Chapter 435: ARGUMENT
“Be mad at me. Hit me. Curse me. Just go somewhere safe.”
His voice was tender and affectionate. But it didn’t sweeten her heart in the slightest.
On the other hand, she felt suffocated. It was like thorns shackled her tightly. The thorns pierced her skin and she bled.
Veronica took some time to reply.
“Arthur, if I leave, you can never bring me back here.”
Arthur was astounded. “Nica...”
“I’m serious. If I leave, I leave for good.” Veronica looked at him with an unwavering gaze.
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“Arthur, it’s always like this. Whenever something happens, you push me away. We must change it.
“I know there is a reason that you don’t believe in me but let me prove myself. Not only as the Mistress of the Magic Tower but also as your wife who can protect herself.
“I have been training every day under Roxana, Darius and Ironin’s assistance. I have been studying under Ovior’s strict guidance. Now it’s time to test what I am capable of.
“You are only thinking about my life. Have you ever thought of my reputation and emotion? How will I face everyone after coming back?
“I’ll be known as the cowardly Mistress of the Magic Tower. Everyone will laugh at me. I will never be able to raise my head with dignity.”
Arthur’s eyes gradually turned cold when he listened to her.
“Whoever mocks you, I’ll cut off their heads,” he promised.
Veronica asked in return, “How long can you do that? After our death, anyone can say anything. In the history book, I’ll become a coward; a worthless mistress.
“Didn’t you say you proposed to me knowing the future outcome? You knew I’d be a mistress. You knew the Queen would give us a hard time.
“Then, did you plan to make me a useless mistress from the beginning? So then, why didn’t you tell me that?
“Why did you think I worked so hard for being a mistress and let go of my plans to travel the world? Who did you think I was doing this for?”
The more she spoke, the more her voice rose. Her high pitch made Arthur realize how upset she was.
“Of course you did it for me and I highly appreciate it. You also know everything I did is for you,” he tried to cool her down.
“You do everything for me, Arthur. Have you sacrificed your life-long dream? What is your dream, Arthur? Just to be with me? But I’m greedier than you think.
“I’m just not satisfied being with you. I want to roam the world with you. I want to proudly stand beside you. I want people to respect me just like they respect you. That’s the very reason I’m working so hard, Arthur.
“I’m practicing swordsmanship so that you don’t ever have to fear what might happen to me when I go out alone. You will be able to depend on me and have a hundred percent faith that I can guard your back.
“I’m studying hard so that I can be the best Mistress of the Magic Tower. I want people to remember me as the perfect wife of the fearsome Master of the Magic Tower.
“Why... just why do you keep trampling on my dreams and hard work like that? Does my hard work mean nothing to you? I’m a human too.”
Her voice gradually lowered. Arthur could barely hear the last sentence.
Veronica couldn’t look at him. She didn’t speak anymore either.
She choked up. Her throat tightened. She didn’t want to break into tears and act pitifully in front of Arthur.
She always showed her strong appearance in front of him and yet he never acknowledged it.
‘What can I do to make him look at me with trust. When will he be confident about my skills? When will he have a little bit of faith in me?’
She pondered hard but no answer came to her head.
It wasn’t that she didn’t want to. It was just that she feared having a high ambition and then would get disappointed again.
It already happened so many times. Each time a knife was pierced through her heart.
However, she didn’t back down. She kept going on and on. She pushed herself to the limit. She even won the best archery award.
Nonetheless, everything seemed meaningless to Arthur when they were in danger.
He had always pushed her away.
She felt like no matter how many times she wanted to raise her head he pushed her head down, not letting her raise her head.
‘I’m a human too. Doesn’t he understand that I get tired of the same incident repeating again and again?’
The more Veronica thought about it, the more she became depressed.
She didn’t want to shout at him anymore. She didn’t like arguing with him.
If anything, she wanted some rest. Rest from everything. Marriage, responsibilities, swordsmanship.
Just like Catherine, she wanted to get away from everything and rest.
Arthur understood very well what she was talking about. He was mad at himself for not talking to her properly and making her upset.
He was scared of losing her through this misunderstanding. So, he hurriedly stated his mind.
“Nica, listen... It’s not like that. There is no way I don’t trust your ability. In fact, I know you are more powerful than I am. All I know is to kill people. As for you, you know how to revive lives. You know how to heal people and animals. Unlike you, I don’t have that kind of power.
“Did you forget the last time I was attacked to protect you and you used almost all of your power and revived the whole desert? You went into a coma and I could do nothing to take care of you. All I could do was just sit next to you and wash your body and keep looking at you.
“I’m not someone who believes in gods or goddesses. But at that time, I was so scared of losing you that I started praying to God. I don’t want to go through that experience again. I don’t want to be scared of losing you. You, lying down on the bed, that vision comes back to me like a nightmare every time I want to close my eyes. I don’t want more nightmares to hunt me down at night when I sleep next to you.
“That is the sole reason I just told you my selfish desire. I know it was wrong of me to tell you to go away. It is irresponsible of me as the Master of the Magic Tower to do this kind of thing. Even so, I don’t care. I don’t want to bother with what people have to say about what I do.
“It’s not like I have any good reputation either. No matter how many times I’ve tried to protect people, I have always been known as a bloodthirsty monster. What can I expect them to say this time? I don’t even believe what they will think of anything if I tell you to stay away from the tower until the problem is solved. I’m sorry that I didn’t think of your position. I should have done that.”
He cupped her face and gently raised her head. He could see the pained expression written all over her face. Her eyes were reddish but she didn’t cry.
He felt his heart twisted and crushed by something.
His beloved wife couldn’t even show her weakness to him so that he could think of her as a strong woman – just that thought hurt his heart enough to make him speechless.
“Nica... it’s not that I don’t believe in you. I just believe in you way too much. Please understand,” he requested.
Veronica looked at him with her red eyes. “If you believe in me too much, then I have to do the same, don’t I?”
She added, “From now on, I will do whatever I want. Since my husband is so capable of taking care of all the problems alone, I’ll just leave it to you. You can take care of all your problems of your life.
“As for me, I will roam around the world alone, fight against bad people, bring justice to good people and neglect my duty as the Mistress of the Magic Tower.
“Since you cannot let me join your fun or problem, there is no point for me to make you join my fun or problems. Doesn’t that sound just great?”
Arthur stared at her in disbelief. He never felt so dumbstruck before.
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Before he could say something, Veronica’s eyes glistened.
“See? It’s hard for you to accept this kind of separation. This is exactly what I am feeling right now. I realized that if you don’t put on someone else’s shoes, you wIll never understand that person’s situation. Now you tell me, what you are thinking right now.”
Arthur stroked his forehead. He was really nervous.
“Nica... I didn’t think that way. If I tell you to go to the safe house until I take care of the queen, will you roam around the world without me and do whatever you want without including me?”