Chapter 260

At this moment, I really don't know how to deal with this matter, let alone how to explain it to her. After the repeated ideological struggle in my heart, I finally made the most painful choice. Long pain is better than short pain. In order to think about my dream, I must be ruthless and separate with her for a while. Otherwise, Youmeng will definitely be disadvantageous to this task, and even make a fuss at Youmeng.

So I said to Youmeng on the phone, "well, Youmeng, I'm at Chuanxin Hotel on Qinghe Road now. Hurry up and drive here."

"What are you doing there?" asked the dream

I said, "don't ask, just come here."

"You Meng said:" well, I'll be right there

Hang up, I sighed deeply.

Half an hour later, dream drove there.

At the moment of seeing me, the eyebrows of my dream suddenly turned into a pimple, with a look of indignation, "Zhao long, what are you going to do? Why do you want to change careers? Why don't you consult with me when you change careers? Do you still have me in your eyes? "

A series of questions, let by the dream mood appears quite excited. It can be seen that she is very dissatisfied with my career change and full of anger at my concealment.

I took a cigarette and spat out a lot of smoke. "I am not has the final say, but this is the arrangement of the leader. What can I do?"

The dream came to me, grabbed the lighted cigarette from my mouth and held it in my own mouth, but the smoke immediately choked her.

From the dream mercilessly throw away the smoke, chase to ask: "whose meaning is this? By the director, right? "

Of course, I can't tell her the truth or that it was arranged by the director. I can only disguise: "whose idea is not important. What's important is that, in fact, I've been tired of this job for a long time, and I want to go out and make my own way!"

Meng Leng hum: "even if you want to change your career, you don't have to choose to be safe, do you?"

I said, "what happened to the security guard? Security is not bad, security work and security work are close relatives, are an important part of public security work. I can play my strengths in the security company. "

As the anxiety of dream became more and more obvious, she sighed deeply and said: "Zhao long, have you ever thought of my feeling when you are a security guard?"

I didn't answer, but I pulled Youmeng to her seat, held her shoulder and said, "Youmeng believe me, will you wait for me for half a year, when I have achieved something in the security industry, I will come back to marry you!"

with the shaking of Mengmeng's shoulder, I shook my hand away, even said: "cut, cut, I don't want to marry the security, no Zhao long, I tell you, if you really want to be a security guard, then we're all over. I don't know you Zhao long from dream. I wonder if you've been kicked by a donkey. Even if you're transferred, you can't find any job based on your prestige in the Swat Bureau. Why do you want to be a security guard? Is it playing pig and eating tiger? Is it fun? I'll tell you Zhao long, when you go to work as a security guard, you can't even support yourself with a little salary! "

maybe I'm a little relieved by the angry words of dream. From my heart, I am reluctant to part from the dream, but the task is coming, I have no other choice.

So I said to Youmeng, "since you say so, then I will recognize you."

"What do you think?" said Yu Meng

I took a cigarette again, and only half a day later I said, "you are your security advisor, I am my security guard, and we go our own ways. We have nothing to do with each other."

When I say these words, my heart is dripping blood. How can I bear to be separated from my dear by dreams? But now, do I have any other choice? As a soldier, as the executor of this special task, I have no choice but to be chosen.

The tears of dream came out of her eyes. She couldn't believe what I said. She stood up tremblingly in her seat. Two lines of tears slipped across her cheeks and asked sadly, "what do you say, Zhao long? You -- you're breaking up with me, aren't you? "

I pretended to be firm and said, "yes. Maybe it's the best choice for you and me. "

Tears across the corner of her mouth, from the mood of dreams to the top of her grief, she asked in a quiet voice: "you don't love me, do you? Have you changed your mind? "

I am silent, in fact, my heart has already begun to cry.

I want to cry, but I can't cry; I want to laugh, but I can't laugh.

Ask heaven, who can understand my mood at the moment?

I don't know how to answer you dream. I'm just silent, but I answer you repeatedly in my heart: dear, how can I not love you, and how can I change my heart? I will always love you, all my life, all my life.

However, I am about to enter a dangerous situation and accept such a task. How can I explain it to you?

Seeing that I was silent and shaking my arm desperately, the crying became more and more intense, she said wrongly: "Zhao long, you talk, do you not love me, do you change your heart? I want you to tell me personally. "

From dream never so sad, see her this sad appearance, I don't know what to do. I really want to hold her in my arms and tell her what I have in my heart. But I can't. The sudden task has determined that we must endure a period of separation, even pain. I can't let her be a security guard for me, can I?

I wanted to comfort her, but I didn't. "If you can wait for me for a year, and wait for me to make it in the security industry, then we still have hope," I forced my heart's love and pretended to be indifferent

From the dream to ask: "why, why must we separate, why? Zhao long, if you have to retire, you can work in the Ministry of public security. We have a house in Beijing, and we can still stay together. Why do you have to say these unlucky words? I really don't understand what happened. Why do you have to choose to change careers? Why do you have to be a security guard? If it's really because of itafini and them, I can go to my father for a theory. I don't believe it, because it's going to arrange you to change careers. It's unfair! "

I've never seen a dream beg me so passionately. Her face has never been so sad.

But I still pretended to be strong: "it's up to me to change careers. It's not related to the director, nor to miss itafinli."

After listening to the dream for a long time, I was silent and said half a word for half a day.

I took another cigarette and was about to light it when dream suddenly grabbed my hand and said, "Zhao long, you must have something, you must have something. This is certainly not your own idea, I don't believe you will become so fast, so fast. Tell you the truth, what happened and what happened? "

"It's OK," I snapped Despite the opposition of Youmeng, I forced a cigarette and let nicotine fight back and forth in my lungs. Maybe this stimulation can calm my complicated mood for a while.

I understand that what I have to do now is similar to undercover work. Before that, the special security bureau of the central government rarely took over similar work, which is the responsibility of the public security system. But at this time, the special security bureau sent me into the security company. If the TL organization called by the director general is too powerful or has a major threat to the central director, this kind of thing would not happen at all. I know the difficulty of this work, so I don't want to involve Youmeng. The more frequent I interact with Youmeng during this period, the greater the risk factor of Youmeng. For the sake of my dear ones, I would rather choose to be separated from her for a period of time, even if she misunderstands me and hates me. As long as she is safe, I will admit more pain.

From the dream looked up at me, straight at my eyes, asked: "I want you to tell me, you say."

I asked, "what do you say?"

"Do you still love me?" said Yu Meng

I forced the tears in my eyes not to overflow and said, "I want to postpone this love to you for a while, and I will love you even more when I do something in the security company."

I can only reply to her with such a vague and profound sentence.

From the dream to ask: "then you now? Don't love me now? "

I am still silent, she is still waiting for an answer, but I dare not tell her the real answer.

After that, we were silent for a long time, looking at me quietly from the dream, thinking about something in our hearts.

It wasn't until ten minutes later that Yumeng broke the silence again. He plucked up his courage and asked: "Zhao long, if I join you in changing careers and going to the security company, will you abandon me I've figured out that even if I go begging for food, I will follow you. I can't live without you, and we will be together forever! "

once again, the eyes of dreams are filled with tears.

She even took the initiative to lean over and hold me tight.

But I pushed her away and said, "don't be silly. If you do that, we have no hope. "

Sobbing from dream to heaven: "what's the matter? What's the matter? Zhao long, I'm sorry for your dream. I want you to abandon me like this? I usually have something wrong I can change. I know I'm headstrong and I'm stubborn. I can change everything I just hope you don't abandon me... "

Looking at the painful appearance of Yumeng, I frowned and even felt the urge to back out. I want to quit this mission, do not let the beloved so painful.

But do I have another choice?

State affairs and children's personal feelings never seem to reach a consensus. If we take into account the state and the collective, we cannot take into account the family and love.

I'm a person, just a person. In the face of this situation, I feel like a knife. I want to wipe dry tears for the dream, I want to give her a loving hug, I want to tell her that I will love her all my life, this life will never change. But is it possible?

Sometimes, choose to break up, in fact, because of deep love.

"I said:" OK by dream, go back

"Is this your answer?" asked the dream? A word of "go back" will send me, won't it? Zhao long, I'll tell you that falling in love with you is the biggest misunderstanding in my life. I've been thinking about our marriage these days. I think we can be together forever after marriage But I didn't expect that it would be such a result. You abandoned me, I don't blame you, I won't beg for mercy, some