Chapter 89 - I love you

"Don't touch me!!" her voice roared in angst, traces of tears can be seen on her porcelain skin. 

"Do not make this any harder for all of us, dear" her biological mother replied as she once again gets pulled over by Astrid and Esmeralda. 

"I'm disgusted by you."

Celestia blurts out.

"How can you call yourself a mother?!" she asked, full of spite. Her words wanting to hurt a person as a dagger does. 

Esmeralda did not respond and continued holding Celestia in arms. There's no use explaining things to a dying person for it will not change anything. Celestia learned many secrets tonight and it's enough to compensate for the things she will never know.

Entering the emperor's chamber masked in gold carvings of intricate designs, anyone who will enter will be amazed at how the room screams great wealth and power.

The ceiling is exceedingly high and is made of sturdy glass that shows the night sky. At day time, it has a remote on which it covers it with an equally breathtaking roof. The carpeted floor with an engraved symbol of a phoenix partnered some of the furniture in color red. Enormous bookshelves were also in the room.

It's supposed to be a romantic scenery, where one can see the stars outside while holding hands with the one you love. However, on this occasion, there were no stars because it is raining, very hard.

"Your Majesty," the two, Astrid and Esmeralda, said simultaneously bowing their heads slightly while not letting Celestia go. 

A tall figure stood up, putting the book he is reading on a glass table. His stature is perfect as he walks down magnificently towards them. In the emperor's chamber, there is only one chair in the middle of the room, the empress has no room in this grand place.

His cold hands grab Celestia's right arm. As their skin collided, something inside him stirred, a feeling that he should not have. 

"I'll be taking her from here, you may go now" he commanded in his gravelly voice. 

The two followed, slowly letting go of Celestia. 

"Goodbye sister" Astrid's softly spoken voice rang as she bids Celestia farewell. This will be the last time she will be seeing her, the twin she never wanted. 

"I'm sorry Celestia," was what all Esmeralda can say. 

'I'm sorry for you had done nothing wrong yet you are paying for what Ekon did'

'This is his retribution' 

The footsteps of Astrid and Esmeralda faded away as the metallic door creaks as it closed automatically, locking only Logan and her inside.

Logan lets go of her wrist.

Silence occupied them for a few seconds, the sound of rain lingered the whole room. It is indeed, cold that night. Celestia wraps herself in an embrace, her hands on her shoulders hoping that it would cozy her for a bit. 

She looks up at the tall figure of the man she loves, she continually loves. Her heart in turmoil as each second goes by. 

"Will you explain what happened?" she broke the stillness around them. 

"I have nothing to say" his cold voice replied as he continues to arrange the injection meant for the woman behind him. 

This is the true him, the true Logan, a mad scientist, a genius in the field of science. It's his passion, it's who he is. 

This medicine is the same as the one he had before, the one that can remove memories. However, for Celestia, she will never remember who she was, everything from the moment of birth, she will remember nothing. 

This will be Logan's parting gift for her.

A warm embraced enveloped Logans, delicate hands wrapped around his hips giving him the warmth he does not want. His hands automatically stopped what it's doing, the syringe almost fell from shock but he gripped it tighter. 

This scene seems familiar.

Ah, yes, it's what Celestia always does, enclosing him using her petite figure, back hugging him either to stop him from leaving or to surprise him early in the morning. 

"You are the emperor, right? Then why are you doing this to me? To us?" her voice, brittle as she questions him. His coat muffled the sound of her voice. 

"Why should I not do this?" he asked. 

There is no reason for him to fight for Celestia, after all, what benefit should he get from this? 

He remembers how they were...how he was. 

"H-hubby" she cried harder, Celestia thought she can no longer cry but guess what? Her tears seem to be infinite when it comes to Logan. Her hands gripped his clothes. 

"Call me that one more time and I will slit your throat," he said with no hint of humor. Not only he is an emperor, he too also rules the underground business. He can take away anyone's life with his own hands.

This line made Celestia's knees wobble...

What is this feeling? 

Fear?

Sadness?

or

Remorse?

'You need not to slit me in the throat to cause me pain' 

'Using only your words Logan, you already killed me hundreds of times'

"Stay still," the emperor said as the large injection went on Celestia's arm. She did not even notice that she's already seated on one of the glass chairs and is being injected by him, by Logan...by Adam. 

This is the same man who promised to protect her, to cherish her, and to love her. 

"I guess, promises are meant to be broken" she smiled, forcefully.

'Until the end Logan I wish for you to see me smiling for the next time we meet, I will not even glance at you.'

CELESTIA'S POINT OF VIEW

When I was with Adam, I fought hard, I know our time is limited back then for he doesn't know who he was, I know back then, he needed to return to where he came from.

His words seem to echo in my mind.

( Flashback )

"What about me? What if you forget me?" Celestia said while pouting. 

'Would you look for me?'

Adam gazed at her face, even more, his eyes piercing through her soul, "How could I forget the one person who completed me?"

Their eyes on each other as their hearts beat on the same rhythm.

"We do not know what will happen, just in case that you' ll have another memory loss, promise me that once you remembered everything, you'll search for me"

Celestia knows it is ridiculous to make a promise that he too, can also forget but she still did it anyway so that when his memories came back, he will remember this day, the day he promised her.

Adam smiled at Celestia, imitating her and raising his pinky. Their couple ring reflects as the few lights pass through it, the engraved letters, Adam and Eve...

(End of flashback)

I wanted to shout my frustrations but I can't, my body is too numb to move... I'm drowning away.

It's too unfair to be the only one who's remembering everything.

Logan if only you knew.

My eyes went blurry and your sinfully handsome face is my last memory. 

All I wish is that you take care of our children, Aiden and Eden...the proof that once, we did really love each other unconditionally.

That once in this lifetime, you get to be mine... 

"I love you"  were my last words.