Chapter 58：

Xia Shutong knew that Yun Feiwu was lying to her.

Yun Feiwu is not afraid, she just wants to sleep with her.

As a child, Yun Feiwu was never afraid of the dark, let alone sleeping alone. Let alone now that they are grown up, they are already adults.

Thinking of this, Xia Shutong felt a little relieved. Before she knew it, her cat became a big girl.

Not only the appearance, but even the figure...is completely different from before.

I don't know why, after seeing Yun Feiwu's exposed skin, Xia Shutong felt a little dry, and some dared not look at it anymore. Obviously they have bathed together so many times before, it's only been three years...

Xia Shutong was in a daze for a long time.

However, in Yun Feiwu's eyes, Xia Shutong was in a daze, he was clearly staring at her with that kind of scrutiny, which made her more and more afraid and want to shrink back.

Just when Yun Feiwu was about to lose his hold and wanted to leave voluntarily, Xia Shutong took a step back with a frivolous expression: "Come in."

Yun Feiwu walked into the room, but Xia Shutong didn't move, just pointed to the bed.

The eyes are teasing.

Yun Feiwu pinched the hem of the skirt tightly with her fingers, and walked towards the bed step by step with downcast eyes. Xia Shutong, on the other hand, stood there all the time, examining her with eyes like looking at a pet.

Yun Feiwu remembered a character she had played.

It was played by her half a year ago, a canary who was taken care of by a rich businessman. The wealthy businessman looked at Canary in the same way that Xia Shutong looked at her now. They are clearly looking at their pets and enjoy it.

Yun Feiwu felt extremely humiliated, but she persisted, sat on the edge of the bed, and retracted into the quilt again.

Xia Shutong then closed the door and locked it.

The reason why Xia Shutong stood there for so long was simple... she was nervous.

Although she couldn't explain why, she was nervous.

She faintly felt that Yun Feiwu's feelings for her after seeing her for three years... seemed to be a little different from before. This feeling frightened her.

Seeing Yun Feiwu hiding under the quilt, her fair skin completely covered, Xia Shutong slowly walked over and sat on the other side of the bed.

The bed was huge, and there was a gap of nearly half a meter between the two of them.

"Have I turned off the light?" Xia Shutong wasn't sleepy yet, but just now she lay on the bed and read the information for a while, and listened to the online class for a few minutes with earphones on, but she couldn't listen to it anyway, and always wanted to take a look to the side , so I simply want to turn off the lights and go to bed early.

"...Mmm." Yun Feiwu huddled under the quilt, showing a pair of eyes and looked at her timidly, obviously not falling asleep.

Xia Shutong sighed inwardly, turned off the light, and lay down under the blanket.

Her heart was still aching.

As soon as the light was turned off, the room was completely dark, and it was too quiet.

Xia Shutong felt that she could even hear Yun Feiwu's breathing and heartbeat clearly.

There was also the sound of Yun Feiwu turning over, rustling, as if getting closer to him.

It wasn't until Yun Feiwu embraced Xia Shutong with trembling hands that she suddenly realized—it didn't seem that Yun Feiwu was indeed slowly approaching her.

At this time, Yun Feiwu had already arrived behind her, hugging her tightly, and the heat sprayed from his breath was right next to Xia Shutong's ear.

Xia Shutong's whole body was stiff.

The ear pinna was even more numb and itchy, and the throat also became dry, unable to speak a complete sentence.

"Soft..." Before her brain shut down, she heard Yun Feiwu's weak voice, "Can I kiss you?"

Xia Shutong didn't...or rather, couldn't say no at all.

Then, her mind went blank.

She no longer knew what Yun Feiwu said afterwards, all she knew was that Yun Feiwu's voice was weak and his expression seemed timid, but his actions were not at all weak.

As the night passed, she was about to cry.

No, I have been crying, crying badly.

Even after waking up during the day, as soon as Xia Shutong saw the cloud on the bed, Xia Shutong shrank and squeezed towards the bed...and was taken back immediately.

"Ruan Ruan, don't you...don't like it?" Yun Feiwu lowered his head and looked at her pitifully.

There is water vapor in Yun Fei's misty eyes, and it seems that it may drip out at any time, which is very pitiful. The hair is also messy, and people can't help but want to touch it.

But... Xia Shutong gritted her teeth, obviously she was the one being bullied!

Xia Shutong slapped Yun Feiwu weakly on the shoulder.

Yun Feiwu remained motionless, still looking at her like that.

Xia Shutong patted it several times, finally lowered her wrist, looked away, and after a while said weakly: "No...no dislike."

Yun Feiwu wanted to hug her again, but she pushed her away feebly.

"Maomao, I'm hungry, can you go out and cook noodles..." Xia Shutong lowered her head.

She needs to be alone for a while, think carefully about what happened last night, and her plans for the future.

Yun Feiwu stared at her blankly for a while, nodded obediently, and when he walked to the door of the room with three steps, he suddenly turned back and knelt down on the bed with tears in his eyes.

"Ruanruan...I, last night...I'm sorry. If you don't like it, no, don't force yourself. Tell me, I, I will never again..."

Yun Feiwu knelt down in front of her, looking confused and scared, his whole body drooping, looking small, like a poor puppy.

Only then did Xia Shutong see that there were many marks on Yun Feiwu's body...all of which were caught by her.

Speaking of which, she was indeed the one who didn't reject Yun Feiwu last night, and even at the back, she still tempted Yun Feiwu to sink, time and time again. What was I thinking at that time? Xia Shutong doesn't remember, but barely remembers. At that time, his head was in a mess, and he just wanted to let go of everything, forget everything in reality, and pursue the pleasure of instinct.

So she needs it now, think about it.

Xia Shutong restrained the trembling of his hands, rubbed Yun Feiwu's head, and said in a hoarse and soft voice, "Hey, let's cook the noodles."

Yun Feiwu went out, and brought her a glass of water after a while. Later, he carried her to wash and eat.

At the dinner table, Xia Shutong inadvertently said, "I haven't eaten noodles cooked by Maomao for a long time", and coaxed the little dog Yun Feiwu into a smile, and his eyes were almost bent into crescents.

After that day, Xia Shutong's mentality changed a lot.

Yun Feiwu is her sun, an existence she always wants to protect, but she is no longer satisfied with...keeping a distance in the dark. She also wants to get close to the sun, embrace the sun, and hope that one day, she can really be with Yun Feiwu and let others know about their relationship.

A few days later, she took Yun Feiwu to buy a spare mobile phone, and asked someone to buy an anonymous card on the black market. After a few more days, she finally couldn't stand Yun Feiwu's moves, and agreed to be with Yun Feiwu on the bed, but she still made a three-pronged agreement, absolutely not letting others know about their relationship.

Before he could protect Yun Feiwu, Xia Shutong didn't want to see any accidents.

At first, even though Yun Feiwu agreed, he was secretly unconvinced, time and time again... bullying her to death. But later on, as the wolf cub grew up slowly, he gradually understood and sympathized with her.

Xia Shutong is Yun Feiwu's spear, smoothing out thousands of miles of thorns on the long road for her; it is also Yun Feiwu's shield, blocking sharp attacks again and again for her. And Yun Feiwu is Xia Shutong's sun, the source of energy that supports her to go on, and the existence she wants to embrace no matter what.

They are like a symbiosis of light and dark.

But apart from the two of them, no one knew the secret.

…

Waking up in the morning, Xia Shutong immediately felt a dull pain in his head.

It seemed to be stuffed with a lot of things, so blunt and uncomfortable.

Xia Shutong rubbed the center of her brows in pain, and as soon as she closed her eyes, a series of images flashed through her mind, as well as what Xia Hongye said to her yesterday afternoon.

Xia Shutong immediately realized that last night's dream...was her lost past.

She seemed to recall all the experiences from the age of nineteen to the present. Although the memory before the age of nineteen is not very clear, she already knows a lot by guessing.

In just a few seconds, Yun Feiwu also woke up from her sleep. Seeing Xia Shutong's painful expression, she woke up almost instantly: "Ruan Ruan? What's the matter? Have a headache? I'll go get the medicine."

Yun Feiwu's voice was very soft.

The dull pain in Xia Shutong's mind seemed to become light.

Before Yun Feiwu got up, Xia Shutong grabbed her: "No need."

"Maomao, can you lie down with me for a while?"

Yun Feiwu frowned, and after making sure that Xia Shutong's brows were slowly relaxed, she lay back on the bed and hugged Xia Shutong from behind.

Feeling the beating of the heart behind her, Xia Shutong exhaled lightly, and then felt that her heart became softer and softer, as if it was about to melt.

After a while, she turned around and put her arms around Yun Feiwu's neck: "Maomao, I remember what happened after I was nineteen years old."

However, there was no surprise in Yun Feiwu's eyes, but deep distress.

Xia Shutong:? ? ?

Although memory doesn't matter to them now, being able to recall the past is always the icing on the cake. She thought that Yun Feiwu should be happy, but then, Yun Feiwu's voice almost turned into tears.

"Ruanrou... that's why you had a headache just now?"

Xia Shutong nodded in confusion.

Indeed, waking up early in the morning with so much information stuffed into his head was excruciatingly painful. If Yun Feiwu hadn't woken up in time, it would have been painful for a while.

"No..." Xia Shutong was about to say, "It's okay, it doesn't hurt anymore", but Yun Feiwu rushed up and hugged her tightly, tears streaming from his eyes.

"I'm sorry Ruan Ruan, it was my fault in the past, I, I failed to stand by your side all the time... that caused you to suffer so many bad things, and made you like this..."

"Sorry, Ruanrou..."

Yun Feiwu sobbed, his voice was hoarse, and his body trembled uncontrollably.

She cried without warning, but like a storm.

It's like the emotions that have been accumulated in my heart for a long time finally broke at this moment and rushed out.

Xia Shutong hugged her subconsciously, but couldn't hold back her tears either.

My heart seemed to be filled with sadness.

She never thought before that Yun Feiwu would think like this... Yun Feiwu never thought of standing quietly behind her, but with her shoulder to shoulder, facing the unknown ups and downs.

The two hugged each other tightly and cried for a while. After the sadness in my heart faded, Xia Shutong still felt like laughing.

"Maomao." Xia Shutong backed away a little, and scratched Yun Feiwu's nose, "What's wrong with my current appearance? Don't you like it?"

"I..." Yun Feiwu was startled, and when he looked up to see the smile on Xia Shutong's face, the corners of his lips turned up unconsciously, "I like Ruanruan, but..."

It's just that she hopes that Xia Shutong can be happier and be able to be her true self, instead of wearing the mask that belongs to Mr. Xia in front of everyone. She didn't want Xia Shutong to put on a thick disguise because of herself.

After Yun Feiwu said what was in her heart, Xia Shutong couldn't help but pinched her cheek lightly: "Silly cat."

"Maomao, I actually...haven't pretended much." Xia Shutong sighed softly, "I remember it, I really don't fear other people anymore, I don't care about them anymore, I don't have feelings for any of them .Maomao, because I only care about you."

"But Ruanruan," Yun Feiwu looked directly into her eyes, "Do you like yourself now?"

Xia Shutong tilted her head, without hesitation: "I like it."

As long as Yun Feiwu is by her side, as long as Yun Feiwu likes her, she will like herself.

Yun Feiwu lowered his eyes and thought for a while, his expression was a little gloomy, but he didn't say anything in the end. Instead, Xia Shutong hugged her and shook her: "Maomao, shall I take you around the villa later?"

Yun Feiwu nodded.

While eating breakfast, the two met Mr. Xia again downstairs.

"grandfather."

"Grandpa Xia."

Xia Cha snorted lightly, and didn't look at them any more. For a while, Xia Shutong actually thought that Mr. Xia was a little cute.

After breakfast, Xia Shutong took Yun Feiwu and began to visit the whole mansion.

The first is the manor outside.

"When I first lived here, I would accompany my grandpa to take a walk in the pond every night. But at that time, I was really afraid of grandpa. Every time I followed him with my head down, and I didn't dare to be seen by him. Put on a cold face. Later, I was no longer afraid of him, but I spent less time going back to the old house."

"This path used to be the back garden, but grandpa didn't like to go there, it has been abandoned for a long time."

Then there is the house.

"This is a gym... although no one at home is using it. Xia Hongye often clamors to exercise, but every time she doesn't persist for a day or two, she will give up."

"This is Grandpa's study, but he should be in it now, so we won't go there."

"This is the piano room. When my mother was still there, she would take me here to watch her play the piano. She also wanted to teach me, but I really couldn't learn it, so she gave up."

"This is my study room. Even though the dormitory is downstairs, there is a lounge next to the study room. When I wrote to you before, I secretly hid in the closet of the lounge room and wrote with a flashlight. But receiving letters The address is at the post office in the city. When I lived with my mother in the city, it was more convenient to get letters. After moving here, I have to fight wits with my grandpa. But I am smarter. Find."

"Over there is Xia Hongye's game room. She obviously has a whole room full of game equipment, but she still likes to play games in the living room. It's very annoying."

"..."

"..."

When Xia Shutong spoke, his tone was always soft, with an upturned consonant, a bit mischievous. In those almond eyes, the smile is also real.

She's had a really long, hard time in the past, but she's gotten over it and doesn't care anymore. Now that the one she loves is by her side, she is very happy and happy, and every frown and smile of her is real.

Yun Feiwu looked at her, his eyebrows and eyes curved unconsciously.

In the past, she failed to grow up with Xia Ruan, and failed to watch Xia Ruan's transformation with her own eyes, but now, she has returned to Xia Shutong's side. Now that Xia Shutong has completely come out of the mud, why did she want to shackled herself back then?

There is no need for her to feel guilty about the past, there is only one thing she has to do, from now on, stay by Xia Shutong's side, and accompany her to bear all the storms she will encounter in the future.

"Ruanruan." When he walked to the balcony, Yun Feiwu grabbed Xia Shutong's hand and pulled her into his arms, "I will always, always be by your side in the future."

Xia Shutong glanced around the corner.

The girl she had squatted in the corner countless times, hoping to see her again, was here now, holding her and saying "forever" to her.

Immediately, a smile brighter than flowers bloomed in his eyes.

…

After living in the old house for two days, it was almost time for the two of them to return to the city.

Hua Zinan has sent over the complete script of "Track", and the production team is almost ready. Three days later, they set off for the set - deep in the mountains of Sichuan City.

After receiving the complete script, the two finally knew what Hanako Nan was referring to by the "elements of psychological suspense".

In the first half of the script of "Track", the urban girl Shu Jinyu is dissatisfied with her family's urging marriage, and resolutely goes to the mountains to teach. During this period, she accidentally meets the young widow Ke Yu and falls in love with her. However, in that era, same-sex emotions were not recognized by people, and the villagers pointed at them and regarded them as scourges. Even so, Shu Jinyu is determined to be with Ke Yu. It was also at this time that Shu Jinyu received a letter from her family, and saw in the letter that she was willing to support her no matter what, so Shu Jinyu made up her mind to tell her family about her relationship with Ke Yu. After her family accepted it, she went back to the village to take Ke Yu into the city.

And this part of the story seems to be just a cliché love story, but there are a lot of foreshadowings buried in it.

For example, do the villagers really hate Ke Yu for no reason? Why did Ke Yu die in the pigsty the night Ke Yu married her husband? Why is Ke Yu, a young and beautiful girl, willing to stay alone in the deep mountains and old forests, guarding the farm for so many years? Why did Ke Yu seem so delicate and timid, but when he met Shu Jinyu for the first time, he seduced her intentionally or unintentionally?

During the two days of resting in the old house, Xia Shutong discussed with Yun Feiwu whether Ke Yu might actually be a perverted and cold-blooded murderer who seemed weak, and her husband was also killed by her, so Only the villagers fear and reject her so much.

However, after actually watching the second half of the story, Xia Shutong discovered the element of psychological suspense in this movie. The focus is not on suspense, but on the word "psychology".

There is no **** or weird description in the whole story, and Ke Yu is not a murderer, nor has he even done any substantial bad things. However, her methods of deceiving and playing with Shu Jinyu, as well as her dark and twisted heart, are all frightening.

Ke Yu is not the weak dodder flower in Shu Jinyu's heart. In her long-dried heart, there lives a demon that everyone fears.

But as the time spent with the little angel Shu Jinyu got longer and longer, even Ke Yu didn't realize that a gorgeous flower bloomed unknowingly in her barren heart.

And when she finally realized her change and her love for Shu Jinyu, Shu Jinyu had been tricked back to the city by her family and forced to get engaged to someone else.

…

The final ending of "Track" is open-ended. The screenwriter did not specify the final ending of the two heroines, leaving enough room for the audience to imagine.

"Maomao, what do you think... what does this story want to express?" Xia Shutong asked lazily while lying in Yun Feiwu's arms after reading the script.

"A lot." Yun Feiwu thought in a low voice, "Lies, deceit, redemption, human nature, and implicit criticism of the social status quo back then..."

If it is done well, it will be a 100% award-winning masterpiece, but if it is not done well, it will become a fake and preaching film that is full of mysteries.

Yun Feiwu was obviously also worried about this.

Although Xia Shutong believed in Yun Feiwu's acting skills and Hua Zinan's director level, at this time, she inevitably had no confidence in herself. After all, Xia Shutong didn't come from a major, and he didn't even have any acting experience before. It took less than half an hour to think about making this movie.

During the audition, Xia Shutong's performance was not bad, but that was mainly because Yun Feiwu guided her well. If she really faced the camera...

Xia Shutong was a little unsteady.

"So soft..."

"Cat cat..."

After a moment of silence, the two spoke almost at the same time. After looking at each other, they said in unison: "You talk first?"

"Ruanruan first?" Yun Feiwu frowned.

"I thought, why don't you enroll in an acting class before you go to the set?" Xia Shutong said.

As soon as the words fell, she was hugged by Yun Feiwu, and her gray eyes were getting closer and closer to hers.

Xia Shutong bit her lip, and subconsciously wanted to close her eyes, when she heard Yun Feiwu's voice: "I'm also thinking about this question, but... You obviously have a ready-made actress in front of you, so why go to the class? "

Xia Shutong said weakly: "Of course there is nothing to say about Yun Yinghou's acting skills, but the students are afraid that they are too stupid to learn."

"You're not stupid." Yun Feiwu chuckled, "Ruan Ruan, when I was young, before I received systematic training, you were the one who taught me how to act."

Xia Shutong lowered her eyes slightly, she did have some vague impressions in her mind, but she still couldn't remember them clearly.

"Besides," Yun Feiwu sensed Xia Shutong's hesitation, scratched the tip of her nose, and said with a light smile, "It's only a few days, and you won't learn much even if you enroll in the class, why don't you let me teach you, Ruan Ruan , okay?"

The author has something to say: Mao Mao Ruan Ruan's feelings are somewhat deformed, and the next is the (sweet) correction period

The source of inspiration for the short story "Track": "Donkey Gets Water" and "Fingering Love". Although my sources of inspiration are generally more abstract qwq…