Chapter 82.3: Conversation with Asama

Chapter 82.3: Conversation with Asama

Do you really want me to tell you? If you forcibly dig up the memories you wanted to forget, you will suffer.

What if I still want to know?

If you recovered those episodic memories accurately, youre going to be mentally impo.

Eh.?

Impo is it? What kind of goddess would say impotent?

However, Ill be mentally damaged if I remember, thats scary!

Maa, do you think Im lying when I said that about your memory?

You are a goddess-sama, I dont think youll lie.

.I mean, dont you think its weird?

What is?

No normal high school student can sleep in the arms of a cute quarter beast girl, or a loli demon, or the thick Ria, while being wrapped in the scent of ladies who were swooning him. Resisting aside, you are even irritated as if you cant stand it anymore!

Now that you mention it..

I understand but why do you have to say it in a vulgar way?

Somehow, your character is gradually breaking.

Youre not impotent because youve forgotten your memories but because youre defense mechanism making you not get into a relationship with them. Youre afraid to get involved deeply with the opposite sex. In the end, all of your problems can be traced back to that. Its like a fishbone stuck in your throat that wont let go. Thats is what exactly whats happening to you.

To say it frankly, the shock of losing the first person you ever cared about was too much for you to bear. That time, your family, schoolmates, and all the people in your area died so nothing is holding you back.

Thats sublime.

I cant imagine it, not the present me.

However, given the tingle on my chest, it must have happened.

Even if your memory was sealed with an unabashed face and you tried to continue living, you still suffered a deep wound that your heart that you can no longer get it up.

Please, dont say I cant get it up

For a boy at your age to not be able to get it up, thats quite something!

I know it already so please stop saying I cant get it up.

If the goddess is like this, the saints and saintesses wont be different.

As for my tragic past, I felt something in my chest but that means its not broken.

I mean, theres more to it. Im shocked that Im an impo in my former world too.

How should I take it?

With the power given to you by your one and only soul friend, who no longer exists anywhere, you chose to erase all your painful memories and came to this world. It was a coincidence that this world was chosen but looking at it now, you have already found a lot of people you care for in this world.

If that is the case, should I live in this world permanently?

The goddess thought a little and then answered.