Chapter 125 - You must let go of Jean

Finland soon understood why her mother fell in love with her father and became very sad when Aleksis never returned. She felt heartbroken, and finally years later she died in sadness.

She placed her father's books and photographs on her chest and closed her eyes, trying her best to hold back her tears.

"Mom... now I'm content, Mom and Dad you are already united in heaven... It turns out that Dad did not leave us because he didn't love us anymore... he just couldn't come back home…"

Finland and Jean excused themselves shortly after. Finland felt unable to carry on a conversation and wanted to rest immediately. On the way home, the two were silent. They didn't exchange a single word. Jean knew that Finland was still shaken and did not want to disturb her mind.

"Thank you, Jean... Thank you..." After they arrived at the apartment, Finland hugged Jean for a while and hurried into her room. She was unable to say anything more. She really owed Jean so much.

She felt that she had only troubled Jean from the beginning and never added value in their friendship. In her heart she was ashamed of never giving anything to Jean, while the man had done so much for her...

[Caspar, I found my father...] Finland sent a picture of her father to Caspar after she entered her bedroom.

One minute later Caspar called Finland.

"Honey... what happened?" he asked worriedly.

Finland tried to sound tough, but Caspar knew she was crying.

"Jean found tracks of my father... apparently my father did not intend to leave us... He fell ill and died suddenly. He was buried in Colmar. That's why Jean invited me here."

"Wh... what? Jean was looking for information about your father?"

"That is correct..."

Caspar was silent for a long time.

"Why are you silent...?" Finland asked him.

Caspar sighed at the other end. His voice sounded bitter.

"I didn't know you wanted to find your father. If I had known, I would have gotten that information easily."

"There are things that you should understand without asking..." Finland said in a sad tone.

She recalled Jean's remark that Caspar should have been more understanding and provide things needed by Finland even if she did not ask. With his extraordinary access to information, it would have been very easy for Caspar to look for Finland's father and he could find information more quickly.

"You asked me not to track you..." Caspar said in his defense.

"Yeah, I don't want you to stalk me and be lazy, and not ask me directly about my situation and my feelings. But I hope you know me better and find out what I want. If you don't know, you can ask. But you also never asked me... You never asked who my favorite singer was, you never asked how I felt about my father, you never asked whether I wanted to look for him or not..." Finland cried. "Jean sent letters by post to everyone with the last name Makela in Finland, asking if anyone knew my father..."

Caspar took a deep breath. He did not like the way their conversation was going.

"What are you trying to say by saying all this?" he asked in an urgent voice.

"I cannot leave Jean, he is my only friend," Finland said stubbornly, "He is also my last family. My father is dead, now I have no one else..."

"I am your family..." said Caspar.

"You are indeed my husband, but you don't know me as well as Jean does. I can't leave him... I can't give him the memory potion. I don't want to part with Jean."

"Finland... I've been patient enough all this time!" Caspar suddenly raised his voice at Finland. "I have held back and looked the other way regarding your relationship with Jean. Even though your photos together were uploaded everywhere, I tried to ward off my jealousy and not bother you. But if you keep this up, I can also get angry."

Finland was surprised because, for the first time, Caspar yelled at her. All this time, Caspar had always treated her gently and never raised his voice against her.

"You know he is my best friend! He has done so much for me. He was there before you entered my life... Jean loves me, Caspar, but I chose you. You have no right to be jealous of him... I am married to you, not to him." Finland shook her head, "You have no right to yell at me like that."

"I'm sorry..." Caspar said quickly. "I didn't mean to yell at you. I made a mistake. I'm sorry."

Finland hung up the phone. She was very upset. At first, she wanted to tell Caspar about her father, because she wanted to share her sadness. But what Caspar had in mind was only jealousy because it was Jean who discovered Aleksis Makela and not him.

He was jealous because Jean knew Finland better than him, and now Finland didn't want to give Jean the memory potion anymore.

Of course, their relationship that had only been 6 months couldn't compare to Jean and Finland's 4.5-year friendship. But he still regretted not asking Finland much about her wishes and the things she liked...

Caspar tried to call Finland again many times, but Finland refused to talk to him. Finally, the man sent links to several entertainment website news that contained photographs of Finland and Jean together.

[I'm jealous because there is so much news about you guys. Even though I didn't track you down, it feels like I'm being presented with news about you two everywhere I look and I can't stand it anymore. Forgive me for being carried away. I will delete all this news from the internet.]

Finland read the gossip news and she understood why Caspar was cranky. But she was still angry because she was yelled at when she was feeling very sad. She thought that Caspar was not being empathetic with her situation.

Caspar was very sad when his parents died in the war, so he should have understood better how sad she was for finding out about her father's death. He should have focused on that, instead of acting all jealous like this…

Finland decided not to reply to Caspar's text because her heart was still very sad and she did not want them to continue fighting.