Chapter 90

Listening to his voice, I felt a pain somewhere in my heart. It was he, the man in front of me, who made my life worse and made me lose my children. If everything can start over, I would rather not know him.

In that way, I am still a heartless wine girl in the nightclub, earning money without shame with my youth to maintain a hard life. Now, this difficult to maintain the difficulties are gone! For the sake of my children, I am happy every moment.

My heart is full of anger, trying to push him away, but in exchange for his neurotic embrace. His tears came down to my shoulder, cold and smooth.

"Leyi, please, let yourself go, OK?" His voice was vague and hoarse.

I want to open my mouth and tell him, that's it, that's the end of it. We will never be the same people in the world, please turn back to our own track.

"Leyi, you know I can't bear to leave you for a minute, but... If you hate me, just beat me and vent your anger, OK?" He repeated these words in my ear.

All of a sudden, I find this kind of dialogue childish and ridiculous. Is it useful for me to hit you? Can I take it back a few months? Can I avoid meeting Chu Yi? Can this be avoided?

When he suddenly disappeared, my sleepless thoughts, my bewilderment, my restlessness... All the cares and warm lingering in a moment suddenly disappeared.

I suddenly became calm, tears in my eyes slowly back, and finally summoned up the courage to firmly push away he Liancheng's arm.

Because I've tasted love, knew it was poison, and I don't want to try again.

He looked at me with calm eyes. There was fear and tension in his eyes.

I calmly rummaged at the head of the bed and finally found two dirty blank death notices and a bald pencil.

I wrote on the paper: "he Liancheng, just leave. You return to your world and I live my life."

"I don't agree, you can't be so cruel to me..." he grabbed the paper from my hand, tore it up, and yelled with red eyes.

I dropped my eyes and no longer looked at him. He held my face and forced me to look at him. Word by word, he said, "I got off the plane and found you the first time. It's not to listen to you. I won't give up. I won't allow you to say it to me like this." His eyes are sad, thick enough to drown me, if a few days ago, I saw him so straightforward eyes, I'm afraid I would immediately forgive him, and then sink into his boundless tenderness.

I didn't speak and looked at him coldly.

"I don't know what happened, but you have to believe that no matter what happens, I will stand with you, solve and face it." He said with red eyes, with a firmness never seen before.

His words stabbed me in the heart like a knife. I suddenly blew my hair and yelled at him like a pantomime: "did one of your promises do it? What are you doing when the child is robbed by Chu Yi?! You say that you are my support. I can't find anyone. How can I rely on you? "

He looked at my mouth, frowned and loosened, and said, "I miss you every day, every minute. You are heavier and heavier. You feel how heavy it is." He took my hand and put it on his heart.

I didn't answer him. I pulled my hand back. "I had no phone, no card, no money, no passport, and I was left in a hospital," he continued. All I can do every day is to miss you, what's wrong with you, and what's wrong with the lawsuit. I've never forgotten my promise to you for a moment. I will come back, my child. You are so decadent and crazy. Is it helpful? I'll get the kids back, you believe me. "

He then stood up from my bed, I found that he was wearing a T-shirt, a pair of jeans, there are a lot of stains on it, not a bit of attention in the past.

I looked at him numbly, neither sad nor happy.

Although I don't want to admit it in my heart, I have to admit it. He Liancheng's embrace and appeasement and apology calmed me down from my madness and made me look at myself and him more calmly.

He is right. If I give up like this, lose my mind, be disappointed and depressed, and abandon my life, the child will never come back.

Then he turned around and went out. I heard him and Liu Tian talking in a low voice outside. Then the voice became lower and lower. In the middle, he Liancheng cursed "Damn it!" And then there was no sound.

Over the past few days, I have been in a state of high mental tension and serious excitement at every moment. After calming down, listening to the quiet ward came out a slight and regular sound of the instrument, unconsciously fell asleep.

Half asleep and half awake, I vaguely heard Liu Tian say: "thank you for letting her relax and really fall asleep.""I should thank you for taking care of her for me these days." He Liancheng cold voice way, finish saying immediately hissed a, then all around silent go down.

I don't know how long I've been sleeping. I just feel that my body is floating in the boundless darkness and there are some lights in the place where I can see. I want to walk past, but how hard can not get close to the light, I lost in the dark. Suddenly, my feet empty, such as falling off a cliff, and then a cold sweat, ah, I wake up.

"Leyi, don't be afraid. I'm here." Gentle voice sounded, someone with his hand to help me wipe the sweat on my forehead.

I opened my eyes and saw he Liancheng's worried eyes. He looked at me anxiously and said, "you have a nightmare." Then he patted me on the back and said gently, "don't be afraid, don't be afraid."

I turned away and stopped looking at him. He was silent for a moment, handed over a glass of hot water and said, "drink some water, your lips are cracked."

I don't pay attention to it. My heart is full of boundless darkness in my dream. When I think of my own situation, I just feel that my heart is cool.

"Only by taking good care of myself can I apply for retrial. This time, I will try my best to keep my child by your side." He Liancheng said something I care about.

"Apply for retrial?" I have no choice but to smile bitterly. It's impossible to reconsider again. If the first and second instance are overturned, it means that there is something fishy in the first and second instance. It's too difficult to do.

"You believe me, I have evidence in my hand, which is good for you and can make you win the lawsuit, but I left suddenly and didn't give it to you in time." He Liancheng turned to me and said.

My gray heart slowly has a little hope, but I can't believe that hope comes so fast, it suddenly makes me feel dim.

He looked me in the eye and said, "trust me."

I stare at his eyes, want to believe and can't believe, I'm afraid of hope after the disappointment, such repeated feelings almost torture me crazy.

"Trust me." He repeated it in a firm voice.

I still don't speak, but feel the breath of heart pressure slowly loose.

"If you still don't believe it, take good care of yourself. I'll prove it to you." He Liancheng showed a helpless expression, reluctantly pulled up the corner of his mouth and laughed.

I stayed in the hospital for four days, not sad or happy, but slowly calmed down. When I was discharged on Friday, he Liancheng asked me: "go to the kindergarten to pick up the children?"

I nodded, he went to go through the discharge procedures, early took me to the kindergarten gate.

I have another pick-up card for Beihai kindergarten. As soon as I entered, I saw my teacher last time. She said hello to me and said, "come so early today?"

"Yes, the two babies always wanted their mother to be the first to pick them up." He Liancheng answered for me. Seeing the teacher looking at me, he immediately explained, "her voice is broken. She can't speak these days."

The teacher gave a clear smile and went back to the classroom to ask the child to come out.

It was my lawyer who tried hard to get my child to attend Beihai kindergarten when I was defeated like a mountain. Chu Yi has got the child, but he doesn't continue to struggle about the details.

Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong rushed out. Before they ran to me, their eyes turned red.

I squatted down and held the child tightly in my arms, like a lost treasure. He Liancheng looked at it on one side, bent down and said, "come on, I can hold one, but my mother can't hold two."

Tong Tong clings to my neck. Yuan Yuan looks at me and he Liancheng and whispers, "Mom, I miss you. I don't want father he to hold you."

Tears suddenly burst out of my eyes. Yuanyuan has always been a precocious and sensible child. He never said such a child's words in front of me. I tried my best to press the collapsing emotion and said, "don't be afraid, mom has strength."

So he held one in one hand and went outside. He Liancheng held me for fear that one of them would fall down.

During this period of time, my physical strength is really a little weak. When I walk out of the door holding them, I feel that my arms are too sore to hold them.

"Yuanyuan, father he." He Liancheng held out his hand and said, "I'll be in the car soon. If my mother is tired, how can I play with you?"

Yuan Yuan hesitated to look at me, I whispered: "mother tired not bad, mother hold."

He Liancheng reluctantly went to open the door, when a white Toyota nanny car came and stopped beside us. I recognize the car, which robbed the child from my house a few days ago.

When the car door opened, Chu Yi came out from the inside. He saw me in a daze, frowned and said, "don't you promise to accompany your children on Saturday? It's only Friday. "

Before I spoke, Yuan Yuan held my neck tightly. Chu Yi came up to the child and held out his hand. "Tong Tong, go home with Dad," he saidTong Tong raised his face and said with tears in his eyes, "I won't go. I want my mother. I'm not going... "

"Dad bought a lot of new toys. How about going back to play with them?" Chu Yi ignored my iron face and teased the child in front of me.

"Chu Yi, are you blind? Don't you see the child holding his mother and refusing to let go? " He Liancheng pushes Chu Yi away.

"It's my family business..."

"Don't disgust me with that! It's family business! It's been three years since the divorce. What qualifications do you have to say it's family business? " He Liancheng pushed Chu Yi forward a few steps, and I quickly got on the car with my child in my arms.

After closing the car door, the two babies looked out anxiously. After a while, they saw he Liancheng and Chu Yi coming to the car together. Tong Tong's mouth burst into tears and said, "Mom, I don't want to go back to that house. I want to be with mom."

"No, mom, I promise you won't have to go there today." I put my arms around them, choking and almost speechless.

I know Chu Yi doesn't abuse children, but for a three-year-old, he needs familiar people, familiar taste and familiar environment.

I haven't changed houses since they were born. Although I only accompany them for two days a week, I also support my children in the most difficult time. This kind of feeling can not be replaced by anyone, nor can it be replaced by any material