C97

In September of six years, the first child of the Emperor was born. The one born to the Emperor was Cheng Rui. The Empress Dowager had bestowed this child on me to raise. Lonely, I really want to have a child. Although Cheng Rui was not born of me, but I truly love him from the bottom of my heart. Rong'er and I happily watch him grow up every day.

I am very happy, but the only helpless thing is, I have a child, Cheng Rui I will not be able to continue taking care of, but I do want a child of my own, although I love Rui a lot, but I also have a mother's selfishness, I want to be a real mother.

I could tell that the Emperor also liked this child very much. This kind of liking was no less than his liking for Cheng Rui. Three months later, a prince from a rich family came to celebrate the birth of Cheng Rui. This year should have been a happy one for everyone.

However … However, Cheng Rui, who was brought up and raised by the empress dowager, was unfortunately infected with smallpox. Cheng Rui died, but the Emperor's joy at having two sons could not match the emperor's grief at having lost Cheng Rui. Cheng Rui watched him grow up, and my grief was no less than Rong'er's.

The Emperor dotes on her, and before this, the Emperor was summoned by all the imperial concubines to accompany him. But after Cheng Rui was gone, the Emperor only accompanied Rong'er, and the Emperor was worried about Rong'er, and we can all see that for almost a year, Rong'er has been living with only his beloved. Fortunately, the number of women in the palace is not many, and the Imperial Concubine Zhao has already become a lot lighter after her father has restrained her. The only thing I needed to calm down was for Zhang and Yin to agree. After Rong'er had given birth to Cheng Rui, Zhang Nan had given birth to a princess who was very wise, but she seemed to be very unhappy, and Yin Ying had given birth to someone who had given birth to a princess. I understand their feelings, but I wish they would put them away.

In fact, my temper wasn't bad, but there were times when I couldn't help but scold Chang for agreeing, and I couldn't find any value in what she said in front of Rong-er, except that it would cause discord between the sisters. I knew Chang had always thought I was biased towards Rong-er. I thought about it, I was indeed biased towards Rong-er, but why would I be biased towards him? Because she did well.

At the beginning of March, Dong agreed to give birth to the princess, a neglected princess. I have to admit, I didn't care enough about her, so when Dong Shu-shu died, I was upset, Dong Shu-shu also did not agree easily. The emperor only gave her permission as an accident, but she just silently accepted all these arrangements.

However, Cheng Qing and Hui Zhuo died early. This year, the palace was extremely sad.

At the end of the year, Rong'er gave birth to Prince Cha once more. Rong'er became happy, and the Emperor became happy as well. Because Cheng Rui died in the Kunning Palace, this made the empress dowager sad for a long time.

I was also extremely happy, but who would have thought that Cheng Ku would also die two months later? I really felt a heartache, I think that I must have been too sad at that time, so I left behind the root of my illness. My body began to get very bad. I dreamed about it often, and sometimes I couldn't sleep all night. The Emperor was worried about me, and he came to see me a lot during that time, but I was still very sad. A few days after her death, Huiping gave birth to her son Baoqing, a lost son and a son. The difference between my mood and hers is like heaven and earth. I don't know why the Emperor's children keep dying all these years, or why Rong has gotten pregnant, but after the new year he dies of illness, and Rong has given birth to a princess, and at the same time has a son and a daughter. What a great happiness this is, but only Rong can feel this kind of happiness.

In the middle of this year, Yin, Zhang Nan, Zhang Nan, Bu Fang, Rong'er and I were pregnant again and again. Five of us had a dragon heir, which just so happens to be equal to the number of children the Emperor had died before. The entire harem was filled with joy, but by the end of last year, everything started to turn sour … First, there was the rebellion between the Pingxi King and Yunnan, and then there was chaos in the imperial court. The promised children of Yin in the imperial harem were not born yet, and Zhang was born with a congenital disease, while Rong's children died soon after. I had watched him grow up, the Empress Dowager allowed me to nurture him, I was truly grateful, at that time I lost my son, I poured all my love for him into this child, I felt so much pain for him, but he was lost in my palace, he was taken out of my palace, and when the time came for him to be lost, I felt like dying. That day, Rong'er and I wept silently, the Emperor, the Empress Dowager, Rong'er, no one could blame me, but I blamed myself. Although the child was found, he was seriously ill. My heart ached for him, and I felt like I had lost my soul, but now that I have Long Zi, I have to take care of myself, because I have a child in my womb.

He was born in my arms, a prince, that's great, if God, between mother and child you must take someone's life, then take me away, I think of Grandpa, when Grandpa died, I was so sad, I didn't see him for the last time, I can go and find him, ask Grandfather, granddaughter of this empress is satisfied with him?

I'm leaving now to accompany the six children of the Emperor. Are they all right in the sky? Would it be quiet without her? Lonely? I will take care of them. I will be with them, silently guarding the emperor, praying to the heavens for the emperor's blessings …