Chapter 181: Confusion (1) *

Just from arriving at their room, Miwa-nee let go of any restraint she put onto herself, kneeling in front of me, she pulled down my pants and sucked me off. The way her tongue moved to pleasure the head was just so amazing that I would've blown my load on her if I didn't stop her. Showing her experience like that, Miwa-nee was so lovely that we spent more than the time she set.

After that blow job, I put her down on the bed where I gave her the same treatment. Taking off what she's wearing below, I ate her drenched pussy that was pulsating at my touch. I teased her swollen clit while fingering her which resulted in her squirting into my mouth. Her lustful voice then pulled me out of focus there when she urged me to put it in already. My fully erect cock that was still covered from her saliva twitched upon hearing that as if it's nodding in my place.

That's why, after she calmed down from climaxing, I moved on top of her and just like she wanted, buried my cock deep inside her. The way she received me was full of affection, whispering I love you as soon as I reached her deepest part, before locking me into a kiss. She then asked me to lift her shirt up and play with her breasts as well before we continued on our lovemaking process.

Every time I would thrust inside her, she would squeeze me tight that would result in me grinding the walls inside her. As time went on Miwa-nee started to turn aggressive, changing our positions two times which ended up with her on top of me as she shook her hips in a bid to let me cum together with her.

Filling her up with my semen in that position, Miwa-nee exhaustedly fell on top of me while she kept on squeezing my cock dry. Without her restraint in place, she felt it even better due to our affection for each other. If not for Minoru being still young, she told me that she wanted me to knock her up again.

During our rest, she told me that it really happened that night. Even with me sleeping soundly, she sucked me off to make it hard before putting herself on top of me.

It seems I woke up at that time but because of not knowing what's happening yet, I only took that as Miwa-nee cuddling me. Though it's vague, there's certainly that kind of memory about that night. My virginity was taken by her and kept it to herself for 5 years…

Err… she didn't think that she would be knocked up by doing it once. She told me that she didn't want to go without making that kind of memory with me.

Her husband only thought it was his because she drunk him during their first night and made it look like they did it.

And well, I stopped her from talking about whether she did it with him on the following days and years. I don't need to know, Miwa-nee was back in my arms now and really, I wouldn't give her back.

I would've asked her more about what happened during the following years but the time we spent was already 30 minutes, if I didn't leave, Nikaido will think I'm standing her up.

Asking Miwa-nee to continue our talk later, we both get dressed before telling me that it's fine to get Minoru the ice cream he wanted.

In the end, we went back to the first topic which led us to come up in their room to throw our overflowing affection towards each other.

"Onoda."

Nikaido smiled and waved upon seeing me from a distance. She was waiting for me at the outdoor table at the cafe next to the supermarket. It seems that she cut her hair, her previously long chestnut-colored hair that could reach her back if she let it down now only reached her shoulder, her eyes also became quite clear. The confusion she had on her dark brown eyes when she visited along with Ria and Aoi was now nowhere to be seen. She's wearing a blue dress with her shoulders showing itself.

Err… I think I was late for at least 10 minutes but here she was.

"I'm sorry, I'm late, Nikaido. Also, your hair suits you well."

After apologizing I sat in front of her, the way she looked at me seemed to have an increase in affection. Back then she expressed how she wanted me to look at her as well. Err… she's the one who helped me realize that the girls fell for me because of my actions towards them and that the way I was focused on protecting them from anything.

"It's fine, I also just arrived. Thank you, do you like it?"

"Un. I wouldn't say it suits you if I didn't like it."

At my answer, Nikaido seemingly blushed as she brushed her hair with her fingers.

"Uhm...Since you're the guy that should've been here first, I'll forgive you if you buy me a coffee."

You already said it's fine, right?

Err... Let's just satisfy her.

"Sure. Let's go in?"

"Can I…?"

She nodded and stood up before asking while looking at my arm.

Ah, She wanted to hold onto it, eh?

"You don't need to ask, you know?"

Holding my arm like we're a couple, Nikaido blushed as she closed in on me.

Err… it's like we're on a date eh? Well, it's just treating her with coffee, after this, we'll shop at the supermarket next door.

"I haven't noticed through our messages but you changed again, Onoda."

After ordering our coffee, we sat down on one corner of the cafe.

"I did change a bit. You girls were always this sharp. So what do you think has changed?"

"It's like you're brighter than before. Didn't I tell you that you had some kind of mysterious aura back then? Now, you're dazzling as if a lot of your worries have been lifted or the path ahead of you brightened."

After observing my face for a minute, Nikaido said while sipping her coffee.

"I don't know what bright means but I guess you're right about the worries and the path ahead. I remembered that emotion, after all, it's not about my desire anymore."

I smiled at her as I revealed what changed. Upon hearing that she went on and observed my face again like a certain curious girl.

"Does that mean I have more chances now? I don't need to ignite your desire anymore."

This girl…

"Do you still want to be mine? You know it will not be easy for you. You're different from them, you can have your own romance with someone, why do you want to be involved with me?"

I still couldn't get why. It's not like I did something for her like how Aya fell for me. Nikaido was someone who just found me mysterious and liked that about me. Even if we showed her what's going on with my relationship with other girls she still expressed it.

True that she confessed that she likes me but a like shouldn't be that strong of an emotion to others right? There's me who's stealing someone I like but she's different. She's a normal high school girl that could step away from the twisted world I'm building up.

"I like you Onoda. After that day I also thought I should stop whatever it is I'm feeling for you but two weeks have passed and I'm still here thinking about you."

Though her words were straightforward, that red blush on her face was enough to determine that she's pushing herself to say all of those and that made her really embarrassed. Her hands even crawled forward and put it on top of mine while trembling.

"Nikaido, you're just as mysterious right now. I couldn't get why you like me when I didn't do anything for you."

I turned my hand around and opened it to receive her hands. Once our hands were clasped together, her trembling stopped and a smile bloomed from her face.

"Then let's try to understand each other? I get it, you have better girls than me but I just couldn't let this chance slip out of my grasp again. I also wanted to be that close to you. I wasted that chance last year, I want to change that."

Understanding each other, eh? True we could do that. Just like how I was trying to understand Shizu-senpai.

"I'm afraid you will regret it, Nikaido. I'm fond of you but it's not really like yet that's why as much as possible, I don't want to involve you with my abnormal way of life…"

Right. It still hasn't passed the point of liking her yet.

Hearing my answer, Nikaido looked down, dejected. She probably took that as me rejecting her.

"Am I no good, Onoda?"

"Not really, you're really pretty that I'm already wondering why no one is courting you."

"I have several of them but… you see, they're a lot different from you. It's like they're only looking at my external appearance but you, I could see how you're trying to understand me and my action."

"I see. So you saw me as someone unique. What if I told you that I'm just a lovestruck guy who's doing everything I can for those who I love?"

"… I still want to be a part of 'those who you love'. Give me a chance. It might look like I'm the one pursuing you but if your feeling stays that way then I can only give up."

Haa… She's really hard to understand. The way she was fixated on me when I literally did nothing for her.

Is it that thing she said before? Liking or loving someone isn't always about looks or what the person has done for them. Our hearts could also work mysteriously like there's a possibility that it will beat to someone you never really had any interaction with.

"Alright. I'll try to understand you Nikaido, can I sit next to you?"

"Y-yes. By all means, sit here."

I stood up and changed seats, this way I'm closer to her than before. Her hand never let go of mine and unknowingly, her hold on it tightened.

I looked around and saw no eyes that could see us from where we are.

As I edge closer to her, I could see that she's visibly trembling but her eyes were fixated on me as if she's waiting at what I'm about to do next.

This girl… she's really hard to understand. Haa.

"Can I kiss you?"

Asking this to her. She nodded immediately and closed her eyes.

Seeing that, I shook my head and only put a finger on top of her lips. She shouldn't be this easy, I didn't really want to take advantage of her.

"I don't know what to do with you, Nikaido. Honestly. Your liking towards me seems to be a bit extreme that you've readied yourself for me to take advantage of you but I won't do that. I wouldn't be able to understand you if I did. Because there's a possibility that you'll keep agreeing even if I bring you to a hotel today."

"… You're right, I'm also ready for that."

"I'm probably not the guy who should say something like this considering my history but Nikaido, treasure yourself and give it to someone who you really like. You're curious about me and you probably mistook that as liking me."