My life probably began when I met the princess.
Until then, I was alive in the sense of life activities.Wake up in the morning, and eat dinner, and work, and sleep in the night: and it shall be repeated.
My will didn't exist there.Because I don't want to die, I'm just living with inertia.
The meeting with Lutz was impressive, but it was also like he was dead before meeting the princess.
I think Lutz and I finally started to live in the true sense of the word after meeting the princess.
The princess wasn't just a cute girl.
With an ingenuity that was not suited to her age, she seemed to act thinking about what she should do and what she could do.
I naturally began to think about my future because of the presence of such a role model.
As an apprentice of a mage affiliated to the state, it seems that the position he aims for is determined.
I just don't know what to do if I get an 'apprentice' first.
One way is to study magic like a master and leave it for future generations.
The chance of having magic power is decreasing year by year, even though the backward cultivator may also get into work.It was not confirmed that they were younger than us.It is unlikely that it will come out in the future.
Then I'd like to find another way.
I understood that it was difficult for me to have the magic power of fire attribute.
Unlike the ground and water, it was an Attack Specialization attribute.I couldn't think of any other road but as a fighting force in the event of an emergency.
But the princess treated me well.
He taught me how to make people happy with delicious food, not with the tools to kill them.
If I could, I'd like to work under the princess.I want to choose a path that will help people.
"... Theo"
The princess, who was surprised and hardened, called me after a short time.
The Azure Sky Eyes, which were staring straight at me, were harboring a terrible and serious color.
"I'll be honest with you."
My throat rattled.
I imagined this scene over and over.
"I'm sorry, but I can't." I was clearly turned down, and "As a magician, you should aim for the top." I was turned down for a long time.I wondered which one it was, and I got scared.
I can't do anything about the positive predictions that will be accepted.
Even so, I couldn't give up, so I consulted.
Yes. If you can't, I'd appreciate it if you could say no.
It was because of me that I played a disgusting role.She added with a bitter smile that the princess felt a little less guilty.
But for some reason, the princess had a troubled face.
"No, no... no, it's the other way around."
"... the other way around?"
I couldn't quite understand the meaning of the words, and I heard a voice.
The princess nodded with a serious face without a bad wind.
“I think there's a lot that only Theo can do.”
"... eh"
While making my own suggestion, I was dumbfounded.
It's too different from what I expected.
I had some knowledge because I was taking care of the medicinal herbs with the princess.I studied on my own, so I'm going to know more about herbs.However, there is only an annotation that says "compared to ordinary people".
It is not far from a full-time job such as a doctor or a pharmacist.
I am motivated and will not spare any effort, but as it stands, I will not be counted as a medical facility's strength.
However, the princess said that I was the only one who could do it.
Not that I could do it, but that I could do it.
"The research facility will also be working on the development of new drugs.I order a variety of ingredients from all over the world and try them out, but sometimes just mixing them normally doesn't work, and chemical reactions... well, there are some ingredients that can be extracted by adding heat or cooling. ”
I reacted to the words "add heat" and "cool".
"It's quite difficult to adjust the temperature just by putting the pan on fire, right?"I don't think fine temperature control is possible. But if it were you,
You can do it, can't you? "
I laughed as I felt like crying at the expectation and the gentle gesture.I think it's like I'm failing and crying, but I don't care.
"... I'm good at it"
It was the princess who suggested the training for the fine tuning of the magic.
If you were to use us as a weapon, the firepower would be much better.Anyway, with "control", you don't need to "adjust" to your ability to kill.But the princess attached great importance to temperature and duration.
Sometimes I wonder why.
But the answer is extremely simple.
For the princess, we weren't weapons, we were the [Hagi] and the [Ice Room].
"Your abilities are very valuable."... that's why you have to think about it.It's not a job with immediate results, and I think it will put a lot of effort into it until it's on track.If you succeed, you will be treated like a co-developer or an assistant to a researcher. ”
"I can't promise you a position or honor," said the princess.
The wrinkle in front of her spoke of her remorse.
“The business I'm trying to challenge is not going to be completed at my expense.Perhaps in my child's or grandchildren's childhood, it finally takes shape.I may not be able to return anything while I'm alive, but I can't easily involve you. "
The princess leaned forward and raised her face.
"That's why, if you want to become a mage like Irine, you have to do something you didn't hear before."
What an idiot to be honest, what a good-looking woman.
You can't fall in love like this.
I can get up right now and push myself to scream like this.
It's like a joyful, ticklish feeling.I made a slightly mean face to mislead the emotions I had.
If you need me, why don't you fool me and pull me out?
"... that's true." I think my lack of rational judgment is my fatal flaw. ”
Even though it was a good time to be angry with yourself, the princess began to reflect with a difficult face.
"I'm just kidding. Because I'm a princess who can't run away, I talked to her without getting rid of it."You can stay as you are. "
The princess caught a glimmer of light.
Oh, cute.
Even though she's such a beautiful girl, she doesn't care how she looks at it at all, and when she laughs, it's really cute.
Perhaps the Commander of the Kingsguard also thought intuitively that he liked this smile.
"I respect my master, and I think it is a very important role."... but if you'll allow me, I'd like to go another way. "
I am simply afraid that I will officially become a national mage and end my life as a fighting force in case of emergency.It's terrifying to disappear with nothing left to do for no one.
Even so, I didn't want more of a war.
"I can't pin it because I was honest and unrelated to my status and honor.I think it would be nice to be recognized, but I don't have any troubles.About a hundred years after I died, it was just right for me to be delusional that it might be on the edge of a book. "
I'd rather be a forgotten medicine in a medicine box than finish it off as a weapon in a warehouse.
If I thought that one day it would be useful for someone in the distant future, I thought that there would be little regret in dying without form.
And with the princess around, I probably don't have time to soak up that sentimentality.
I was able to live my own life in the dazzling days.I was sure of that.
"I want to help you work hard for someone."Please, let me work under the princess. ”
"Theo..."
The princess's voice swept a little like a high emotion.
A momentary silence. The princess clasped her lips like she was determined to do something.
"All right."
The princess who nodded firmly was about to relax her body.
Apparently, I was really nervous.
"I'll try to negotiate with my father."Although it may be difficult to navigate, I will try to propose it after I have gathered up the proposed plan by cutting off the affinity between Theo's abilities and medical research. "
I'm surprised you're already thinking that way.
I didn't think it was more than just words on the spot, but I didn't expect the conversation to progress anytime soon.
Really, I wonder how much this person needs to fall in love with me again.
It's a terrible story, even though you've already decided to have a heartbreak.But I don't feel bad.Rather, I even felt sober.
So, Theo, maybe you've already spoken to Irina-sama?
I think I remembered talking to Lutz a little bit about what he was doing separately.
I said yes because this was exactly what I was going to do for my master.
"I thought it would be better if I got the princess's approval soon."When I talked to my master, it felt good. "
"Thank you for that." If Irene-sama is on your side, it will be easier to negotiate.
The princess raised her mouth with a childish face.
I felt happy again when I thought I could keep an eye on the changing expression.
When I heard about the princess' engagement, of course my chest hurt.
But I don't want to break the princess's happiness.Besides, I'm not trying to force my feelings out.
Someday nature may change into love and affection, and it may not change for the rest of your life.
Then I'd like to keep it that way.
If you love it for the rest of your life, you want to live with it and die one day.
I don't want anything, so please forgive me.
Princess.
The princess's gaze turned toward me.
"What?" he confessed to the princess, leaning her neck forward.
'I like it'.
"... Theo?"
"Please speak to me before you create the document."I'll help you as long as I can. "
“Sure, I'm counting on you.”
I think, staring at the princess's smile.
Yeah. I'm happy after all.