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"I didn't want vanity and the material enjoyment they gave me by staying in the Su Family with an impersonated beauty. I wanted to have a name that matched yours. "Did you know, I was such a naive and retarded person back then. I thought that as long as we were well-matched, we would be able to be together and be blessed by your family."

"I just didn't expect that what was waiting for me was a huge trap. Su Hengwen used Qian Yang's indecent video and photos to force me to go drink with her. "At that time, I was in the water, alone, and I was so lonely. She was my sister, and she pretended to be nice to me. I really needed her so much that I fell for her …"

Gao Kan, who had been silent all this time, suddenly opened his mouth. His tone was very irritable and was even a little angry, "Alright, stop talking. I've said that kind of shit, I've apologized to you, I've apologized many times. Tell me, what do I have to do in order for you to forget about it and not be angry with me for such a small matter? "

"Gao Kan, the important thing is that you didn't forget about it at all. Apologize, apologize, those, I don't need them, I was young and insensible and did the wrong thing, this is the stain of my life, I can never wash it off. I want you to forget it and untie the knot in your heart and stop hating me. "

As we talked, my heart started to feel uncomfortable again. I sincerely told him, "Gao Kan, I want you to love me, and only love this kind of feeling. It's not mixed with any kind of apology or forgiveness. Do you understand what I'm saying? "

"Coca Cola, you little fool," Gao Kan stood up, walked towards me, held me tightly, and kissed my forehead.

I held his emaciated face, looked at the broken helplessness in his eyes, and felt my heart ache. Anxious, I said to him, "Gao Kan, stop lying to me and you, okay? If that kan, in your heart really can't pass, don't force yourself to be with me again. "I want you to care about me, but I don't want to see you suffer for me. If this goes on, neither of us will be happy. This is not the love I want to give you, nor should it be yours. You can have better things …"

Halfway through his words, Gao Kan came over and kissed me, then covered my mouth with his lips. I didn't want this conversation to end in failure like this, and wanted to push him away, but Gao Kan forcefully broke open my teeth, held onto the back of my head, and pressed me against the glass wall behind him. With a gentle, urgent and overbearing manner, he coiled up my tongue and started to kiss me.

Gao Kan really knows how to kiss, and he is very patient in guiding me to start, accept, and enjoy this process. I don't know if this skill is something that I have learnt a lot from other girls, or something that I was born with, but when we kiss, no matter if it's anger, sadness, or anxiety I feel right now, he will be able to dispel those emotions and send me to a world that I was once unfamiliar with, is now familiar with, and filled with security and bliss.

We kissed for a long time, and now I'm not just going to bear it. I'll kiss him back, I'll breathe, I'll give him the same electricity, I'll tantalize his adrenaline rush with the tip of my tongue, I'll want him so much, I won't be ashamed to express my feelings and hide my desires.

Gao Kan did not hide his desire at all, he kneaded my body with all his might, wishing that he could embed himself in it. I wanted to take him too, so I undid his belt on my own accord, but Gao Kan held my hand, placed it on his lips and rubbed, then said with a hoarse voice: "I want you, and only want you, that's all, feel it?"

"Yes."

After that wave of berserk wave passed, Gao Kan gradually stopped stroking me and seriously said: "I'm not lying, and I'm not feeling pain or unhappiness. On the contrary, it's because of you that I can feel happiness again. What you just said is all in the past, they are all in the past. If there is anything that remains in my heart, it is my guilt towards you. When I think about it, I feel that I will never be able to make up for it in my entire life. There was a time when I gave you the cold shoulder and thought of many ways to chase after you again, like how other men would chase after their beloved girl, giving their all and moving your heart, so that I could feel a bit more at ease. "

"On the night of the fifteenth of the first month, you took the initiative to ask me to stay behind. Hearing your heartfelt words and confession, I realized that what you needed was not to make up for your past, but rather to have me by your side. You know what? Sometimes, looking at how much you love me, I am truly envious. I want to learn how to love from you, and then I can also know how to love you more. I won't let you get mad for no reason, I don't have a sense of security, and I completely trust you. "

"It's not that I don't want to talk about the past. It's that we were too young at the time, made the wrong decision, and lied to each other. There's nothing wrong with that. The starting point is for the sake of each other, isn't there?"

"I can't ask you to break off your relationship with Su Jiawang, and make you give up that important part of your memory, because I can't push Han Youya away either. The time I spent together with her, to me, is a precious memory, but it's just a kind of kinship, and there's no love at all.

"So, look. Even if there are some problems between us that haven't been resolved yet, after going around in circles for so many years and finally being together with great difficulty, I really don't want to miss them because of some misunderstanding. Do you understand my heart? I will solve all of those problems one by one. Don't be annoyed, just be my, Gao Kan's, girlfriend.

"Lisa told me that you are not a flower in a greenhouse and that it is not appropriate for you to guard it carefully. I don't believe it, but I'm going to move you into my heart and protect you well so that you don't have to contend with anyone else and only do what you really want to do. "

Wuu wuu.

I have heard Gao Kan's confession of deep love, but he showed me his inner thoughts without reservation. His confusion and bewilderment, his youth and youth, he told me all of them in those five years that he didn't belong to me. What else could I complain about?

He didn't expect that he would actually receive Gao Kan's sincere heart. At the same time, the huge rock that was pressed against the bottom of my heart was crushed into pieces by a pair of giant hands, turned into dust, and floated out of my heart, flying all the way to the highest heaven, never bothering me again.

I hugged Gao Kan excitedly and took the initiative to give him happiness and what he wanted. Every time I solved a problem, I would have the feeling of passing through a hurdle, and I had a special sense of accomplishment.

At this moment, I was too preoccupied with my own worries to know anything.

The big stone that was pressed against my heart and taken away didn't fly out into the ninth heaven, but was placed inside Gao Kan's heart. However, he kept it tightly locked and only showed me happiness.