Chapter 107 - Feel again

"Let me down!!!" Helen cried harder, giving Adam a few punches as he carried her down like a sack.

Why do this Adam always linger around her?!

The cold air welcomed Helen as they ascend on the rooftop. She is only covering her body with the bed sheet for Pete's sake! Also, Hannibal…

Logan went inside the Helicopter, closing the door to warm the woman beside him. A scowl can be seen on her pretty face.

"Theavarian empire, now" he said to the pilot before using the remote to close their part and to provide them both the privacy they needed.

Logan did not even bother to wait for his bodyguards to come in, there are other helicopters in there, they can use it.

"Use my coat" he commanded to the stubborn woman but she just looked at it with her arms crossed.

"This is kidnapping, better be dead right now than be dragged by you recklessly" she said not minding a word that comes out in her mouth.

Speaking this way to an emperor is a blatant way of disrespect that can cause someone his life…but this rule does not apply for Celestia.

Logan kept silent for a while, an awkward situation they are in.

Heaving a long sigh, he said, "I will make sure that Hannibal is properly taken care of, will you just please, listen to me?" he said as if he already exhausted from life.

On the other hand, what he said brightened Helen's face, she did what Logan commanded, getting the fur coat and surrounding it on her body.

Logan had a very tiring day, he hasn't slept for the past few days, trying to make sure the reversing drug will be 100% ready for use. He rested his head on the cushioned seat of the helicopter, with Celestia's presence by his side, he can feel his body calming down.

"Tell me Adam, why did you abduct me?" she asked persistently, well, even though she feels comfortable around the man, she can't help but doubt his intentions…he is a man after all.

"Hm, because you're mine" he said while his eyes are half-closed. Now, his anger vanishes into thin air as his eyes started to get cloudy.

"When did I become yours?" Helen can't help but raise an eyebrow on the man, what he's saying is ludicrous! Although it made her heart pound a little.

'Traitor heart! You must only beat for your lover'

Under deep breaths, Logan replied, "The moment I laid my eyes on you in that forest, I knew you are meant to be by my side" he said, trying to fight his sleep off.

"You are my missing piece, Celestia, in your hands, my heart lies" he muttered, now completely asleep and for the first time in his whole 26 years of existence, Logan Daxon Ruwedor Fergus is dreaming…only that, in his dream, he is still punching Hannibal's face.

Sensing that the man beside her fell asleep, Helen's heart warmed up a little bit.

"This man…a woman who is completely undressed is sitting right beside him yet he chose to sleep instead" she said, chuckling a little bit. She gently grabs his head, carefully putting Adam's weight on her lap. Her hand landing on his smooth jet-black hair, gliding it smoothly.

Her mind wandered elsewhere…before, she's uncertain if she wants to remember again, now, after witnessing everything, she's so sure, she wants to meet her past self, Celestia.

If ever…that what Adam said is true, that she's his missing piece, she doesn't know if she should celebrate for a dashing man like him loved her deeply before or should she antagonize for the love she has now has a big tendency of breaking.

"What will you choose Celestia?" she asked as she too, has fallen asleep.

It was still dark when her eyes fluttered slowly, the weight on her lap is now gone! After adjusting her vision in the darkness, she managed to see the figure of a man.

"Adam" she said softly, the lights inside the helicopter is turned off but she noticed they were no longer flying. Also, her head has been leaning on the emperor's shoulder, leaving some drools on his luxurious suit.

Her face instantly went red upon feeling the wetness dripping from her mouth, good thing the lights were turned off.

"Good morning my lovely queen," his voice a little bit hoarse as he speaks.

'Will you still call me a queen if you realized my saliva is all on your suit hihihi' she can't help but feel giddy first thing after waking up.

Although now, Adam is less scary than the night before…

With him by her side made her feel so light, so happy more than when she's with Hannibal.

'Why is am I feeling this?' she asks herself, slightly getting teary eyed all of the sudden. She ignored everything up until now, but being naïve really doesn't suit her.

"Why are you silent?" the emperor curiously asked through the dark, all he can hear is light sniffles.

"I-I'm a bad person" she replied and Logan kept his mouth shut, urging Celestia to go on.

"My system screams from too much joy when I saw you the first time and even n-now, I'm glad you took me away from Hannibal"

Helen said everything truthfully, accepting her forbidden feelings, things that she shouldn't feel for a stranger yet she can't help it.

When Adam saved her from the group of men who are ogling at her, that's when her mind and heart started to go in chaos, her mind being the rational one, says that Hannibal is the person who's always been there for her while her heart who's easily swayed fought her mind by beating tremendously for a man she shouldn't fall in love with.

With Hannibal, all she felt was the need for his presence because he's the only one whom she knew in this place, in this world. Helen thought it was love…but then, this man comes out of nowhere and wreaks havoc in her perfectly supple world.

Adam is an inextinguishable fire, spreading flames all around her system, devouring her whole while Hannibal is a calm water, static and never changing.  Between fire and water, Helen would rather be burnt in the flames with him than live a life drowning on the same old routine.

"He was a good guy, that Hannibal" Logan said while breathing heavily, reminiscing the days when they were younger "And I'm a bad man Helen…" he admitted.

After seeing the two of them together, sure, Logan went livid but now that he can think, he decided to give her a choice, to stay or to leave.

"The woman, Helen, belongs to Hannibal…while Celestia, she's mine" he speaks warmly, gently, as if speaking to himself rather than the woman.

"If you want…you can stay as Helen all your days in this lifetime, I will not interfere anymore" he said although his heart is already squeezing from too much pain it's feeling.

'What a wonderful thing it is, to be able to feel again'

At that moment he realized the why so many people chose to be in love even when they knew it will hurt them…it's the pain that makes everything worth it, it's pain that makes one stronger.