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Shen Nian, Shen Nian... Yu Meng didn't want to hear this name at all.

As for Tan Yubai, who was hung up, he sat on a chair in the hospital corridor and lowered his head.

Tan Yubai stared at the phone screen, his heart felt like it was being punched by a fist, it was stuffy and in pain.

What should he say? The moment he saw Yu Meng, he heaved a sigh of relief, but it was also filled with anger.

He wanted to scold her for being so ignorant.

However, he couldn't bear to look at her face.

Thinking about that, someone suddenly patted on Tan Yubai's shoulder.

"Mister."

Tan Yubai raised his head, "Doctor Zhao."

Zhao Sheng was Shen Nian's main doctor.

"Let me talk to you about Miss Shen. Come with me to the office. "

"Alright."

Inside the quiet and tidy office, Tan Yubai's face was heavy.

"Is there really no other way?"

The doctor adjusted the frame of his eyes, sighed, and shook his head.

"The possibility of Miss Shen being shot in the spine and being able to stand up again is close to zero."

Tan Yubai did not say anything, but held the report in his hands tightly as he crumpled the pure white piece of paper into a ball.

"Mr. Tan, you should be thinking like this. When Miss Shen was sent to the hospital, she had already lost too much blood and fell into a deep coma. Now that she can wake up and take back her life, it can be said that she is extremely fortunate."

Tan Yubai nodded and stood up to leave.

If not for Shen Nian blocking this bullet for him, he probably wouldn't have woken up a long time ago. When Shen Nian was sent to the local hospital in Sri Lanka, his breathing was so weak that he almost couldn't feel it. The local hospital could only temporarily stabilize the condition of the injuries, but there was no way to do more.

She had fainted because of excessive blood loss. Just yesterday, when he met Yu Meng, Shen Nian woke up.

When the doctor called to ask him to come back, he could only leave his angry dreams behind and head back to the hospital.

Today, he received another notification from the doctor saying that Shen Nian was in a very bad condition. She would not be able to leave the wheelchair for the rest of her life.

All of this was just like how he had calculated earlier and wanted him and the woman he loved to go further and further away from him.

If Shen Nian really lost his ability to move, how could he abandon her?

After all, it was in order to save him that Shen Nian had become like this.

Thinking of this, Tan Yubai's heart ached.

In the sickroom, Shen Nian lied on the bed alone.

Tan Yubai walked in and quietly sat on the side of her bed.

He looked at her with his pale face and closed his eyes, adding a little more indifference to this woman who hadn't lived for days.

He couldn't help but sigh. It was hard to imagine that the woman lying on the bed at this moment had once been so high-spirited and proud of herself.

Shen Nian slowly opened her eyes, there was no trace of body shape in her eyes, it was as though her entire body was releasing her indifference.

"Did I wake you?" Tan Yubai asked softly.

Shen Nian shook her head and spoke in a hoarse voice.

"I can't sleep."

"Is there something wrong?"

"Tan Yubai." Shen Nian looked up at him. "Why can't I feel my legs today?" Her other hand, which had no infusion, reached into the blanket and grabbed her legs, which clearly existed, but she could not feel anything at all. "She's obviously still here, so why can't I feel anything?"

When she woke up yesterday, she couldn't feel the lower half of her body anymore. However, Tan Yubai only comforted her by saying that it was because the effects of the anesthetic had yet to pass, causing her body to lose all sense.

But now …

It was already the second day, so this explanation was probably unjustifiable.

Tan Yubai sighed, he knew that he could not hide it, but he did not know how to answer.

It was better for a soldier to die gloriously on the battlefield than to live with his last breath in the human world. It was because Tan Yubai was well aware of this principle that he could not bear to speak of it.

Shen Nian was always strong, in the trajectory of her life, the number of times she lost could be counted on one hand, and almost all of the time she won. Such a strong woman, she was told that she would never be able to move freely for the rest of her life.

Tan Yubai's heart felt as though it was being twisted by a knife, but Shen Nian merely looked at him indifferently.

"I can't stand up anymore, can I?" She tried to look calm, but her breathing quickened.

"I'll be a cripple in the future, won't I?"

"Shen Nian." Tan Yubai could not bear to listen any longer, and shouted her name harshly. "Don't be like this."

"Then what do you want me to do?" Shen Nian looked at Tan Yubai. She seemed to have been trying hard to accept this, but her rationality had been defeated time and again, by the despair and helplessness in her heart. She had endured for too long, but at this moment, she didn't want to endure any longer.

"You want me to be strong, brave and positive and continue to live? Or do I have to find out what's good in the world? Impossible, I can't do it with Tan Yubai, you can just let me die, okay, I beg you, let me die, once it finishes, I won't suffer anymore, you don't have to be responsible for me either. "

Shen Nian was extremely serious with every word she said. She did not cry out loud nor did she cry out loud.

When she told him to let her die, it was not because she was trying to win heartache, but because she truly wanted to die.

It was precisely because of this that Tan Yubai felt even worse.

"Don't even think about it." He told her, "I won't let anything happen to you."

"I am a burden to you if I am to live." Shen Nian said. She was extremely clear-headed and was the clearest in the past few days. "If I die, it would be good for both you and me."

"If you die, it will become a mistake that I will never be able to make up for in my entire life." Tan Yubai told Shen Nian one word at a time, "I will accompany you until you find a way to stand up."

Shen Nian looked at him and asked, "What if we can't find it forever?"

Tan Yubai was startled, he could not answer.

Shen Nian could not help but sneer. Her heart was clear as a mirror, the so called words of responsibility, once mentioned for eternity, would become a joke.

"You can't stay by my side all your life." Shen Nian said, "You still have a dream."

"Shen Nian, I said that I will take responsibility for you, so I will take responsibility until the end." Tan Yubai got up and tucked her in: "Don't think too much about it, rest well."

"I'm going out for a smoke." Tan Yubai stood up and walked out alone.

Shen Nian watched his back, his heart going back and forth a hundred times.

If it was said that she saved him out of instinct, then now that she luckily survived, it was probably due to her heart being unwilling to part with this man.

She knew clearly that Tan Yubai did not have her own thoughts, every single cell in his body seemed to be alive for the afterlife. She had no status, even if one day he really stayed by her side and took care of her handicap, what was the use of not having his heart with her? That would only make her feel even more pitiful.

Shen Nian was afraid that she would become like that, afraid that she would gradually fall into love, that she would become the type of person that she despised the most, that she would become the kind of lamentable person who would sacrifice everything for her lover.

Shen Nian was afraid, but was truly unwilling to let go.

If she was given the chance to repeat herself, even if she was beaten to death, she would never meet Tan Yubai. She would rather be killed by Lu Youhuai than to get to know him.

Love wasn't something that a person like her could control.

And she hated people who were controlled by outsiders.

This relationship had unwittingly sprouted, taking root amidst rejection, growing into a towering tree amidst her doubts and negation.

In the end, he would be above Shen Nian.

In the smoking room of the hospital, Tan Yubai propped himself up on the windowsill. A ring of smoke came out of his mouth and vanished into the air.

He looked at his phone's WeChat message and Yu Meng's chat logs.

It had been a long time.

He had never liked this kind of social media, but had left a message on WeChat because Yu Meng loved to take photos and share them.

He never deletes his conversations with her.

Occasionally, when he was alone, he would take it out and rummage through it.

As he flipped through the book, he felt much better.

Tan Yubai opened Yu Meng's Wechat Moment. The newest photo was also from a long time ago, it was from a company that was in the middle of the night.

Tan Yubai could almost imagine the expression on her face when she said that.

A little complaint with a little shamelessness.

Tan Yubai continued to scroll down, all of his friends' circles were filled with unspoken thoughts from Yu Meng.

She took a picture. It was a vase that Tan Yubai liked a lot in the past. Small and delicate, Yu Meng used the old filter to take out a different style.

She wrote: "There is love from the beginning of time in this world, but there is also love for people who have been displaced."

Tan Yubai felt sour in his heart as he continued to read.

It had probably been a long time since he last looked at her Wechat Moment. When he was in Sri Lanka, he never brought his phone with him.

One by one, they seemed to pull him into the same state as Yu Meng.

Her condition when he left.

He saw her write: "I never thought of imprisoning him. I just wanted to be quietly by his side, but the wind of fate, ah, why do you always have to take him away?"

And she wrote: "I suddenly remember that when you were angry, there was a fire in your eyes."

There were many, many more, and every word was filled with longing for him.

Tan Yubai felt as though his heart was being held by someone, and it was hard for him to breathe, he was suffocating.

That silly girl, no matter how much time had passed, she seemed unable to improve.

He would never give her up. Never.

Tan Yubai thought.