Chapter 168 - Faces Of Deaths

It was already four in the morning when Johanna woke up. It felt like she only closed her eyes the whole time. She felt tired although Connor didn't make love to her. On the other hand, Connor was sleeping peacefully. She slipped off from the bed and went to the bathroom. Her puppy followed her and sat down while watching her sit on the toilet bowl. She felt so tired right now. 

She then went to the sink and washed her face. Then, she left the room as her puppy followed. She realized that she had fallen asleep and it was a dream that made her tired. She saw the faces of the people she killed and she saw her poor puppy back when she was little. Her heart suddenly felt so tight at that moment. She exhaled slowly and stared at the electric kettle. It started boiling but she didn't move. It's also a good thing that it would automatically turn off. 

"Babe," A man's voice called and she turned around. "Why are you up early?" He asked and approached her. He quickly wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her cheeks. She didn't reply to his question so he asked another. "What do you want for breakfast? 

"I want to eat a lot. Just cook anything." 

"Okay." He grinned and gently rubbed her tummy. "What does my baby want?" He speaks gently while thinking of breakfast for his beloved Johanna and baby. "How about a pancake made with love?" He grinned and kissed her cheeks. 

"I'm fine with it." She grumbled and nudged him. 

He squeezed her in his arms a little bit and then, he went to the counter table to prepare their breakfast. Johanna poured the water on two mugs and she made his black coffee while she had warm water. She gave it to him and he gave her a big kiss. She didn't respond much as she sat on the barstool. She watched him prepare the pancake, bacon, eggs, and other things that he's going to make. 

While watching him, she had this thought in her head. Does she deserve to be with Connor? A man who could cook, clean the house, take care of the puppy… and someone who can raise a baby. Although he said many times that he loves her. But does she deserve it? 

After two hours, the breakfast was splendid. He makes a big breakfast in less than an hour and food for their puppy. She's satisfied with the big breakfast. She stretched out a little with him and he gave her lots of kisses telling her how much he loved her. It was an infinite love. But she doesn't deserve such love from him. 

The people she killed were still in her head. Although she did it for Keira, she still does not feel herself. It's her nature to kill people or any threats to them. 

"Wendy Charles is in the country, right?" She asked him while he's busy washing the dishes. 

"Yup," Connor answered with a nod. 

"I want to kill her right away." 

He stopped and shook his head in disapproval. He hated that he was always surprised by her in that way. 

"Babe, you are pregnant." He reminded her. 

"It doesn't matter." 

Connor sighed and put the dishes on the dryer. 

"Babe, if you kill her, her psychotic grandpa will come after you. And if you kill the grandpa, the rest of the psychotic clan will come after you. Don't you get it? You'll have a very thrilling life with lots of people after you. And how about our baby?" 

"I'm psychotic." She said monotonously. Connor laughed and approached her. 

"You are my psycho. I love you." He kissed her lips and she responded quickly. "Okay, let's get to work so I can fix a few things right before the weekend." 

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Keira dialed Agent Eagle's number. The number that was used to call her. He answered after a few rings and grumbled. 

"What?" 

"Hey, asshole! Where's Tracey?" She asked in a very punk attitude. 

"She's with me." 

"Uhuh, okay. I want to know her situation." 

"She's sleeping. Probably tired because I fuck her the whole night." 

Keira was a little surprised by how he casually cursed. 

"Okay… you didn't force her~~" 

"No. She's the one who proposed. So, boss. I'm gonna go and go back to sleep." 

"Yeah sure. Do you want me to send food or something?" 

"Nah, I'm fine." Then, the asshole just hung up. 

Keira sighed and glanced at the time. Johanna and Connor were thirty minutes early and it seemed like they were too busy with everything. She'll be very busy too. There's also another package that came with no name. So, when Connor opened it. It was photos of Wendy with Alessandro. And it was back in high school. She wasn't offended. She doesn't have time to nag on her husband about it. She just doesn't have the energy for it. 

"Do you need anything else?" Keira almost forgot that Violet was inside her office. 

"Oh, sorry." Keira chuckled. 

"I already sent the evidence to the forensic." 

"Thank you," Keira said as she reached her pen. "Vi," She called as Violet turned to her. "Uhm, I heard that you are searching for Hannah Grace. Victor's sister…" 

"Yeah, we already found her." 

Keira then shifted her eyes to her photo of Johanna with her in America. She's fourteen years old at that time. 

"Is there a way to help them to be together as a family?" She slowly reached the picture frame. "I know Jo doesn't have memories of it entirely. But, I also know that she might be already missing him." 

"I'll find a way," Violet said. "Also, at this moment. The Empire might already know that Hannah Grace is alive. They will do everything to kill her or control her." 

Keira smirked and shook her head. 

"No one can control her. She's a person of her own." 

"Let's just hope for that," Violet said and she reached the door to leave. 

She then turned her swivel chair where the two puppies are cuddled together while sleeping. She admired them so much. She just hoped that having a puppy and a baby would make Johanna live a normal life. 

Suddenly, the door opened and Harvey came out of the walk-in closet. 

"You know that it's hard for her to be normal." Harvey approached her and crossed his arms. 

"Harvey, you have done enough. I know that I need protection~~but Jo needs protection too." 

Harvey leaned on the desk. 

"Victor won't be the same," Harvey mumbled. "This drug that they had in their hands was the delta of Despair creation. Even the EPUA and Dragon Empire don't have a sample for it to cure." 

Keira sighed, feeling depressed. She doesn't know what to do to help. She's not a powerful woman like Andromeda. 

"But there's always someone who would try to cure him." Harvey looked at the door. 

"If she succeeded. Then, everything will be fine?" She asked hopefully.

"It won't be fine as long as the Charles Empire has Alessandro for that brat's possession." Harvey exhaled slowly. "I'll work with the database and check on my baby." 

She nodded. 

"You should make it up more with MJ. Soon, you'll have a baby too." 

Harvey nodded and kissed her forehead. 

"The two know what to do, okay? Connor is also here." 

"Don't worry about me." 

Harvey left and soon, Johanna entered who looked pale. She delivered the documents to her. Instead of going straight to business. Keira takes her to the sofa to relax. 

"You look pale," Keira said and leaned on the sofa. "What happened?" 

"It's probably because of sleep." 

"Okay," Keira reached her hand and squeezed it gently. Johanna relaxes as she thinks of that dream that was marked in her memory. "Tell me," Keira said softly. 

"I felt like I was awake the whole night as I faced the deaths…" 

"Hmm?" 

"The people that I killed. That also includes my little Benny. He's a pit bull, like those two." Johanna glanced at the puppies huddled together. "He's like four months old." Her lips suddenly wobbled as tears quickly rolled down her cheeks. "I killed him. I slit his throat…" 

Keira's heart felt like it shattered seeing how scared she was. Although she's a killing machine, she still has empathy. She was once a little innocent girl. Her innocence was taken to her forcefully. 

"I see him in my dreams too…" She started sobbing and all Keira could do was to hug her tightly and kiss her forehead. 

Seeing how Johanna breaks also made her break instantly. 

"You were forced and left nothing, Jo. You are different now. No one would force you to kill again. Even Harvey…" 

"I don't mind killing for this family, Keira." Johanna sniffled. "We are family and that's what I should do." 

"No." Keira sighed and shook her head. "Mom, don't want you to do such a thing. I don't want you to do such a brutal thing." 

"But, I couldn't just sit still and let them murder you." 

"Jo," Keira squeezed both of her hands. "Please be selfish even a little. Think of your baby and how it'll affect your baby. I know that Connor loves you and won't hurt you. And you make him worried because of your goal. I am fine. I have Harvey and his team to protect me. You make me worried too, Jo."