Chapter 7: Paradigm

Chapter 7: Paradigm

Neave was back at the start. He was furious. He stomped to the suspension bridge, hacked the ropes off, walked to the cave, and sat down irritably.

Twelve times! Twelve fucking times!

It had been twelve times that Neave had sat down in the cave and meditated until he died from thirst. The hellscape he found himself in was arid, and it was easy to get dehydrated, but given that he wasn’t doing anything strenuous, he wasn’t sweating either. He had anywhere between three at least and five at most days worth of time until he died from dehydration.

If he assumed he had four days each time he sat down, he had already been attempting to cultivate for almost fifty days straight! This wasn’t just fifty days either. It was fifty entire days. No rest, no sleep, no pauses except the time it took him to return upon dying. He did get extremely exhausted as he reached death from dehydration, not to mention the lack of sleep, but through sheer virtue of willpower, he could still sort of push through it until he died. And death in this realm made for a more thorough recovery than any night of rest Neave had ever had.

That meant he had cultivated for well over a thousand hours straight yet made absolutely zero progress. At first, he blamed the mental barrier he had against the idea of cultivation, but even after swallowing all his remaining pride and taking that barrier down for good, he still had no success.

This was strange. Neave was beginning to panic. Initially, he thought that perhaps this realm prevented him from cultivating. However, he noticed something just toward the end of the fifth attempt. It was like looking at fireflies with absolutely horrible eyesight.

This was a great sign. These ethereal lights were wisps of qi, strands of potential. This meant that it must be possible. When one first attempted to cultivate, one had to visualize and comprehend the essence of potential. They had to grasp the idea behind being more.

It was both very simple and very complicated. Anyone could do it, but despite this, only a few ordinary peasants and people born into mortal families ever do it independently.

Why?

Well, for starters, how easy was it to imagine oneself wielding a hundred-kilo sword like a feather? Maybe one could imagine it, sure, but what made it possible?

This was why sects trained their young from a very early age. When one trained, one made improvements. They grew, improved, and realized part of the potential their bodies, minds, and souls already possessed.

And then they’re given a sword too heavy to lift and told to swing it. The difference between someone trained in martial arts and someone who never did any training was perspective. To a mortal, a sword far too heavy to be lifted, no matter how much one trained, was just that.

A sword that was impossible to wield.

But to children taught by sects, it was more than that. It was a barrier, another obstacle they needed to overcome.

Wielding a sword heavier than your own body should be impossible. You’d be dragged along and thrown off balance when you swung the sword. Only when one grasped the essence of potential, the ability to grow in skill, strength, speed, endurance, toughness, and so on, was that when one began to see it.

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The substance, the essence of it, needed to surpass mortal limitations and become immortal. The higher power that allowed cultivators to swing a blade too heavy for a mortal.

Qi.

Talent still did play a role, of course. Natural spiritual perception differed in strength between individuals. Neave was tested for his, and he knew he was below average, but not that below average. Not this below average.

In the last thousand hours, he had a ton of time to blame just about anything for his inability to cultivate. Everything from the realm he was in, to the strange time loop’s interference, to his stupidity and lack of understanding. He even blamed the way he thought about cultivation.

After all, he hated it.

This was one thing he couldn’t entirely move past. They could put all the pretty language like ‘potential’ or ‘sacred’ and their moralizing crap up their ass.

Cultivation wasn’t about potential. It was about power.

Martial arts wasn’t a pretty dance. It was a skill for injuring and killing.

And worst of all was when he heard someone claim that cultivation was about being more than yourself. No, it wasn’t. It was about being more than others. And then treating those below you however you wished.

Despite all of this, Neave understood the need for cultivators. The supply had created its own demand. After all, if the righteous chose to abstain from cultivation for moral reasons, they would all be slaughtered by those with fewer reservations.

Then the world would become an even worse place than it was. If everyone chose to stop cultivating, monsters would just slaughter all other sentient life. And they were as horrible to one another as they were to everything else. So humans and sacred beasts must cultivate.

But the scholar in him rebelled. Even if he saw reason in it, he felt there was more to life than violence. The world may move on without him, but he would stay. He would remain behind and look for an alternative. Perhaps it was just ignorance, stubbornness, or immaturity, but he had vowed to devote his life to finding that peace, no matter where it may lie.

He froze.

Neave looked at himself. The same old, scholarly, weak, and pathetic self. But even as a mortal... He knew that if he fought with any of the foundation realm disciples of his sect, he would dominate them. Probably even those on the first step of the iron path. Maybe even those on the second and third.

If it came down to a fight, they’d lie dead beneath his feet before they knew what had happened. He wanted to believe in peace, in a brighter world, but what was he doing as he thought that?

He sat in a cave, in a hellish realm of suffering, and tried to cultivate. If that was what he truly believed, then who had he become?

He had kept himself busy. Either forcing himself not to think or fighting, but it was all a distraction. Now that he was finally truly alone with his thoughts, it hit him.

Oh heavens... What do I do?

He cried, feeling what water remained in his body reduced gradually with every tear that dropped.

Will I ever even be free again? Why does it even matter to me anymore?

All of it is bullshit! I was just scared.

He had no such obstacle anymore. So he didn’t have to lie.

He'd scorned cultivators for their desire for superiority, but how did he wake up every single day?

Did I not believe I was more than they were?

Does that not make me a massive hypocrite?

And then he thought of the cruelty.

Who gives a shit about cruelty?

He knew he didn’t. Countless of his brothers and sisters had died during his life alone, and he never even shed a tear. So why was he pretending that he cared about peace? Why was he acting as if anyone deserved peace?

Did innocent children deserve peace, perhaps?

What innocent children?

Neave was a child, too. But he was also a liar.

The other children from the sect had beaten and tortured him. If adults did to each other what other disciples did to Neave, it would be obvious to anyone how fucked up such behavior was.

There was no such thing as a group of innocent individuals. Should it all be burned down, then? No, Neave didn’t believe that. What did he believe in then? By what creed should he live his life? Or should he accept oblivion and let his mind be torn apart by the tides of time? So he asked.

What did he want?

Then he imagined it.

That was what he wanted the most.

The rest could come after he was no longer trapped here.

The rest could come when he was finally trapped back outside.

Restart.

He was back at the cave, trying to cultivate. For a few moments, he believed it would now magically work. Neave had spent countless years fighting in this realm, so he understood potential pretty damn well.

He had gone from being unable to kill the first demon to beating four waves of such demons in a row. He already knew how strong his spirit senses were. After all, he was tested for that when he was five.

According to these two factors, he should have been able to at least sense qi properly by now. But he couldn’t. Neave had already thought of every possible reason why he could not do it. There was only one that made sense.

He had been poisoned.

At first, he didn’t believe this was possible. His father would have noticed, right? Well, that depended on a few factors. If Neave had been trying to cultivate, his father would have realized something was off. It should have been obvious if he was being poisoned. After all, poisons that compromised one’s spiritual senses were rarely subtle.

Unless...

What if, whoever poisoned him, used something like wither slime extract? Or powdered bone from an evolved shadow? Such poisons could theoretically be distilled into mostly their oblivion elements. And if they had used that in tiny doses, there would only be a way to tell if Neave started cultivating. And Neave hadn’t. Not until now.

There was another thing that was off with this theory. Such poisons would be prohibitively expensive. Would anybody even have the motivation to use such a costly poison on Neave?

Perhaps.

Neave thought back to his life in the sect. His father had paid a lot of attention to him, weirdly so. And hadn’t the council tried to sell him off to a man? Who had they tried to marry him to? He wanted to groan as the evidence piled up.

Neave had almost certainly gotten caught up with political crap behind the scenes without knowing it. He didn’t care about that now, but he most certainly did care about being poisoned.

This was a massive problem. Without a readily available cure, he knew starting to cultivate would be difficult. No, actually, it was impossible.

Hmmm...

Well, it wasn’t impossible. Theoretically speaking, there was a solution he could potentially resort to.

Usually, cultivators that reached the platinum path, such as his father, could manipulate more than just qi. They became capable of also controlling life force. Anyone could achieve this with enough talent and time, even those at just the silver or gold paths. And there was historical evidence that some individuals had achieved this even as mortals. They, however, had an outstanding talent for manipulating life force. Neave didn’t.

But he didn’t need talent.

He had all the time in the world.