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At the moment, I really didn't know how to respond to this, much less explain it to her. As long as it's painful, it's better than short. For You Meng's sake, I have to be ruthless, and temporarily be separated from her for a period of time. Otherwise, You Meng would definitely be unlucky with this mission, and might even cause a ruckus at Director You's place.

So, I said to You Meng on the phone, "How about this, You Meng, I'm at the Chuanxin Hotel on Qing He Road right now, hurry up and drive over here."

You Meng said: "Alright, I will be there immediately."

You Meng snorted: "Even if you want to change careers, you don't need to choose to become a security guard right?"

I asked, "What happened to the security guards?" Security is also good, security and security work is a close relative, is an important part of the public security work. I am able to display my strengths in Security Company. "

You Meng's anxiety became more and more obvious. She let out a deep sigh and said, "Zhao Long, have you ever thought about how I feel when you went to be a security guard?"

I didn't answer, but pulled You Meng onto her seat and supported her shoulders as I said, "Does You Meng believe in me? Wait for half a year, when I accomplish something in Security sector, I will come back to marry you!"

You Meng's shoulder shook as he shook my hand away, and said repeatedly, "Tsk, tsk, I don't want to marry a security guard, I don't want to … Zhao Long, let me tell you, if you really go and become a security guard, then we are completely finished. I, You Meng will never know you again, Zhao Long! I really doubt if your brain has been kicked by a donkey. Even if you have changed careers, with your prestige in Secret Service, what kind of job aren't you able to find? Why did you have to become a security guard? Was he pretending to be a pig to eat the tiger? Is it fun? I'm telling you, Zhao Long, if you go and become a security guard, you won't even be able to support yourself with that little bit of salary! "

Maybe when You Meng said these angry words, she actually made me feel somewhat gratified. Looking at it from the bottom of my heart, I am unwilling to part with You Meng, but the mission is at hand, I have no other choice.

Therefore, I said to You Meng, "Since you say that, then, I'll take it."

You Meng was stunned: "What do you know?"

I took another cigarette and said after a long while, "You will be your staff officer and I will be my security guard. We will each take our own route, it has nothing to do with each other."

As I said these words, my heart was bleeding. How could I bear to be separated from my beloved You Meng? But at this moment, do I have any other choice? As a soldier, as the executor of this special task, I have no choice but to choose.

You Meng's tears flowed out of her eyes. She seemed to not dare to believe what I just said as she stood up shakily from her seat. Two streams of tears rolled down her face as she sobbed, "Zhao Long, what did you say? You — you're going to break up with me, aren't you? "

I pretended to be resolute. "Yes." "Perhaps this is the best choice for you and me."

Tears rolled down the corner of her mouth. You Meng's emotions had reached the peak of her grief as she asked in an exceptionally calm voice, "You don't love me anymore, right? Did you change your mind? "

I was silent, but I was already beginning to cry.

I wanted to cry, but I couldn't; I wanted to laugh, but I couldn't.

Asked the heavens, who can understand my feelings right now?

I didn't know how to answer You Meng. I just kept quiet, but in my heart, I kept repeating the words: Darling, how can I not love you? How can I change my mind? I will always love you deeply. I will never change for the rest of my life.

However, I am about to step into a dangerous situation and accept this mission. How can I explain it to you clearly?

Seeing that I was silent, You Meng shook my arm with all her might, and the crying sound became more and more intense, she said in an aggrieved tone: "Zhao Long, speak, speak, do you not love me anymore? I want you to tell me yourself. "

You Meng had never felt so hurt before. Looking at her sorrowful expression, I didn't know what to do. I wanted to take her in my arms and pour my heart out to her. But I can't. The sudden arrival of the mission has determined that we must endure a period of separation, even pain. I can't possibly let her become a security guard in Security Company for me, right?

I tried to comfort her, but I couldn't. "If you can wait for me for a year and wait for me to rise above the rest of the security industry, then we still have hope," I said.

You Meng retorted, "Why? Why must we split up? Zhao Long, if you really want to retire, then you can just enter the Ministry of Public Security to work. We already have a house in Beijing, so we can still be together. Why do you have to say these ominous things? I really don't understand what's going on. Why must you choose to change your career, why must you become a security guard, and if it's really because of Ita Finley and the others, then I can go and find my dad for a reason. I don't believe it, because I have to arrange for you to change your career.

I have never seen You Meng so emotionally pleading with me for help. Her face had never shown such an emotional expression either.

But I still pretended to be strong and said, "I made the decision to change jobs, it has nothing to do with the Director You, and it has nothing to do with Miss Ita Finley."

After You Meng heard this, she remained silent for a long time. She did not say anything for a long time.

I took another cigarette. Just as I was about to light it up, You Meng suddenly grabbed onto my hand and said, "Zhao Long, there must be something wrong. This is certainly not your own idea. I don't believe you can become so fast, so fast. "Tell me honestly, what exactly happened? What exactly happened?"

I sternly replied, "It's fine." Ignoring You Meng's objection, I forcefully lit a cigarette and let the nicotine flow back and forth in my lungs. Perhaps this kind of stimulation could calm my complicated feelings for the time being.

Before this, Central Service rarely took on any of the similar jobs, as these are all the duties of a Public security system. But now, Secret Service has sent me into the Security Company, if it wasn't for the fact that Director You's so-called TL organization is too powerful or is a huge threat to the Central Chieftain, such a thing wouldn't have happened. I know how dangerous this task is, so I do not want to implicate You Meng even more. During this period of time, the more I interact with You Meng, the more danger You Meng will face. For the sake of my beloved, I would rather choose to be separated from her for a period of time, even if she misunderstood me and hated me. As long as she was safe, no matter how much pain she suffered, I would accept it.

You Meng looked up at me and stared into my eyes. "I want you to personally tell me what to do."

"Say what?" I asked.

You Meng said: "Do you still love me?"

I forced the tears in my eyes to not spill. "I want to delay this love for you for a period of time. After I do something in Security Company, I will love you even more."

I could only reply her with this vague and profound sentence.

You Meng retorted, "What about you now? You don't love me now? "

She was still waiting for an answer, but I didn't dare tell her the truth.

After that, we stayed silent for a long time. You Meng looked at me quietly as if she was thinking about something.

Only after ten minutes did You Meng break the silence and gathered up the courage to ask, "Zhao Long, if I change jobs with you and go to Security Company together, would you abandon me … "I've thought it through. Even if I were to beg for food, I want to follow you. I can't live without you. We must be together forever!"

You Meng's eyes were once again filled with tears.

She even took the initiative to move closer to me, to hug me tightly.

But I pushed her away and said, "Don't be silly. If you do that, we have even less hope. "

You Meng sobbed towards the sky: "What exactly happened here, what exactly happened here? Zhao Long, I, You Meng, how am I sorry to have you abandon me like this? I usually do what is wrong I can change, I know I am willful I am stubborn, I can change... "I just hope that you won't abandon me …"

Looking at You Meng's painful expression, I frowned, I even had the impulse to retreat. I want to quit this mission and not let my loved one suffer so much.

But what choice did I have?

The affairs of the country and the affairs of the children never seemed to be the same. In consideration of the country and the collective, it is impossible to take account of the small family and love.

I'm a person, too, just a person. In the face of such a situation, my heart felt like a knife had been stabbed through it. I want to wipe the tears off You Meng's face. I want to give her a deep hug. I want to tell her that I will love her for my entire life. But was that possible?

Sometimes, he chose to break up because of his deep love for her.

I said, "Alright, You Meng, let's go back."

You Meng asked, "Is this your answer? You're sending me away with just a 'go back', aren't you? Zhao Long, let me tell you, falling in love with you is the biggest misunderstanding in my life. These days, I have to think about our marriage. But I didn't expect this to happen. You abandoned me, so I won't blame you, and I won't waddle my tail to beg for mercy anymore. Sometimes, I find that knowing someone is also a very painful thing, so take care of yourself. "