C95

I became the current empress of the Qing Dynasty. The first month of our wedding is the day the Emperor wishes. Actually, I was quite happy, because even though the Emperor was young, he had a maturity that did not match his real age. The Emperor rarely spoke to me, and at that time I thought that was how the Emperor would be, but many years later, perhaps I realized that the Emperor liked to speak, and only spoke to people he liked.

At first, I didn't know if it was because I didn't do well enough, but after a few days, I finally found out, because I was a queen that the emperor had no choice but to bestow upon me due to the need of the imperial court's power. I only remembered that on that day, when the emperor returned to the Kunning Palace, he drank some wine. "Let's go.

After the palace maids left, I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the emperor. The emperor's mouth kept muttering, "I am the emperor. I want to kill you all. You guys bully my young …"

I was trembling with fear as I listened. Who was the Emperor trying to kill? I called out softly, "Your Majesty, don't get so worked up."

The emperor looked at me with hazy eyes. After a long time, he said, "Empress? Even my queen wasn't chosen by me. What emperor is I? "All of you are bullying my youth."

The emperor repeated, this is the first time, and also the only time in my life, that I've heard the words in the emperor's heart. And after I got drunk, my existence, makes the emperor feel weak?

When the Emperor woke up from his drunken stupor, he didn't remember saying these words, and I never mentioned them again. However, these words had already pierced my heart.

A month after my wedding with the emperor, the emperor moved back to his own palace. The emperor didn't come often, and the empress dowager liked me very much. She would smile and tell me, "Your majesty, he's in a hurry to get involved with his own affairs, so he's studying martial arts every day." I knew I was going to be the queen of reason, so I never blamed the Emperor.

Until one day, my palace maid, Spring Apricot, told me that the Emperor had favored a palace maid and was about to grant her a promise. My heart was really sad, but I would never tell anyone about it. Chief, isn't it normal for the emperor to favor a palace maid? "

Aren't I very magnanimous in everyone's eyes, but my heart is bleeding. After the wedding, other than the first month when the Emperor stayed at the Kunning Palace, the Emperor rarely visited. Aside from that month, the number of times he had visited during the five months since his wedding in September could be counted on one hand. Why? Why doesn't the Emperor want to come to me? My heart ached.

At the beginning of March in the fifth year of Kang Xi's career, on this day, ChunXing brought in two palace maids, Rong'er and Su'er. At the same time, Zhang Shou was officially given the title of "Ning Palace" to move into this Kun Ning Palace. This promise is older than I am, beautiful, and I have no jealousy of her. I hope to be a good wife, as I have read in the book, without jealousy, only magnanimity.

I like her a lot, especially Rong'er. I always felt that she could see into my heart, that I like to read poetry, that the Chinese teacher who taught me the rules has also taught me some Chinese characters, and although they are not very smart, they always need some stuff to get rid of boring years, and Rong'er also seems to like them, so I have a lot of conversations with her.

Actually, I cannot say that the Emperor has not treated me well, that the Emperor has never been fierce towards me, nor did he have a bad expression on his face, but that I just never felt warm. After being married for such a long time, I really wanted to have a prince, but I just couldn't bring myself to do what I wanted.

I knew that Rong'er wasn't such a careless person, and she definitely wasn't afraid of him, so there was only one reason. She had the emperor in her heart, and I pleaded for him in his stead, but the emperor didn't punish me, so he handled this matter in such a casual manner. On the contrary, it made my heart feel a little bitter.

My heart is wrong again, and I think it must be, because then Spring Apricot told me not to let Rong-er wait on you when the Emperor comes, and that I would nod in agreement even though I knew Rong-er was not a clumsy man.

I thought that perhaps some things were fated, and that Heaven had already arranged for us to avoid them, but that on this day, as usual, Rong'er and I were talking about poems that we didn't have, and we were suddenly in the mood for a song, but I didn't think that the Emperor, who cared very little about me, would come to visit me. It was fate, and I could see that the Emperor admired Rong'er, and the light in his eyes was something I had never seen before. I suddenly felt very relieved. If everything was fated, then I shouldn't be like this either.

I'm the empress, and I want to be lenient to them. I treat them all very well because the emperor is our common husband, and as the head of the empress, what I want to do is to let the emperor have no worries and send greetings to the empress dowager. The empress asked me to bring my son to the empress's place, and the emperor didn't refuse either, so I know that this empress is different from the ancestors' and emperors' eyes, and I'm very happy, I believe that she will serve the emperor well, but her heart is never bad, and I can see that she has not followed me for half a year.

Rong'er went to the Preservation Hall, and then went to the side of the emperor. Just as I thought, when Rong'er returned with the dragon in his arms, I smiled at him. I'm sincere, I'm not jealous, I'm just envious. And behind Rong'er, there was nothing. She didn't have the support of her family, but what she had was the sincere love of the Emperor.

Everyone in the imperial harem could see through the Emperor's preference for Rong'er. The empress dowager told everyone not to be jealous, and said that it was only right for Rong'er to be a little favored by the Emperor. Actually, I knew clearly in my heart that the Emperor had true intentions for Rong'er, and it wasn't just me. In the face of Rong'er, I was truly happy for her. To be able to obtain the love of the Emperor, I was truly envious of this kind of happiness.

Actually, in this palace, I know that Rong'er cares a lot about my feelings. She wants me to be happy, but these are not fake, so I also trust her. After so many years, I sincerely see her as a younger sister, and she's very good.

Rong'er often said that I had a great influence on her because my magnanimity and benevolence had made her feel warmth in the palace. Actually, I wasn't that good either, I only really hoped that the harem would be peaceful and harmonious, but of course, it would be great if Rong'er could continue to be like this. I hope that she could continue to be like this.

The crying Rong at my bedside was, I believe, her truest emotion, and her tears were genuine.

I trusted Rong'er. At the same time, I knew that the Emperor also trusted Rong'er, so I entrusted my child to her. I believed that she would definitely treat him well …