223 The Knight Commander's monologue.

"Commander Olsain. Is there something wrong?

When asked with a voice of fear, I return to myself.

A young Kintetsu Knight stands in front of the constable. Was it indeed the second year since you joined the army? I remember reading his report on the way.

You must have been anxious to see me silently with a harsh face. He glanced at a nervous, upright young man and then turned his gaze back to hand.

"No problem."

While sincerely blaming yourself for being stunned while on duty, you get a quill without putting it on your face. After signing and returning the documents, the strong expression of the young Kintetsu Knight is relieved.

He left the room and saw the door close.

You've done a bad thing.

It seems that I can't afford to look so scared of young people right now.

Stimulates the area between the eyebrows with your thumb.

I felt that the dull pain I had felt since the morning was only slightly distant.

Lift your body to the ceiling on the back of the chair.

I lay down with my hands on my stomach and exhaled for a long time.

I can think of the cause of the disorder without even thinking about it.

I feel sorry for myself for bringing personal emotions to work, but I can't control myself.

"Princess...."

An unexpectedly leaking voice is a terrible ear murmur, scattered low. He murmured in his chest as if it were the roar of a hungry beast, hoisting the corner of his mouth to one end.

I haven't seen the princess in the courtyard for a week. [M]

Despite being told to wait until calm down, I went to see him the next day.

Still, Klaus with his stupid face checked inside. However, she did not reply. Every day, his neck was never shaken vertically. Klaus, who initially said it was a good feeling, also had cold eyes, clouding his expression with anxiety as he followed the day. Of course, I'm not the one who keeps being shaken, but the princess who keeps rejecting me.

At first, I gave up wanting to see him until he settled down.

She couldn't see me even after a few days, and I was worried if she was feeling ill. But according to Klaus, he's not asleep.

It seems that the princess has been reading a lot of books in the room. [M] He seems to be studying something with enthusiasm, so he can't get in the way.

I can't help it if I'm busy.

I'll give you a few more days to calm down before you take your time.

If you think so, your feet ignore your head's instructions and head to your princess's room. Nothing but annoyance, such as the Knights of the Kintetsu taking a day trip to Her Royal Highness's room.

Pretending to be a good adult was long overdue.

Knocking sounds bring back to reality the consciousness that was sinking into the sea of thought.

He exhaled again and then woke up.

"Excuse me."

Permission to enter was granted to the lieutenant.

He gave me a bunch of documents he had recovered from everywhere and stopped. After looking at my face for a few seconds, I raised my eyebrows slightly.

I'm so tired.

"... is it on your face?"

I smiled back at the deputy officer who nodded deeply.

If he was so gentle and caring, he must have looked so terrible.

"Let's take a break. I will prepare tea."

No, it's fine.

Put the paperwork at the edge of the desk and take control of the deputy who tries to leave.

"Overpacking your roots will reduce your efficiency."

That's how the lieutenant made the traffic.

Fortunately, there is no accumulation of work now, but occasionally I was preached that it is also work to rest, and I raised my hand slightly when I surrendered.

"Okay. But I don't want tea. I feel like I'm going for a walk."

"Yes, welcome."

When he stood up, the lieutenant smiled with satisfaction.

After leaving the office in such a way that I would be kicked out, I wandered around the castle without any trouble.

... no, it's a lie. There is certainly no destination, but there is a purpose.

I was hoping to see you at first sight. [M] After all, my shallow hopes never came true.

At some point, my feet were facing out.

Looking up at the majestic castle from the back of the garden. I had a headache when I stopped looking at the balcony in a high position.

Now it's like... no, it's the criminal himself.

It's creepy to want to see you from afar.

Feel the roughness and scratch the back of your head.

I tried to return my heel as soon as I got back to work.

Something glitters from the shadow of the balcony.

"....."

There is a white hand on the dull cream handrail.

The slippery shawl fell off her thin shoulders and her other hand gently pressed on her. A sun-spun platinum blonde that plays with the breeze at random. The face that fell down showed a shadow, and I couldn't see the expression.

Still, it's been a long time since I've seen you, and your chest is getting hot.

Nature and the call to "princess" leaked.

It's only about two finger joints in size, and I can't see it. I doubt if it will arrive even if I lift it up, but I can't hear you murmuring.

And yet the princess looks up.

My eyes were swimming and I finally came to me. Your eyes are clearer than the clear sky.

My eyes are tangled.

I even forgot to breathe, so I took a step unconsciously.

The princess's thin shoulders shake and his hand leaves the handrail.

The crooked princess turned around and disappeared.

"... ah"

I couldn't move while reaching for my back.

I got away.

Rejected.

As soon as I understood it so that my brain seeped in, a sharp pain penetrated my chest.

The sound of your ear ringing a bell is annoying behind your ear. My breathing became shallow and my spine sweaty.

Grasp your stretched hand tightly.

It's not that I didn't feel anything about being unable to see you no matter how many times I went to see you. Whether you're awake or asleep, it's all over your head.

I don't want you to wait until you calm down.

It's not like I can't see you because I'm busy.

What if they don't want to see you anymore?

What am I supposed to do if I'm trying to make a break for such an impudent man and walk a new path?

No, in the first place.

It was a miracle that I was always the only one who looked so beautiful and attractive. And since miracles don't happen again, they're called miracles.

Maybe his eyes won't look straight at me anymore.

The moment I thought about it, I felt blood coming out of my body.

My feet and feet are shaking.

Is it the world or yourself that is shaking? The contents of your head are so confusing that you don't even know it.

When summoned, I like to jump lightly on my shoulders.

I like the moment when the blue eyes that found me melt away.

I love the change in the soft cheeks that fades thinly.

I really like the moment when your eyes shine and you call me with your lovely lips like a petal.

All that was given as a matter of course was taken away and given to someone other than me.

Yes, it is.

A man your age would have thought he looked good next to her. That's what I mean. His eyes and voice, his thin white hands and his soft lips will belong to another man.

I smile, leave myself to it, and swear to each other's future.

The moment I imagined it as a fragment, intense anger dominated my body.

It looks like blood is boiling. A boiling anger burns your heart. My body is hot enough to go mad, but my head is cold enough.

I didn't know there were such harsh feelings in me.

"....."

The laughter leaked out of place.

The dry laughter was a terrible and fierce sound.

I don't deserve it.

After all, I didn't intend to let the princess get away with the fine dust, even if I arranged for the difference in age and the difference in identity.

I wonder what a rough man with only a sword's arm was wearing.

There is no more fear in this world than losing him.

Then I'll grab that hand with all my hands. Before they lose it, before they take it.

I was dazed by my greedy self, but I felt even cleaner.

I'm not lost anymore.

"I'm sorry, Princess."

I'm not going to let you go.

The whispering voice disappeared when the wind grabbed it without reaching anyone's ears.