Chapter 992

A lot of grievances, a lot of pain, hidden in the heart, very uncomfortable.

No matter how strong you are, you need to vent and comfort. I am no exception.

What's more, I haven't got rid of the role of alcohol yet. Under the repeated questioning of Jinling, I finally told her about Yumeng with some reservation.

When telling these thoughts and past events to Jinling, I feel like there is a big fire burning in my body; there is a dull resentment and anger, which is frantically vented.

After hearing it, Jinling was shocked to some extent.

But she still tried to explain for the dream, Jinling said: "I think there must be a misunderstanding between you and Youmeng, there must be. I've been in touch with Youmeng. She is not a girl in general. It's impossible. It's impossible to have any improper relationship with a foreigner! "

I wryly smiled: "I didn't believe it before, but it didn't happen? That Yankee, with you dream every day. I think he already lives in you's house. Is this normal? In this world, anything can happen. Reality, it's a lot of fun. "

Jinling took my hand and said, "there must be a misunderstanding between you. In this way, I'll help you find Youmeng and see if you can - "br >

I interrupted her:" no need! Why bother yourself! "

I took a cigarette and took a deep breath.

The golden bell leaned thoughtfully on my shoulder, tentatively stretched out a thin hand and rubbed it on my chest, as if to expel the fire in my heart.

I sighed hard and looked at the beautiful golden bell around me. Under the catalysis of alcohol, an evil idea suddenly occupied my mind.

I was scared by myself!

I even thought: since you dream is unjust to me, why should I still think about her feelings everywhere?

I'm going to pay for it! She carries me on her back and flirts with manbenrui, so I carry her on my back and play with other women. Why should I pretend to be such a gentleman and keep in mind? Why should I keep in mind that I will never betray love when I am dealing with other women?

Is this a kind of abnormal revenge?

As soon as this idea came out, the golden bell beside me became the victim of my revenge idea.

To be exact, I have been hurt by love.

I'm going to crash!

In fact, all the truth is beyond my imagination!

I admit, a lot of times, I am very extreme. Especially for feelings, lack of reason. But in the face of the betrayal from the dream, I really can't stand it anymore.

I'm tired. I'm really tired. Since I accepted the arrangement of the director general and entered the security company, it was doomed that all this happened. It was doomed that there would be more and more estrangement and estrangement between me and Youmeng.

I regard the dream as the whole of my love, and I have even secretly drawn everything in the future, including marriage and family. I think we will work together for a lifetime and be together forever. But the appearance of mambenrui has brought me the biggest humiliation ever. A lot of times, when a love that you 100% trust appears a crack, you will be unable to undertake, unable to face. I even feel that there are some mental disorders, confusion in my mind, and thousands of imagination constantly emerge, and they have turned into painful elements that torment me, making me feel like a knife.

The golden bell in front of us is like a harbor for temporary shelter. I am drenched in love with ice and water, but the golden bell is like a big tree to keep out the wind and rain, always comforting me and persuading me. The huge contrast makes me both moved and impulsive.

I believe that the alcohol in my body is still playing a role. Between the drunk and hazy eyes, the beautiful body of Jinling seems to release thousands of genes of temptation, urging me to have evil thoughts.

This evil idea defeated all my senses in a flash, and became more and more clear.

I grabbed Jinling's hand. Jinling was stunned. He looked at me, and his hand retreated involuntarily.

I insisted to increase the strength, put her hand on his thigh, gently knead. For a while I thought I was dirty, but my heart was clear.

In fact, my eyes are always wet.

Jinling did not draw back, but looked at me timidly and bit his lips.

I reached over her shoulders and moved my butt closer to her. That kind of light jasmine fragrance, catalysed my evil desire as a normal man.

As a man, I used to have strong immunity to beautiful women. But after suffering from emotional trauma, this immunity almost weakened to zero. Why do I need to keep pure again for that negative dream? Why should I bear the brunt of her humiliation?

Jinling is very agreeable. She is happy to lean on my arm, hand in hand with me, and enjoy this hard-earned ambiguity in a silent atmosphere.

I hugged her tighter and felt her body soft and elastic. Jinling often goes to the lady's club for recreation, so she has good health care, tender skin and graceful figure. She is very good at make-up, and also understands the use of perfume. When she was dressed in a beautiful country, she could dress casually.

I had a hiccup of wine, and the golden bell smiled and fanned the wind with his hands. He complained, "how can the wine taste so strong? You big drunk! "

I smiled and said, "men don't drink, they walk in the world for nothing."

Jinling reached over my shoulder and kneaded it, saying, "drinking hurts you."

I said, "drinking hurts you, not drinking, sad. Wine is a poison to wear intestines and a magic weapon to relieve worries. "

Jinling said with a smile, "you can say it! You are really a hundred poems about Libai fighting wine! Make excuses and do the same! "

I laughed and speechless, but Jinling held his head up and said, "but I think Li Bai is worse than you. You are better than Li Bai! "

I said in amazement, "satirize me, right? Li Bai is a great poet. It's spread from ancient times. It's famous for thousands of generations. I'm just a little security guard, how can I compare with others! "

The golden bell waved a finger and said, "wrong! Li Bai is a scholar at best, but you are both literati and martial. You are much better than Li Bai or Du Fu! "

I pinched my nose and smiled, "don't praise me, what can I do if I'm proud."

"It's cool," said the golden bell. Anyway, in my heart, you are the best! "

"How excellent?" I asked with a smile

"Excellent," said the golden bell, "can't be described as excellent!"

I gently scratched on Jinling's face: "just your sweet mouth! I didn't find out how good I was! "

Jinling stressed: "excellent! Anyway, in my heart, you are the first! Irreplaceable first! You gave me all my life! "

I was shocked: "what a joke! Your parents gave you your life. "

"My parents gave me life, but you kept my life," said the golden bell. These times, without you, I would have gone to see Chairman Mao! Besides, you have saved me three times, just three times! "

I said, "not so much. Three times, two times, it doesn't count. "

Jinling chuckled and slapped me on the chest: "bad, dead! Dislike! "

In her eyes, I once again realized the deep love of this woman for me. I wonder how can I, Zhao long, let Jinling care for me so much?

After a brief psychological struggle, I slowly lifted her chin.

Her eyes blinked two times, looking at me, a little shy on the cheeks, a little red cheeks, so beautiful and lovely.

Golden Bell gently shook his head: "how, want to take advantage of me?"

I bit my teeth and said with awe: "occupy, occupy what?" I bent my head and kissed her on the forehead.

Jingling smacked her tongue, looked at me stupidly, and stroked her forehead with her hand: "smoke, wine. It's thick. "

As soon as I smile, I just take out a cigarette from my pocket with one hand and pick it up.

But the golden bell snatched the cigarette from my mouth and put it on the tea table.

I frowned at her. "What for?"

Jinling looked at me unkindly. Suddenly, he rushed up with a thunderbolt and rushed into my arms.

I was caught off guard, but she just sat on my lap and kissed me crazily.

My whole body, completely destroyed by her. There is a certain abnormal psychology of me. The psychological defense line suddenly collapses, and the flood of breaking the dike pours out.

I hugged her tightly, and for the first time I played the role of an unruly teenager. I try to be as crazy as she is, try to use this crazy impulse to cover up the pain in my heart, to revenge the derailment of my dream

To be exact, I did it! At least, at this moment, I am excited! I was led down the mountain like a tiger by the gallop of the golden bell. The blood of my body, the passion of expansion, and the desire of being in love all poured out and spewed.

I want to completely release myself, all the pressure, all the pain!

I hold Jinling tightly, and I find unprecedented passion in her. Women are always the temptation that men can't resist. What's more, they are such excellent women as Jinling.

After the kiss, the golden bell lifted his head lightly, looked at me happily and examined me.

Jinling said with a smile: "you are, you are disorderly after drinking - disorderly after drinking!"

I reached out and stroked her hair and corrected, "I'm drunk!" I almost rudely leaned over her body and repeated the crazy kiss to explain my crazy nature.

At this moment, I no longer have distractions. My heart, has quietly accepted the fact, accepted this absurd way of revenge. I want to use the way of possessing a woman to revenge the derailment of my dream and to vent my disappointment and downfall in love.

If I don't drink twice in a row today, if the amount of alcohol I drink in the evening is not three bottles but two bottles, if it doesn't happen downstairs by the director general If I still keep a 10% sense, I will never do this kind of harm to the golden bell today!

But in fact, I have lost my mind since the moment of killing manbenrui and Zhang dengqiang! My young heart can stand any physical trauma, any bloodbath, and the only thing I can't stand is the betrayal of my dream.