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Honor the past few years, sincere feelings early attention;

Now will be the death of the release, exclamation of the sorrowful life.

This was the first time Rong-er had ever heard of her past. She found that she had cared too little for him in the past, and it was only at this moment, when he was about to die, that she began to understand him.

"Actually, my life before I entered the palace was pretty simple. My eldest mother was a lucky son of my Ama, and my eldest mother was a very fierce person, she had a son and a daughter, but my eldest mother only had one me. In the past, Ama took my eldest mother in because my eldest mother only had one son, and he hoped that my eldest mother would have a second son, but after my eldest mother gave birth to me, she did not have any children. "Little brother." Master Zhi began to talk about his own life.

"Huh?" Rong-er did not know that the life of Tzu Chi was so pitiful. After all, she, Ama, had only ever married her first wife. She had never married anyone else.

Zhi Zhi smiled, "That's why my mother has no status in the Wang family, of course I don't either, my older brother and sister have always loved to bully me since I was young, after a long time, I've lost my temper and won't fight for it." It's no wonder that she had always felt that Xi'er's heart was very mature. "When I was seven years old, a child of one of my distant relatives came to our family. He said that he wanted to meet us in the capital and was nurtured by Ama. Although I, Ama, have not been good to my first mother, I have treated my relatives very well. Perhaps this is also the reason why my relationship with my uncle was promoted later on. In short, my cousin came to our house, and I, Ama, treated him very well. And he was allowed to study with my brothers. "

"Is this cousin of yours?"

He was five years older than me, and after he came, he quickly understood the relationships in my family. He was a very gentle person who loved to study, unlike the emperor. Once, my brother and my sister were bullying me again, and he saw it. He was older than my brother by a year, so my brother had a pretty good relationship with him. "Later on, I realized that he often helped me, so after I was seven years old, I had never been bullied again. My first mother was very fierce, but she was only fierce to my eldest mother and third mother, so she was not bad to me, and my third mother had a tough personality. She had two sons who often fought with her first mother, so my second mother was actually the most pitiful, often in a difficult situation, but when I was nine years old, my second mother died from illness."

"Jing`er …" Seeing the faint smile on his face, Rong'er couldn't help but cry out in grief.

Jingzhi lightly shook his head and smiled, "Rong'er, do you know? "My mother died. I really wasn't sad at all because she was relieved. She no longer needed to secretly shed tears. Rong'er, my mood is the same as it was then. I'm about to be relieved as well." Jingzhi paused before continuing, "There's no way I don't like my cousin. He was my umbrella when I was growing up. After my mother left, he was the only one in the family who could give me a trace of warmth. I remember that after my first mother passed away, I often cried alone. My cousin would always accompany me by my side and say, "Jing-er, don't be sad. My cousin will always protect you and prevent you from being bullied by anyone." I believe him. He's the only one I trust. "When I was twelve, it was my birthday, and no one in the family cared about it, except my cousin, who had already taken the title when he was seventeen. He held a jade pendant in his hand and asked me if I would accept it as a token of affection from his parents and if I would accept it as his bride." At this point, Jingzhi's face turned red. I agree, we have an agreement, the next year, after I finish participating in the palace selection, he will ask me to marry him, if I am chosen as a palace maid, he will wait for me to leave, I promise her, even if I have to enter the palace I will try my best to keep a low profile, not causing trouble, and quietly wait for the day we will reunite after we leave the palace.

"Actually, it's all fate. Big Sis was one year older than me, but she participated in the Elementary Scholars with me in the same year as me. In terms of looks, my elder sister's looks are not any worse than mine. My elder cousin and I had always thought that elder sister would be selected and I would be left without a choice. Life, in the end, it was the exact opposite. Jingzhi's eyes reddened a little, "Rong'er, do you remember the first night we met in the palace? Do you know how sad I was? After ten years of waiting, I don't know if he can wait, but I will wait for this agreement. "

The scene of their first meeting had left a memory in Rong'er's mind. She remembered Jingzhi from that time, with a hint of desolation on her body. The faint, blurry memory became clearer and clearer. "Jing-er, have you suffered a lot these years?"

Jingzhi nodded, "Actually, Rong'er, I was guarding this relationship carefully, and just as I was about to leave the palace, I suddenly found out about my promise, what kind of mood I was in at that time, you definitely can't guess, I know I definitely won't be able to leave the palace, all these years, the family members came to visit, he came, I told him, don't wait for me, find a good wife to happily live your life, but he didn't, he always refused …" "Rong'er, I'm sad. In the past two years in the palace, I've been very tired of living, but I didn't dare to easily speak of this secret to others. Now that I'm dead, he can marry without any worries.

"Jing Er, is he not implicated because of you?" Rong'er asked doubtfully.

Actually, he can go and become a teacher. He said that he likes to impart knowledge, and his career is the path Ama and I chose for him. I know he doesn't like it, so now, he can do the things he likes to do … He will marry a wife, raise some children, and lead a simple and happy life … " A warm glow appeared on the face of Sergei. "And that is..." the wonderful life we used to imagine... "

"Jing`er …" Rong'er's tears fell uncontrollably. No wonder Jing'er couldn't accept the Emperor. She already had such deep feelings for him in her heart, so how could she love him? If she had to blame someone, it would be fate! Rong'er embraced Sergey and asked, "My poor child, why is your life so bitter?"

"Rong'er, we agreed not to cry." Jingzhi helped Rong'er up and lightly wiped away the tears on his face. "Send me away with a smile. I'm free. I'm truly free …"

"Good!" "Jing`er!" Rong'er quickly wiped away the tears on his face. "I believe you will be able to reach the heavens. After reincarnating, you will definitely be happy. Your life will be so bitter, yet you will still be able to maintain a kind heart. In your next life, there will be a blessing." She thought of the theory of reincarnation that Xuan Ye had told her.

"Alright, I'll hold you back …" Zhizhi said with a chuckle.

Knocking sounds came from the door as the consultant's voice called out, "Honorable master, it's getting late. You should return to the palace."

"Go back." Zhi Zhi smiled and said, "To be able to see you before death is already a great happiness!"

"Jing`er …" Rong'er clenched his teeth as he endured his grief, "I wish you well!"

"The same goes for you. Serve the emperor well, and I hope that you'll be happy!" Shiva nodded. "Let's go."

Rong'er nodded her head heavily, afraid that her tears would fall. She endured the pain in her heart and quickly turned around and walked out of the room. Standing at the doorway, she turned around and looked at an eunuch who had locked the door.

Rong'er silently said in his heart: "Thank you! "My good sister, I thank you for your many years of company. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I couldn't save you …" Tears welled up in his eyes, and soon, his vision blurred ….

Within the door, Jingzhi looked at the tightly shut door. She had been smiling the entire time, but she didn't know when, but tears had already started streaming down her face …