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Chapter 30 - Customary Intimacy

"NO!" You don't have to say, third brother... I don't believe in love anymore! Now let me tell you the truth, I will never fall in love with anyone else in my life other than you. The reason I'm in love with him is to quickly forget about you. However, even this kind of man dares to insult me like this. I really feel that I am too ashamed to continue living! Third brother, I wish you happiness, I … "I'm going …" Li Xiaolu actually said such a thing that made Zhao Shensan tremble in fear.

When Zhao Shensan heard that Li Xiaolu actually had a thought about life, he was immediately scared out of his wits and asked: "Xiao Lu, where are you now? You better not do something stupid! "

"Third brother, you don't need to worry about me. I'll write a will for you in the office. Just take a look tomorrow after you're done. I hope you'll be happy, just forget about me!" "I am destined to be the unneeded person in this world …" After Li Xiaolu miserably shouted, he hung up.

Zhao Shensan was so scared that his head was drenched in sweat. He rushed into the house and said to his parents: "Dad, mom, the Leader is in a hurry to get a document so I have to work overtime. Don't wait for me to come back!"

Due to his special relationship with Zheng Yanhong, it was normal for Zhao Shensan to stay in the office from "working overtime" to late into the night. In any case, his glory was real, so no one in the family doubted it.

He sprinted all the way to the street, caught a taxi and drove the driver to a unit that was six kilometers away from his home. After getting off the car, he sprinted towards his office, afraid that he would see a big hole on Li Xiaolu's wrist the moment he entered.

The door to the office was ajar. He suddenly pushed it open and saw that Li Xiaolu was sitting properly on her seat with a large bundle of tissues in her arms.

He heaved a sigh of relief and walked over to close the door. When Li Xiaolu saw him, his wails became even more moving, "Wuu … Third brother, what are you doing here again? Can't I leave this world in peace? After all, you can't give me the love I want, so what's the use of coming to find me? "

Zhao Shensan cursed in a low voice, full of anger: "Little Lu, you're really a little bastard! You want to kill yourself just for the sake of a man with a human's face and a beast's heart? Is the meaning of your life in the matter of love? Isn't it easy for your parents to raise you? Would they be able to survive if you died? There are so many people in the world who love you, and so many beautiful things that you don't miss, but commit suicide for a bastard? Good, good, good! Die! Die! Use your worthless life to punish all those who love you! "

Li Xiaolu was also a spoiled brat who had never experienced any setbacks, but when she hurt Zhao Shensan when it came to matters of love, and then her boyfriend, she felt that she was the most miserable person in the world, so she pouted and wanted to commit suicide. Now that she was scolded by Zhao Shensan, she realized that she had almost done something foolish, and she started crying from embarrassment.

After Zhao Shensan finished scolding his, he started panting, but he felt that this girl was extremely pitiful. After all, he had really stirred up feelings in her! That heart-to-heart love was so sincere and fresh, in the forest so close and lively, although in the end he did not completely possess the girl due to his conscience, but the love in his heart for her was genuine!

Seeing her in such pain, how could he not feel pain in his heart? Thus, he slowly walked closer to her and stretched out his arm. As Li Xiaolu was in this lonely and helpless situation, naturally, he said "Wah …" She threw herself into his arms and pressed her tearful face against his, and the wet kiss fell on his lips.

Maybe it was a natural habit for both of them to kiss in the past, when Li Xiaolu kissed him now, he couldn't help but hold her tightly in his embrace. Her tongue slipped into her mouth for some reason, and the two's kiss became starved and thirsty, while his hands, which were uncontrollably devilish, had already snuck into the girl's clothes, holding the pigeon …

From the moment he hugged Li Xiaolu and kissed her, before the passion was over, Zhao Shensan had already started to regret! He couldn't wait to take his hand off the girl's chest after committing such a shameless mistake. Then, he wanted to push her away.

However, Li Xiaolu was currently in the midst of an empty nest of emotions, and Zhao Shensan was her beloved man. Just as she felt Zhao Shensan struggling and resisting, her tears started to fall again. She cried out in grief, "Third Brother … "As long as you endure my death, you can push me away …"

Zhao Shensan's heart wasn't made of iron and stone, how could he not be moved by the girl's infatuation? Why did the hand that was pushing her put so much strength into it? Therefore, the result of their struggle, was that Li Xiaolu was like an octopus with his claws wrapped tightly around his body, the two's kiss becoming more and more uncontrollable. Unknowingly, they had both collapsed onto the office couch.

Finally, Zhao Shensan found his rationality in advance. Although the passionate kiss caused the two of them to gradually lose their rationality, there was one clear concept in his mind — Li Xiaolu was different from him, this girl's family could be willful, but he, Zhao Shensan, was a man who shouldered the wishes of his parents, the pride of his wife, and the guardian of his daughter! Furthermore, he wanted to let his relatives lead a better life, and Zheng Yanhong was his only reliance. Therefore, this kind of love game was played by rich and powerful people. He, Zhao Shensan, was a poor guy who had no rights to play, nor could he afford to play!

He finally pushed Li Xiaolu away flatly, held her face with both hands and said with a stern expression: "Little Lu, listen to me carefully! You are a smart girl, so I won't say too much to you if you are being hypocritical. Otherwise, I will tell you something from the bottom of my heart! "

Li Xiaolu was still immersed in her previous passion, unable to extricate herself, she could only nod her head in confusion. Zhao Shensan then said: "Xiao Lu, what I said might not be pleasant to hear, but it's all from the heart, even if you hate me, I will still say it! Little Lu, you are now in the prime of your life, feeling that love is the most important thing in your life, but to me it is not like this! I'm married and I have children … "

"Third brother, I already said I don't care? "You …"

"NO!" Put that theory of yours away, Little Lu! You always think that you don't care that being together with me is a noble act of dedication, but it doesn't mean anything to me at all! I am currently in the midst of a struggle for my life, and you have just seen how many eyes were staring at me when I mentioned orthopedics! I am not like you have a superior family environment, my parents have to suffer all their lives to let me out so that I can give them a better home! And all of this needs me to be honest and self-disciplined quickly to be able to achieve, so your love is not to bring me sweet, but burden, even to give me a time bomb! "I don't know when it will explode, but the crime of extramarital love will blow me to smithereens, and my family will be like me, forever unable to reincarnate!" Zhao Shensan knew that it would be hard for him to get rid of this girl if he did not try to cure her, so he hardened his heart and said those words.

Li Xiaolu had already been struck dumb. She looked at Zhao Shensan blankly, and couldn't say anything!

"Little Lu, stop your sentimental sacrifice. If you let me go, you will show me great mercy! Alright, it's already very late. I'm going home. Think about it for yourself. Go home later! You must know that even if you die, the ones who will be harmed will still be your family! " After Zhao Shensan finished, he walked out of the door without looking back.

Walking in the harsh winter night, with snow particles hitting his face, logically speaking, it should be extremely uncomfortable, but Zhao Shensan did not feel any pain, because compared to his heart, what was this little pain on his face? At this moment, his heart was the one suffering from the condemnation of his conscience. It would not even be excessive to describe him with the word 'heart as sharp as a knife'!

He did not cry. The cold wind blew his tears dry, but what was more likely was that he did not want to cry at all! A man does not shed tears easily! What's the use of crying?

Crying in front of Zheng Yanhong would bring her burning desire for love, and would also bring her her bright future. It would also bring her the glory that her parents wanted, as well as the comfort of a family. This was what he should do as a man, as a son, husband, and father!

The tears at that time were actually more suited to be called weapons. He had used this weapon to destroy Zheng Yanhong's defensive line, and obtained everything he wanted!

But at this moment, even though Li Xiaolu's sincere love for him caused him to feel such sorrow, he could not shed a single tear! Had he lost his ability to love in this sickeningly real world? No! He had love! However, he understood even more clearly that love alone did not bring him enough food, enough food, nor did it bring him enough authority. Instead, it was a castle in the air that did not even bring him enough food to fill his stomach!

At this moment, what sort of critical trial period was this? With Tian Shuangshuang's eyes focused on the exam, how could he, at this moment, make the same mistake as last time?

Three, you have to be careful!

"Little Lu, I hope you wake up as early as I do! "Sigh!" Zhao Shensan eventually turned his love for Li Xiaolu into a long sigh and returned home.

As for whether Li Xiaolu would really commit suicide, he laughed and knew that this girl was used to it. Suicide was a very painful thing to do, she would not do it!

On the second day, Li Xiaolu made it to the office on time. The only difference was that she had a pair of panda eyes, and didn't even look at Zhao Shensan.