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Rong'er thought to himself: I finally understand one thing. In this palace, there are so many concubines who often agree. How many people are silently in love with the Emperor? However, they might never be able to express their feelings for the Emperor in their entire lives. In the end, they were like an orchid, using silent actions to express their truest feelings …

It was early one morning when the summer was about to end and Rong'er came to visit Ruo Lan as usual. Ruo Lan was still smiling faintly as she looked at her and said, "Big sister, I don't think I hate Zhang Leyan anymore. Everyone's heart is filled with greed and everyone's heart is filled with desire. hope, this might not be a sin, but a vile root from her previous life that has remained in this life. In this life, she has already paid the price for her evil roots.

Rong'er only thought that she was talking about Buddhism again. He only smiled and replied, "The reason why you can think like this is because your heart is kind."

"Elder sister, Guyu Yun: the beginning of human nature is good. "I believe that no one in this world is born to harm others. Zhang LEqi, Lee Anzhu, they aren't bad people in nature. It's just that they have an inner demon within their hearts." Ruo Lan said softly, her face exuding a very peaceful expression.

Rong'er gently held her hand. "Yes, Ruo Lan, you're right. No one is born a bad person."

"Big sister, I suddenly really want to know what my two unborn children look like. I almost became the eldest mother too, just a little bit more …" Rowan's voice sounded relaxed and casual, but Rong'er was feeling exceptionally sad. He didn't know what to say for a moment.

"Elder sister, I might see them very soon. I also miss the gentle and kind empress of benevolence and filial piety …" "Elder sister, I'm in so much pain. Right now, I'm really tired of living." Do you know? I even find it hard to speak. "

"Ruo Lan …" Of course Rong'er knew she was in pain. It was summer and the weather was hot, but Ruo Lan could only lie in bed. She and the ladies sometimes had to move her gently in order not to have a sore. She was sweating all over from the pain, but she kept smiling all the time, but even so, the rash still covered her neck, chest, and elbows. It was itchy and painful, but she couldn't scratch it herself or call out for help.

Rong'er knew that Ruo Lan was living a life without any future in it. It was a painful life, but Rong'er admitted that she was selfish. She knew how hard it was for Ruo Lan to live, but she still wanted her to live. She wanted her to live, she had to live. "Ruo Lan, you are very strong. You will get through this. You will get better!"

Ruo Lan smiled and nodded, "Big sister, I will be very strong, but if I really die, promise me, don't be sad, okay? Because to me, it's a relief. "

"Ruo Lan?" "Don't say that, you won't die!"

"Sister, I was saying that if, sister, Ruo Lan was really happy, the first person she met on her first day in the palace was you, I would have once been jealous of you and resented you, but then I finally understood, you are so good, no matter how others treat you, you will never feel resentment or retaliation against them, you will repay others with the greatest leniency, you are truly worthy of the Emperor's love, Sister, I believe in karma, you must have been a god in the heavens in your past life to give you such a sincere personality in this life."

"Ruo Lan …" Rhonin looked especially good today, and she talked a lot, but the things she said made her feel particularly uneasy, like she was about to die. Rong'er tried to change the subject. "Roland, can we not talk about this? Can I read you a poem today? "

"Alright …" However, when she looked at Ruo Lan's face today, the smile on her face seemed exceptionally brilliant. Her complexion seemed to have improved, which should have been a sign of improvement, but why did Rong'er's heart always feel uneasy?

At noon, Ling Xiang'er took Rong'er's place to take care of Ruo Lan, while Rong'er returned to take a nap at the palace. Not long after, news of Ruo Lan's death arrived … Rong'er, who had received the news, sat in the same spot for a long time without being able to move. Grief was a thin feeling, like the pain of a needle being pricked. The morning conversation was really Ruo Lan's last words … Rong'er began to regret. Why didn't he let Rowland say more?

Rong'er knew that Ruo Lan didn't die, but was released as she said she would be. She must have become an immortal, and someone as kind as her would definitely enter the Heavenly Court. In the mourning hall, Rong'er looked at Ruo Lan's memorial tablet and silently wept. He murmured to himself, "Why is the heavens so unfair? Ruo Lan is so kind, yet she let such an accident take her life and even caused her to suffer so much before she died. If so, why are you doing this to Rowland? "

"Of course there is a Buddha. Lord Buddha knows that Ruo Lan's heart has already returned to the Buddha, so staying in this palace doesn't mean she will be happy. That's why I let her become a Buddha, and the pain before she dies is just a tribulation on the path to becoming one."

Is that right? Rong'er looked at Ruo Lan's spirit tablet and thought about Ruo Lan's light smile before she died. He asked in his heart, "Ruo Lan, will you really be happier if you leave like this?"

Although she was pregnant, she still insisted on accompanying Rong'er and the others as they kept Ruo Lan's spirit tablet. The other imperial concubines had also visited to see if Ruo Lan had died from saving the prince, so it was a meritorious deed for her to die. Thus, the empress dowager had personally sent Su Ma La to pay her respects, and told the Ministry of the Interior to bury Ruo Lan peacefully as well.

After that, they would stop outside the palace for three days and wait until the yamen's mausoleum was repaired before they would officially settle down at the yamen. Three days later, Ruo Lan's memorial tablet was removed, and all the offerings were gone. Ruo Lan's room was still the same room, but there was no longer any trace of Ruo Lan's voice or smile in that room …

After three months of careful care of Ruo Lan, Rong'er suddenly felt empty inside, and she suddenly felt powerless.

"Mother, don't be too sad. Be careful not to hurt your body." After Ruo Lan was born, Rong'er was busy taking care of Ruo Lan, and he was also very sensible. He assumed the responsibility of taking care of Yin You, so he did not give Rong'er any extra heart, "Eldest mother, didn't you say that you went to become a god in the sky?"

Rong'er raised his head. His daughter was about to turn thirteen, and her figure was gradually becoming blurry … Blurred... The scene in front of him seemed to have returned to the day nineteen years ago when Rong'er had entered the palace …

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Are you alright?" A sweet-looking girl of about 13, dressed in a light blue silk dress, hurriedly apologized to Rong'er …

The girl patted her chest. "I'm so nervous, so nervous," she said. "I, Ama, said that if you choose to enter the palace, you can see the emperor. Do you want to see the emperor, sister?" I really want to see the emperor. If I can be blessed by the emperor, I can become his master! "

"My name is Yin Ruo Lan, I am an envoy from the capital, what about you?"

"Elder sister, let's go together. I'm really nervous. Oh yeah, I've always called you elder sister, how old are you?"

"I'm 13, it really is big sister, let's go quickly!"

Her every frown and smile was still the same as yesterday. She was the first person Rong'er met after entering the palace … A person who had accompanied him for nearly twenty years …

Rong'er chanted in his heart, "Ruo Lan, thank you. From the first day I entered the palace, I felt your warmest and most intimate friendship …" "Ruo Lan, you are my good little sister. I will never forget you …"

Rong'er seemed to have suddenly thought of something. He suddenly frowned and pondered for a moment. Then, he raised his head and looked at Rong Zheng. "Xian'er, how high is today?"

Rongxian looked at his first wife with concern. "Twenty-fourth of August," he replied after a moment's thought.

"24 August …" Rong'er thought to himself. Then, the day of the death of Orchid was the twenty-first of August? August 21st … As he pondered, he suddenly felt hot tears rushing down his face …

That summer nineteen years ago, Ruo Lan was blessed by the Emperor, while Kang Xi was blessed by the Emperor. In August 21, five years ago, Ruo Jin agreed and officially became a little lord … That... This should be the happiest time of Ruo Lan's life in the palace. August 21st, facing the torment of pain. Ruo Lan had endured until this day, August 21st …

Tears came to her eyes, and she wept with them, and she kept wiping them for him, and her heart ached so much that she could hardly breathe, and she knew that there was a kind of love that was expressed in silence, and that Roran loved the Emperor so much that she endured the pain in her body and struggled to keep herself alive, only waiting for a memorable day to come. However, this was a friendship that the Emperor would never understand or cherish … The attitude she had shown in the palace over the years had put a stop to her life: using her silence to wait, to express her last feelings …

For one, she really liked the image of Yin Ruo Lan. There were some people who, after being wronged and hurt, would use a more vicious heart and a vengeful heart to take revenge on others, but there were others who would put it down, look at it, use a calm heart to face it, and be magnanimous. Yin Ruo Lan's love for Xuan Ye was that deep, so the opposite of 'love' might not be 'hate'.