Shi Yanyu was speechless for a while before he finally spoke up, “Are you sure you want to say this to him?”
Qin Zhongyue covered his phone, “Don’t peek.”Shi Yanyu took a few deep breaths and said, “Hurry and withdraw that message. If you send that out, your wife will be even more angry.”Qin Zhongyue who heard this became afraid. He immediately withdrew that message.Shi Yanyu explained earnestly, “You don’t even know how serious the problem is and you’re asking him if he wants to sleep with you---Which one of you is the one on top?”Qin Zhongyue, “I can’t tell you this.”Shi Yanyu spread open his hands, “Fine, let’s say you’re the one on top. As the one on top, don’t you think you’re taking advantage of him by saying something like that? Do you think it’ll make him happy?”Qin Zhongyue hesitated to speak. This matter however was his and Xie Zhongxing’s private business. Feeling that he shouldn’t talk about it, he kept his mouth shut.Shi Yanyu said, “You can’t use your body to please him. It won’t solve the fundamental problem and it’s not sincere. After all, you’ll feel good too. If you continue like this, wouldn’t your wife leave with another person as soon as he finds someone who has a better body than you?”Qin Zhongyue, “…..”Shi Yanyu said earnestly, “Listen to me, okay? Just tell him that you have already thought things through and want to give him a surprise. Then, you’ll go and buy a new pair of rings, ones for couples, and then confess to him.”Qin Zhongyue nodded, “I understand.”Shi Yanyu said, “You can send him another message now.”Copying Shi Yanyu’s words, Qin Zhongyue edited his message again.Shi Yanyu asked, “Are you sure you like Xie Zhongxing? You want to be with him for the rest of your life?”Qin Zhongyue said without hesitation, “Of course. I want to give him a super grand wedding and let everyone know that we’re married!”Shi Yanyu, “Then you better put some thought into it. I can’t believe you still haven’t made it official after so long.”Qin Zhongyue was just about to say something but Xie Zhongxing replied to his message. He shot up to check it and even Shi Yanyu moved closer: “It’s not to watch those films, is it?”Shi Yanyu clicked his tongue, “Look at him. He doesn’t even trust you anymore.”
Qin Zhongyue, “…..”Qin Zhongyue replied, “No! It’s nothing perverted!!”Xie Zhongxing, “Oh.”….So cold. Qin Zhongyue could even feel the chill through the screen.Shi Yanyu said, “Say you miss him. Say something nice.”Qin Zhongyue, “That also counts as sweet talk?”“……” Shi Yanyu felt very tired. He pinched his brows, “Of course it does. Be a little cheesy. Say I miss you, I missed you sixty times over the past minute or something like that.”Qin Zhongyue shuddered, “So cheesy.”Shi Yanyu, “…..”Shi Yanyu, “….You’re so annoying. Just figure it out yourself.”After saying that, he got up, left the cafe and took out a cigarette and a lighter. After lighting one, he took a long and slow drag.Qin Zhongyue thought for a moment before slowly typing out, “Xing Xing, I really miss you.”Xie Zhongxing didn’t reply.Qin Zhongyue looked out at the street outside for a while to slowly collect his thoughts before lowering his head back down and typed, “Xing Xing, there seems to be a lot of things I haven’t told you. In fact, I like you a lot.”“I have always felt that apart from going all the way to your city to find you because I like you and care about you, there is no other reason. I just really like you.”Typing it out didn’t feel as cheesy as saying it. Qin Zhongyue unknowingly ended up typing out a lot, “I just thought that since the two of us are about to get married, there was no need to worry about it. But it looks like everyone else started off with dating and we didn’t date and just went straight to bed. Maybe we didn’t go about it the proper way?”“I was lying when I said I didn’t like you before. Of course I like you. I even feel that the word like is not enough, it’s love. Love is definitely more than like so I definitely love you.”“It’s different from my love for my dad. I love you. I want to be together with you forever and sleep with you.”“I only want you, I only like you, I only love you, I only want to be your husband and be with you forever. Even if you only give me thirty yuan a day, it’s fine. I love you after all. No matter how strict you are with me or how fierce you are with me, I’m fine with it.”Qin Zhongyue thought for a moment and added, “I just want to make you happy but I don’t know how to do it. If I made you unhappy, I’m sorry. I’m willing to do anything but please don’t be unhappy, okay?”
After sending so many messages, Xie Zhongxing finally replied, “Why are you suddenly saying all this? Who taught you to say it?”Qin Zhongyue, “! No one. Those are my true thoughts.”Xie Zhongxing called him, “Where are you right now?”Qin Zhongyue responded quietly, “I’m at XX Cafe.”Xie Zhongxing, “Oh, then you must have someone with you? Who did you come out to meet?”Qin Zhongyue, “….Shi Yanyu.”Xie Zhongxing, “Oh, him.”After a pause, he asked, “Were those words from earlier your true thoughts?”Qin Zhongyue, “They are. I thought over it very carefully, they are all my true thoughts.”Xie Zhongxing smiled, “En, I can tell. But when have I been fierce to you?”Qin Zhongyue’s voice turned small, “….You told me to get lost.”Xie Zhongxing, “That’s because you always ruin the mood with that mouth of yours. Telling you to get lost is already very nice.”Qin Zhongyue, “….Is that so?”Xie Zhongxing, “If I wasn’t nice, I probably would’ve pinched your chest or your little friend down there.”Qin Zhongyue, “……”Xie Zhongxing, “If I really did that, then I would probably have been blinded by anger, understand?”Qin Zhongyue replied fearfully, “Y-yes, I understand. Xing Xing….You can actually get angry.”Xie Zhongxing, “I am human after all, why can’t I get angry?”
Qin Zhongyue was stunned for a moment. Yeah that’s right, why couldn’t Xie Zhongxing get angry? Perhaps it was because the Xie Zhongxing in this lifetime had become much gentler, the idea of ‘Xie Zhongxing getting angry’ was something he had never thought about. He even felt that if he flattered him a little, he wouldn’t be angry anymore….Qin Zhongyue only now realised something. It seems that Xie Zhongxing had been the one on the receiving end of his emotions this entire time.Compared to his belief that he had been protecting Xie Zhongxing, Xie Zhongxing had been in fact very tolerating of him.After Shi Yanyu broke things down for him, he now realised that there seemed to have been….quite a few occasions where he made Xie Zhongxing angry?Qin Zhongyue suddenly fell silent. A long time later, he apologised with shame, “Xing Xing, sorry for always making you angry.”Xie Zhongxing, “It’s fine. The next time you make me angry, I’ll stuff something in your mouth.”His mood suddenly turned for the better.Xie Zhongxing actually never doubted whether or not Qin Zhongyue liked him.Because he could feel the joy and strong emotions from Qin Zhongyue being directed at him.If he didn’t like him, it wouldn’t be like this.Something like love was probably some kind of sweet substance that is gradually produced the moment you realise that the other party likes you and you are also attracted to them.Xie Zhongxing could feel this quality from Qin Zhongyue. He had found himself in countless situations where his heart raced because of Qin Zhongyue.When he found out from Qin Xiangqian that Qin Zhongyue had said that he wanted to take him as his wife, all the dissatisfaction he had towards Qin Zhongyue was gone.Why did he sleep with Qin Zhongyue at that time? He originally wasn’t ready for it but he really wanted Qin Zhongyue-----He couldn’t be blamed for that. Qin Zhongyue was often too laid-back and too unpredictable, like the wind. Although he may be pure and innocent inside, he was still young and that fresh feeling towards people and things can only last so long.Xie Zhongxing wanted him. He liked him. But he was also afraid of Qin Zhongyue losing interest very quickly.Before this, Xie Zhongxing would often think: What kind of relationship did they have? They had kissed countless times already and Qin Zhongyue had even cut off contact with his childhood friends because of him. There just seemed to be something else that was missing which made him feel as if he was stepping on clouds.Then they slept. The hole in Xie Zhongxing’s heart grew bigger and bigger.It was only until not long ago that he realised that they were still just friends. Even despite Qin Zhongyue saying all those grand words about taking him as wife, their relationship still remained as that of friends.Because he had stayed with Qin Zhongyue for a long time, even his thought processes had slowed down. He had actually foolishly kept this up all this time.
When Qin Zhongyue almost let slip the news during breakfast that morning, Xie Zhongxing’s mind went completely blank-----He had actually done it with Qin Zhongyue at Qin Zhongyue’s home.And it was right under Qin Xiangqian’s nose.This fact made Xie Zhongxing a little annoyed. He even felt some disdain towards himself.But now, all those emotions are gone.Qin Zhongyue didn’t understand. He knew that. But with just the fact that he told Qin Xiangqian that he wished to take him as wife, all his worries were gone ---- This guy is an idiot.You couldn’t request too much from an idiot but you also can’t let them continue being stupid.Seeing Qin Zhongyue say these things now, Xie Zhongxing felt comforted inside, “I don’t wish to change you but I hope you can think more about what I need and what words I would like to hear.”Xie Zhongxing’s smiled deepened, “I was very happy to hear those words you said just now. I will be back tonight.”Xie Zhongxing continued in a relaxed tone, “The surprise you mentioned won’t disappoint me, right?”Qin Zhongyue became spirited again. He shouted loudly, “No! I guarantee you will like it!”Xie Zhongxing who heard this smiled lightly, “That’s good.”Qin Zhongyue whispered quietly, “If you’re not satisfied, you can punish me.”Xie Zhongxing, “That’s not necessary.”Qin Zhongyue said seriously, “It is. Otherwise I won’t learn from my mistakes.”With such a high level of self-awareness, Xie Zhongxing felt a little strange.Qin Zhongyue grimaced, “I’m most afraid of you riding me. If you are not satisfied, you can do that and play with me as much as you like!”Xie Zhongxing, “?”