"Let's go, what's the problem here? At this time, what's there that we can't solve?" Seeing that I was hesitating, Gao Kan simply pulled me by the wrist and brought me to the bedside.
The patient that looked haggard and ill, and the tall, handsome, elegant and weak Yi Shouzhuo that I remembered, had become two different people.
He was waiting with empty, silent eyes, listening intently to the conversations of the characters on the television.
Gao Kan pushed me down onto the chair, picked up the remote control, and paused for a while.
Yi Shouzhuo's originally stiff face twitched a few times, and then, two streams of clear tears fell from the corners of his eyes, as if he was excited, as if he couldn't believe it. He reached out his trembling and powerless hand, randomly touched the air, and shouted, "Glittering?"
My tears couldn't help but to jump out. After hesitating for a moment, I held onto the hand he was looking for and replied, "Dad."
Yi Shouzhuo's thin hand weakly trembled a few times before grabbing onto the finger that was holding him. She slowly twisted her face and turned towards me as she said excitedly: "You were calling me daddy just now? Can you scream again? "
I took the tissue that Gao Kan passed to me, and wiped my tears first, then I helped him wipe the tears from the corner of my eyes, and gently told him: "Live well, and when the Lantern Festival comes, I still want to eat the Soup Dumplings that you made. When that time comes, I'll call you again."
"Well, I'm alive," he said, groping for my hands again and again, probably in too much excitement, and his lips trembled for a long time, unable to speak.
After silently accompanying Yi Shouzhuo for a while, when his mood stabilized, I asked, "Wu Yue is not my biological mother, is he?"
He hesitated somewhat awkwardly and did not say a word.
"Don't think about hiding it from me. I already know. Someone told me that she isn't my biological mother."
He blinked and nodded.
"Why are you hiding this from me after so many years? Who is my biological mother? Is she alive or dead? At this point, can't you tell me? "
After asking a string of resentful questions, Yi Shouzhuo turned to the side. Even so, he was still unwilling to tell me the truth.
"After you married Wu Yue, you cheated on my own mother. You had no face to face these two women, and that's why you were so indifferent to me after so many years?"
How could the grudges that he had accumulated for more than twenty years be resolved like this?
Gao Kan patted my shoulder, indicating that I should calm down, and said to Yi Shouzhuo in a very serious and reproachful tone: "Your daughter, I was the one who brought her back to Chenchen from Da Liang Shan, and today, I brought her back to you again. If you have anything to say, you should say it earlier, and bring her to the coffin without telling her.
Yi Shouzhuo bit her lips and only then did she loosen her hold. Gao Kan said again: "Alright, I'll go out and buy some food. You two can chat."
After Gao Kan left, Yi Shouzhuo turned his head and called out "Glittering", he looked at me with his blind eyes, although his eyes were dead grey and did not have any luster, but he could feel that his eyes were filled with pleading. After a long while, he said, "Don't be angry, I'll say it."
I shook his hand again. "Then tell me, and I'll listen."
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When Gao Kan came in, Yi Shouzhuo was already asleep from exhaustion.
"Hungry?" He put his supper on the table and told me to eat it.
I went over to eat the porridge with a heavy heart, but I didn't know what to eat.
"What, he still won't say?"
"Yes."
"Then why aren't you happy?"
"... "However, she has already passed away. It seems that I will never have the chance to see my own mother again in this lifetime." Because the truth that Yi Shouzhuo told me was too shocking and unbelievable, I lied to Gao Kan a little.
After that, neither of us spoke and ate our separate meals.
I drank half a bowl of porridge. My leg kept hurting and I didn't have much appetite for it, but Gao Kan was still eating. He looked very hungry, so I patiently waited for him to finish eating, and then tried to find an excuse for him to leave.
Being kicked so hard for Li Ao, I was afraid that Gao Kan would feel burdened after knowing about it.
When he saw that I didn't move my chopsticks, he frowned and asked, "Why aren't you eating anymore?"
"My tongue hurts."
"..." Gao Kan was stunned at first, but then he remembered his own crazed action. He avoided my eyes and said: "Go and sleep for a while, I'll guard it for you."
For example, apologizing to me for losing control of his emotions back then, or being so angry at Li Ao. No matter what it was, as long as he was willing to say it, I would be willing to believe it.
But he said nothing.
Perhaps it was because he wanted to keep his secret from me, or simply because I hadn't yet become his true soulmate.
His silence and concealment made him even more sullen, and his tone became much colder. "No need, you should go back and rest first. I want to stay with him alone for two days. I have a feeling that he will survive the night."
"Can you do it alone?"
"Yes."
Gao Kan did not force him, "Alright, then I'll go home first and come back tomorrow."
"No need, tomorrow is the first day, you still have a lot of things to do, just in case, I'll call you."
"Yes." Gao Kan put down his chopsticks, stood up, found his clothes on the hat rack, and warned me a few times not to be too tired and take rest, then walked out.
I sat there, pretending to eat more porridge. I didn't get up, I just watched him until he disappeared around the corner, and then I burst into tears.
"Your own mother has passed away, and I do not wish to say more. But there are a few words that I want to say to you. Remember back then, I was opposed to your relationship with Gao Kan? Your biological mother and Gao Kan's mother are cousins. All in all, you two are cousins. "But now it seems that your relationship is very stable. In the future, if you successfully make it to marriage, you must remember to be careful when giving birth to a child. You must not get pregnant casually, and do some checks like Tang Xi. If you get married next of kin, the rate of deformity of the child is quite high." "… … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … … …
This is the only thing Yi Shouzhuo told me about my biological mother under my interrogation.
Actually, that woman had already passed away. Regarding her and Gao Kan's mother's relationship as cousins, and why she cheated on Yi Shouzhuo, one year before I was born and the year after, I don't care about the matter of her suddenly falling from grace in Yi Family's family, and why Gao Kan's mother wanted to compensate me and make him come to my house to take care of me.
As for the question "Can a child who is related to a sister get married?", I searched many websites and found the same answer: close relatives are not allowed to get married by law, children who are married to close relatives are many times more likely to have congenital diseases, children who are related to close relatives are likely to have the same pathogenic genes for shoelaces, children who are likely to be homozygous make the disease appear and do not recommend marriage.
This is something I never thought of.
However, I quickly accepted it. Although the probability of us having a child with deformity is relatively high, with the development of social science and technology, we can choose excellent genes to test the tube for babies.
The problem is, how do I tell Gao Kan this?
If he knew that my biological mother was the kind of woman his father loved the most, the kind of girl he hated the most, and had hooked up with Yi Shouzhuo for him, what would he think?
It's the new year, and it's not a very pleasant thing to say.
Just like this, after hesitating for the latter half of the night, I finally didn't say anything to Gao Kan.
In the latter part of the night, I took Auntie Yu's account and went to the surgery to take X-ray film. In the end, my shin was hit with plaster cast, and if I wanted to shoot a movie in ten days, the doctor suggested that I rest in bed for a week.
The next morning, without informing Gao Kan, I rented a car and took Yi Shouzhuo home to the Chenchen. Not long after he sensed that something was going to happen to him, he begged me to bring him home so he could rest in peace.
After Gao Kan found out about this, he did not say much more, but merely instructed me to take good care of Yi Shouzhuo and help him out if there was anything else I could help with. Please do not hesitate to ask, and then, the two of us chatted about filming the new movie, spoke a few words that were neither good nor bad, and hung up.
In any case, since Gao Kan didn't say anything, I didn't ask. I was waiting for him to take the initiative to speak, but unfortunately, he didn't seem to plan on doing so.
Before the fifteenth filming of the first month, Gao Kan came to Chenchen to see me once. Other than some insignificant and so-called love words that could please girls, he still couldn't let go of his pride and manhood, and didn't mention the explanation that I had been hoping for.
Hope after hope was exchanged for disappointment. He did not know when it started, but the desire to make up became more and more dispirited.
When I woke up late one night and saw Gao Kan sending me a message saying that he was missing me, and then casually mentioned about the new artistes from the company, I had that intense feeling of loss that rose up in my heart. I even thought sorrowfully for a moment, how about we break up like this?