Chapter 997

You used to ask me why I mentioned Xinjie every time I called you. Now I tell you, Xinjie is a girl who can hold hands with you for a lifetime. She is my sustenance and the continuation of my life. I know that I can't fulfill my promise to accompany you through this life, so I try to dilute your feelings for me in this way, and transfer your feelings for me to heart cleaning. She is very beautiful and kind, and she adores you very much. The reason why I entrusted her to you is that I want you to be together, forget me and everything about me. Xinjie is more beautiful than me, more educated and more knowledgeable than me. I think you will have some feelings for her along with the association, so as to forget me. When I leave this world, you still have the heart to be clean to accompany, like this, I am at ease, at ease. I know you are a good man who regards feelings as life. You can see it from your love for Zhao Jie. So I don't want to let my leaving lead to your excessive sadness and grief. Heart clean is the person that I choose to replace me for you. If you believe me, if you still care about me, then help me to take good care of her and give her a lifetime of happiness. In this way, I am in peace under the nine springs.

This request, I hope you can cash it for me. This is my request to you, and the only thing I can do for you. I know Xinjie, Xinjie also knows me, she knows my mind, and she is willing to help me take care of you for a lifetime.

By the way, I'll explain to you manborn. I know you have been confused and even misunderstood him, and I dare not tell you the truth. In fact, mambenrui is an expert my father invited from the United States. He is with me to pay attention to my illness at any time. It was because of him that I was able to save my life several times in case of sudden illness. I appreciate this American friend. I used to be biased against Americans, just like you, against Americans and Japanese. But it was like the Communist Party met Bethune in the Anti Japanese war. He didn't care about personal gain or loss, and didn't even ask for a penny to stay by my side to help me resist the disease. I was moved and admired him. It's just that you misunderstood him all the time, even hit him - you misunderstood him. Of course, I can't blame you. I know that you care. I'm afraid that I will be robbed by others. Although I look worried, I'm very happy. Because I can see that you love me and care about me.

Just, I don't have that life from dream, no time to return your love to me. I am very regretful, but also secretly complained about the injustice of heaven. How painful it is not to be with the one you love! But I have no way. I can't control my own destiny. I can't. Do you remember that time when I went to Wangjing, I wanted to give my body to you, not because I was frivolous, but because I was afraid that I would never have a chance in my life. I love you. I love you. I'm willing to give everything for you. Although this idea did not succeed, I felt your love for me Dear Zhao long, I really don't want to lose you.

Dear Zhao long, I have several concerns when I go. The biggest concern is you and Xinjie. You are still young and have a long way to go. Now you are impulsive. Remember to change your temper and don't get angry easily. Besides, smoking and drinking should be reduced as much as possible. If you can give up smoking and drinking, it will hurt you. I give you my heart. You should take good care of her. She is a simple and kind girl. You should love her as you love me. Don't bully her. I believe that you will be very happy together. My other concern, of course, is my parents. They will be very sad after losing me as a child. If you and Xinjie have time, they can help me to be filial, OK?

In a word, when I write down this text, I have been in tears. I know that my time is running out, and I can't leave anything for you. I can only write this pale text and let Xinjie pass it on to you when I close my eyes. Please forgive me for keeping it from you all the time. I'm really afraid that you will not think about it.

Dear Zhao long, I hope you will take every step well in the future. I will always pray for you and bless you.

My biggest regret in this life is that I failed to be your bride. If there is an afterlife, I will be your bride, OK?

-- love your dreams.

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Tears wet the letter, my hands tremble, tremble.

How could this happen? How could this happen?

This thunderbolt is too sudden. As if I could see, from the front of the dream to me, the painful confession.

I'm almost crazy. I don't think it's true. It must not be. Hold this letter, it's heavy enough. My heart is boiling and my knife is cutting.

When did Cheng Xinjie come over, she gently grabbed my hand and whispered, "brother in law, are you crying? Brother in law, I knew you would cry, and I didn't want to make you sad. But I don't want to cheat you. I always feel guilty. You and my dream sister have suffered too much... "

I forcibly controlled my mood, reached out and clapped Cheng Xinjie's hand, pretending to be calm: "when is this letter from dream to you?"

Cheng Xinjie said hesitantly, "the other day, just the other day. She cried so much that we all cried. I tried to persuade her to tell you the truth, but she refused. She said it would hurt you more. So she gave this letter to me, so that I could give it to you after her -- after what, after what, when your mood is stable. Brother in law, no matter what sister Mengmeng does, she is thinking for you, and she is thinking for you! "

I sobbed one by one: "but she kept it from me like this, which is the biggest harm to me! Why is it so, Xinjie, you tell me, why is it so? "

Cheng Xinjie shakes her head: "brother in law, God is not fair, God is not fair!"

I carefully rolled up the letter, put it in my hand, and stroked Xinjie to ask, "Xinjie, tell me, where is your sister now?"

Cheng Xinjie measured it again and again and said: "she is, she is, should be in Chunhua hospital. She's been there, actually. Mambenrui, as a specially invited expert of the hospital, stands by sister Mengmeng and watches her illness at any time to prevent emergencies. "

I feel dizzy and can't accept the fact that this is coming. I almost numb to bite the lips, until the bite out of the blood, I did not even notice.

Cheng Xinjie looked at me in amazement and shouted: "brother in law, your mouth, how is your mouth bleeding? What's the matter? " She hurriedly took out a handkerchief and raised her hand to wipe the corner of my mouth.

But she can wipe off the blood at the corner of my mouth, but not the pain in my heart.

I even secretly complained about Youmeng. She kept me in the dark all the time. If I had known this before, I would not have been in charge of TL organization and special tasks. As long as I was in charge of Youmeng, I would have accompanied Youmeng to finish the last journey of her life.

Or, life has miracles! There are miracles everywhere in the world. I don't believe that the kind and beautiful angel of the world will be taken away by the incurable disease!

Impossible, absolutely impossible!

It is also at this time that I understand a lot of truth. I blame myself very much, manborn.

It's me who even doubted that the dream is coming out of the wall!!!

I'm wrong! My mistake is too deep! Just today, just yesterday, just at Jinling's house, I even want to use that dirty way to revenge Youmeng!

I'm not a man, I'm a beast! I have defiled the beauty of love, I have defiled the sanctity of dreams. I'm a villain, I'm a jerk! I cursed myself again and again in my heart. I could not help but raise my hand and slap myself in the face!

The crisp slap on the face does not hurt. It hurts.

I punished myself in this way. Cheng Xinjie stopped me in a daze after seeing this. "What are you doing, brother-in-law? What are you doing? If I had known you would, I would have killed me and I would not have told you that! Brother in law, will you calm down? If sister Mengmeng knew it, she would be very sad, she would - "

my tears, always surging. I looked at Cheng Xinjie and asked again like a lost soul: "tell me, Xinjie, how many days can your sister live?"

Cheng Xinjie was stunned for a moment, and said, "my dream sister she -- the doctor said, the doctor said a few days ago, at most, at most one month!"

I suddenly collapsed: "what, a month, a month?"

I suddenly felt like there were thousands of little insects biting in my head.

Cheng Xinjie took my hand and begged: "brother in law, don't be excited, don't be excited, OK? You listen to me, listen to me! "

I smile like a fool.

Cheng Xinjie shook my arm: "brother in law, don't scare me, don't scare me, OK? It's all my fault. I shouldn't -- "

I said almost calmly," it's nothing to do with you. It's none of your business. Thank you for telling me that! "

Cheng Xinjie sighed and said: "brother in law, you should calm down. I know you can't bear this fact at once. Long pain is better than short pain. I'll tell you this. I hope you don't misunderstand sister Mengmeng any more. She has always loved you! I don't want to see sister Mengmeng suffer from love again. It's so cruel. "

"But I didn't fulfill my duty as a lover," I said with a wry smile. I am not a man, not a man! " Thinking of the ambiguity between Jinling and Jinling, I feel shameless and angry. I don't know how I can vent my pain and punish my big mistake at this moment.

I lingered for a few times, clenched my fist, and roared up to the sky.

At this time, I was more impulsive than drunk.

Cheng Xinjie comforts me constantly, but how can my heart be calm?

After calming down a little, I said to Cheng Xinjie, "go, get on the bus. Go back to find your dream sister! "