Chapter 33: The attraction I felt was purely physical

After finishing my lunch, I found myself with a rare momt of free time and no particular duties to attd to. The palace was vast and filled with possibilities, but I felt drawn back to the solitude of my chambers.

Perhaps it was the lingering fatigue from the intse self-defse training, or maybe it was the need for a quiet space to gather my thoughts.

Wh I tered my room, I noticed the book I had chos from the library the previous day, "Bound by Fate," sitting invitingly on the table. The ornate cover depicted a pair of twined hands sured by a halo of light, hinting at the romantic and mystical themes within. I picked it up and settled onto the chaise lounge by the window, ready to lose myself in its pages.

It's surely going to be a bit clichée but I can't know without trying.

The story began with a young woman named Aeliana, who was forced into a contracted marriage with a mysterious and brooding nobleman, Lord Caelum. From the start, the narrative was rich with tsion and unspok desires, their relationship marked by a bld of resistance and undiable attraction. As I read, I couldn't help but roll my eyes at the predictability of it all.

Aeliana quickly fell hopelessly in love with Lord Caelum, her initial restmt giving way to passionate longing. The book was filled with elaborate descriptions of their intimate momts, each counter more heated than the last. Despite the cliché, I found myself grossed, the vivid imagery pulling me deeper into their world.

Yet, I couldn't ignore a nagging thought at the back of my mind: I wasn't like Aeliana. While Seraphina and I shared momts of physical connection, I was far from being in love with her.

The attraction I felt was purely physical, driv by the intse and electrifying ergy betwe us. I liked the pleasure she gave me, the way she made my body respond, but emotionally, there was still a chasm betwe us.

As I turned the pages, I felt a mixture of vy and relief. Envy because Aeliana's passionate romance was something I had never expericed, and relief because I was spared the turmoil of being hopelessly in love with someone who might never reciprocate those feelings.

My relationship with Seraphina was complex, built on necessity and physical desire rather than emotional intimacy.

I read on, the hours slipping by unnoticed. The story's climax approached, filled with dramatic declarations of love and a final, breathtaking union betwe Aeliana and Caelum. As much as I wanted to dismiss it as pure fantasy, a part of me couldn't help but wonder if I would ever find such a connection, ev if it wasn't with Seraphina.

The physical connection we shared was intse and consuming, leaving me breathless and wanting more. But I couldn't ignore the cold distance she oft maintained, a barrier that seemed insurmountable.

As I read on, the explicit sces in the book reminded me of my own experices with Seraphina. The touches, the kisses, the way she knew exactly how to make my body respond—these were all vivid in my mind.

But unlike Aeliana, my attraction to Seraphina was strictly physical. There was no emotional bond, no declarations of love. It was raw, primal, and undiably thrilling, but it lacked the deeper connection that Aeliana found with Caelum.

Lost in thought, I nearly missed the sound of Anara's voice. "Que Elara, I believe it's time for your shower," she said gtly, her eyes twinkling with amusemt as she noticed the book still clutched in my hands.

I sighed, marking my place in the book and setting it aside. "Of course, Anara. Thank you."

She led me to the bathroom, where the water was already running, steam filling the room. I stepped under the warm spray, letting it wash away the lingering fatigue from the morning's activities. As the water cascaded over me, I couldn't help but replay the evts of the past days in my mind.

My training with Nyx, the intse momts with Seraphina, the constant struggle to find my place in this new world—it was all so overwhelming.

After my shower, Anara helped me dress once more, this time in a more casual yet elegant gown of deep burgundy. The fabric was soft and comfortable, allowing me to move freely while still looking prestable. My hair was braided back, keeping it out of my face.

"Shall we head to the library again?" Anara asked, her tone respectful but curious.

I hesitated for a momt, th nodded. "Yes, If I can found another romance book it could be great."

Maybe I was a beat exited to read more.