purpose, just my legs wandering.

When I suddenly stopped, it was on a hill. Overlooking the lake, this place is always sparkling with blue and clear lakes in the sun. But now it's like darkness at night. It's dark and quiet, and you can only hear the wind shaking the grass.

You've walked so far.

Looking back on the journey to this point, the temple lights were visible in the distance.

"Hah..."

My sigh disappears quietly in the wind.

― ― When you're here, you don't even know what was real. It was also about Louis, who was in front of me earlier. And most importantly, I talked to Master Louis.

More to the point, the days since I came here, everything has been like a dream event.

When I raised my face to inspire the sinking heart, there was a beautiful full moon floating there.

The starry sky is like a room in space-time, reminiscent of the atmosphere of that room. Still, the moon just floats and feels completely different.

"I'm glad it's a beautiful moonlit night."

I kept staring at the beautiful moon that floated slowly, forgetting time.

The moon, the lake, and the earth are always rich and beautiful, and they forget their breathlessness. I take many deep breaths. On that occasion, I felt my head refreshed as I was able to get a little cool air all over my body at night.

The land of the Spirit is always calm and pleasant to spend time in. Even so, I still feel cold because it is night. I left the room with nothing to wear, so I felt a slight chill.

--I think it's time to go back.

As I rubbed my arms like I was warming up my cold body, I slowly returned to my original path. Finally, I reached the distance of the temple and saw my room.

But I stopped trying to get into the room. Before the end of the day, I glanced at Lady Louis and returned to her heels.

But as soon as I put my hand on the doorknob in front of the room, it stopped. As usual, I knocked and tried to come in as usual.

I remembered what I had just heard in the space-time room, and I was suddenly frightened.

--But if Louis' consciousness had just returned, which Louis would it be?

Now Louis is in the world where I was. That means I'm sure Louis in this world... When I think about it, my hand on the door knob trembles.

Can't you open it?

"Phew..."

There was no sign of it, and suddenly a scream leaked to the voice heard from the ears.

Oh, I'm sorry. Did I surprise you?

Release your hand from the door and look back. There was a figure of Nell who was awkwardly scratching his head and lowering his gaze.

"Master Nell... what happened suddenly?"

”Even if you don't go back to your room, you're still fluttering. I walked so far alone, and I thought I was finally back, and I stood in front of this room all the time, and suddenly I couldn't move."

Nell put her wrinkles between her brows, put her hands on her hips, and pushed her lips out, saying, "It's really late," revealing her frustration.

“Maybe you worried about me?”

Am I worried? Is it yours?

Master Nell rolled his eyes at my words. And as I checked with myself, I said, "Worried?" I'm worried... "I muttered, tilting my neck.

Did I just worry about you?

"Oh, no. I felt that way. I'm sorry if that's not the case.”

”... no. I've never been worried, so I'm not sure.”

"Have you ever been worried?"

"Oh, no. Of course, I know the words." To worry about the future of things and disturb the mind. To look at Mendoza with care. That's what I'm worried about, isn't it?

Yeah, yeah.

Master Nell spoke softly as if to read out the meaning of the dictionary. Unexpectedly nodded, Nell smiled with satisfaction.

I don't know why I bothered to worry about you.

"Um, you've been keeping an eye on me." He said he was late. After leaving the space-time room, I felt like I was waiting for you to come back to the room properly.... did you make a difference? "

There was a disagreement with Nell during the day. Still, after that, Master Nell acted as if nothing had happened, and led me to the chamber of time and space. Thanks to that, I was able to meet Lady Louis. And I was finally able to understand the current situation since I came here.

From what Nell-sama said, I think she saw my behavior from somewhere. However, he may have been unconscious. Or maybe it was part of the fun.

“Or was it something you were interested in?”

Do you think Nell-sama's behavior is interesting? You're going to be bored. Intriguing? I thought it was one of them.

Still, I felt that I could see the color of care from Nell's expression staring at me.

Interested? Observing with interest... should be... right?

My words seem to have confused Nell-sama very much, and he is making an unusual and bad tooth-cut speech. I've never seen anything like it wandering around in my gaze.

"I'm interested in your actions." Why are you trying to scratch your legs? "

Yeah, I don't think it's impossible to feel that way.

Master Nell has always been interested in humans. Why do you work so hard in vain? Indeed, from the Spirit King's point of view, I'm sure that I seem to be doing a lot of futile work and turning around.

I can't deny that. I also understand that it would be easier if things could proceed more rationally.

Still, no matter how many times I roll, I want to get up on my own feet. Even if it seems ridiculous to others.

"It's also thanks to Master Nell." I know how happy I am. I've never been given a chance or a place to work. And there are loved ones. ”

Thanks to me.

“Yes, that's why I want to think about this life and stand on my own feet.”

― ― As before, without enjoying it as it is given to others. I don't want to be a person who hurts people without understanding the good or evil of what is right, as told by others.

“Besides, I'm getting to like myself a little bit.”

I've known my ugliness ever since I went back in time, and I've always hated myself.

Still, there's someone on my side to watch. I have something to protect. That's why I was able to change.

“You gave me time to look at my failures and a chance to notice something important. Thank you so much for the opportunity to change...”