Chapter 14.5: Sink V
Even my hands began to quiver along with my speech. All I could do was continue spewing out words even as the corners of my eyes began to heat up once again.
I dont remember bullying her or anything like that but I said a horrible thing to her calling her a liar and claiming what she said was absurd
I didnt recall much but I probably said something worse.
She was a good person but one thing led to another and I ended up having a falling out with her
It was shortly after that that she jumped off the roof.
I cant think of any other reason. She was a personable, eccentric person who behaved oddly, but everyone liked her. She wasnt harassed and her family background was normal
I couldnt imagine any reason for such a person to commit suicide Nothing else applied besides the words I spoke to her
Even worse, I kept running away from the fact she committed suicide because I wanted to put it behind me. All the time I never looked back and never went to visit her grave. When I started working at that convenience store, I began to see the same things as Takenaka and the others, which made me realize that what she said was not nonsense but the truth. I called her a liar even though she was honest and I am the worst kind of person
I bit my lip. I felt like I was stabbing myself with a knife or something.
I was determined to leave this type of environment when I first got your help at that convenience store, and I intended to follow Takenakas advice But I reckoned that this is my punishment for living so idly, forgetting that she even existed until now
It was as if she was telling me to suffer the same thing that she did. Like she was sneering at me from under her grave
It had all been my assumption up to that point. But since I awakened to this power, she has been manifesting herself in front of me frequently in her after-death figure in front of me. Whenever I see her, she remarks the same thing. She still wants to stay in this world and make me suffer, resenting me After all this time I want to make it easier for her. She is covered in blood, and even in death, she is still suffering. But I cant figure out any other way. Apart from me staying there and going through what she went through, I cant figure out any other way
If I could talk to her, I would.
What do you wish for? How can I put your suffering to rest? But there was no way I could do that.
In my dreams, she dies over and over again in front of me I am sure I will be having that dream again today Even though I want to do something for her, I couldnt help but be afraid of it The thought of it makes me realize that in the end, all I care about is myself I hate it.
Regardless of how many times this struggle was repeated, no exit was in sight. On the contrary, the bottomless swamp would seize my feet and sink me
Hyuga right?
Huh, why do you
Because you were calling that name all the time while you were having a nightmare. All this time, you have been burdened with the idea that it was your fault.
She still has yet to rest in peace surely.
Takenaka, please. I know its self-serving. But I cant do it myself I can only ask you to do it for me. I want to do something about her, Takenaka, if you can, please about Hyuga
About Hyuga
Cant you please save her?
If there is anything you can do, anything at all that you can help her with, I pleaded in rapid succession.
I didnt wish to see her like that any further. Her pain must be excrutiating, and she must still be suffering.
No doubt when she emerged all bloody like that. I was certain of that.Follow current novels at novelhall.com)
Please, please
Watching my frantic state, Takenaka remained as cool and collected as ever. After asking me to look up, he announced with a slightly apologetic look on his face, The odds of me being able to resolve this at this point in time are probably fairly low.
Takenaka then proceeded to explain why.
I am not an expert in that kind of thing, aside from Ayame Even if I could drive away the evil spirits that wandered into the convenience store I think it would be difficult to make her rest in peace when she appears at your doorstep.
Usually, with the help of Yagura, the spirits are driven away. Even if I could drive her away, it would be impossible for me to liberate her soul from negative emotions and lead her to the afterlife.
No, I simply learned this by watching others.
Learning
Learning by watching others Excuse me, I had to take my words back. You were already above the average person, Takenaka.
Where did you learn all this?
My grandfather showed it to me a long time ago He used to do psychic photography and psychic evaluation of relics I can only concentrate my mind and trace memories to a certain extent so I cant do much about it.
No that was a big enough deal at that point
For the next several minutes, Takenaka focused his attention on the photograph. I wondered if the events of that day were vividly unfolding behind his closed eyelids.
Translator: MadHatter
What have you found out?
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When Takenaka removed his hand from the photo and I asked about it, he looked as if he was reluctant to elaborate.
I could grasp what kind of person she was but I couldnt get a clear understanding of what was going on because there was too little information in this photo
I see
Anything more If there is anything that can exclude a wide range of
Saying that, Takenaka looked at me.
Hakamada.
Y-Yes?
My body was complaining of feeling sluggish. I lay down on the futon and covered myself with a light towelket and drowsiness immediately swept over me. With the lights off, the room was dimly lit but not pitch-black.
Are you certain about this?
I shook my head vertically again for the umpteenth time.
Its fine.
No matter how much I claim its only for the sake of observing, I might still end up noticing things you dont want me to. To be peered at by others would also be undesirable.
I dont mind, its fine.
Even my puke had to be cleaned up by Takenaka. What was there to fear from him now sneaking a brief peep into my head? Plus, if this would clarify the mystery of Hyugas death, I didnt really care.
With these words, I closed my eyes.
Your consciousness will be connected to the photo and I will send you to your prior recollection. Please relax and be at ease.
Even without being told, my body was already weakened by sleepiness, and my eyelids were already straining against my eyeballs. The cold hand of Takenaka touched my forehead.
Was it due to the presence of somebody by my side?
It has been a long time since I have fallen asleep with such a feeling of security.
What would happen to me from now on?
Before I could ponder the question deeply, I slipped into the world of a dream.