171 And drown.

... Why am I here...?

With a head that doesn't turn well, fuzz and doubt are the only ones on my mind. No, I can't even think with my blurry head.

When I regain consciousness with my distorted vision, I realize I've been stuck at the table.

In front of us many people seemed to drink and make noise with pleasure. The women are dyeing their cheeks and staring into my face. The smell of all kinds of alcohol touched my nose, and the smell alone made me sleep fine now.

"Hey...? Brother, if they left you, why don't you have a drink with us?

"Pfft... I've been doing that since I got here, but I wonder how crazy I've been by the time I got here.

"Gahahahahahahahaha! Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go. Few people know. They've wasted time wanting a drink in a hidden tavern. When I brought them in, I drank as much as I could. I'm sick of it!"

"Hey, let me entertain you as much as I want. Ah good! They left me so much money for all the people in this tavern tonight!"

"Thanks to you, this money is here. We can drink all we want! Close the store so we don't lose any more credit!

"This idiot! It's my store. My store... I don't know what else to do? You're only special tonight!

"Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, and the voices of so many people rocked the air.

... Oh... the people.

The voice of the people I wanted smiled... so close.

Yeah, to them. I...

I missed you.

I finally saw him, and when I realized it was a dangerous desire, the tears told me.

Good, I saw you last. Before I leave the country, I...

Me...?

I don't know, I feel like I'm forgetting something important.

Sleeping head doesn't work. My vision is blurred with tears and booze, and only light and dark comes in with information. I put my strength into my arms on the table trying to lift my face with it on the table, but my arms just trembled in small pieces without getting in well. My body doesn't work at all with my body hanging neatly on the table.

The noisy voice of the people rings in his head like a tinnitus, swallowing even thoughts.

Laughter, noise, it's all the voice of the people. Father said.... telling me to be the king I want. To them, to father, to king, to me, to be.

'You must not descend under the castle.

…

I don't know, some word on my head.

That's the word someone told me one day.

'Last day, especially.

Last day...?... what is that...? Yeah, why would I ever stop going under the castle... that...?... Why am I here...

Thoughts become disjointed and unbridled. It also reminds me of someone's words repeatedly in the meantime as if my head sounded an alarm.

'You lose everything there.

Everything...?

Subete... all... all... subete...

What more do I lose... what?

I'm already missing royalties, kings, princes, fiancées, and people.

When the women seem to suffer, they take their jackets off me because I can't move. The lit body calms down with a little cold air. Breathing is easier than just now. I wanted to thank you, but my tongue didn't turn at all. I could only groan, and stroked my head over my hat that the woman was cute.

He drowned me in a liquor store the next morning.

Tavern......?... Oh here it is.

To booze... well, am I drunk... I've never been drunk before.

A woman opened the button on my chest shirt this time. The feeling of two or three being removed makes breathing even easier.

The better ventilation and cooler has made me feel more comfortable again. I close my eyes again as I slam against the table. I'm sure this is a dream. It's just comfortable and convenient for me...

"We lose even the trust from many people and kings.

He said.

All of a sudden, the chill ran to the body that should have been on fire.

Lose the trust... ⁉ ⁉

I don't like that, that's all.

Losing the trust of your father, your people...

The current situation and last minute memories remained bleak, and even that fear prevailed. Fear cools the thought, a pulsating heart sends blood to the head and awakens the eyes.

Yet my body, my mouth, doesn't move.

My vision was still blurred when I said I woke up, and I couldn't even move my half-open eyes. She left her body at the table and took off her clothes while the women were at it. I can't move at all. I did my best just to change my face a little bit. It's like, it's not my body.

... Oh... I tore it.

Thoughts began to work decently, and only regret dominated the body because of alcohol or because of a body that could not move.

So much so that Pride advised me.

She was right in her prophecy.

I'm drowning in a liquor store. [M] Then I'm sure she's right about what happens after this.

I lose everything.

Trust from the Father, trust from the people, everything.

First, I want to die like this.

It exposes the royal shame, doesn't even properly connect with Friesia,... and I'm sure it hurts about pride as well.

He said he cared about me almost as much as he cared about me.

One of me ruins everything. [M]

Because of that, even my country is in a bad position.

The people's lives, the corners of trade, and the alliance's common policies, and the people's lives were supposed to be richer, but peace as it were, trade negotiations, distribution, … war.

My chest was now tightened to the smile of the people in front of me.

Am I even taking away the smiles of these people? [M]

"Hey, let's take your hat off for once, too.

A woman's voice plunders her ears again. It looks hot, and most importantly, I'd like to see your face properly.

No, I come down to the castle frequently, and the people know my face. If they take my hat, I'm sure they'll find out who I am.

Lose, he said.

Her words were repeated over and over in her head.

A woman's finger picks my hat. The hat floated a little and the hair overflowed from the hat first. Beautiful hair, and a woman compliments me. Slowly as it is, the hat is slowly removed.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!

Somebody, someone...

I can put my strength into my hands and feet to fight it, but I still can't move just because I tremble into small pieces. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

Moments, my vision stained dark.

My vision... no, the whole tavern was in the dark. As soon as that happens, the screams of the woman who was trying to take my hat off mix with the ringing of the people in the liquor store. "What the hell is going on?" "Hey! The lights are... ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉ ⁉; ⁉ I can't see... what the hell? When did this happen?" and the people's ringing and bewildering voices spread throughout the store. The women around me are also anxiously leaking their voices. It was then.

"Shh.... it was a pretty good booze, huh? A treat."

Footsteps walking straight to me in the dark.

And suddenly my body floated with the voice of an unfamiliar man. As it were, he was probably in charge. A man carries my irresistible body as it is.

In the dark, he bumps into the woman who was around me, and every time he screams, "Who?" "Car⁉"

In a space where you can't see anything with your eyes open, only the man in charge of me is going straight somewhere. Ki... and I heard the door open, and after ordering someone to "get out first," the man also went outside. My hair runs out into the outside wind. Pathan, laughter leaked from the man in charge of me at the same time as the door closed.

"Hyahahahahahaha... I didn't know it was going to be another crowd-catching impersonation.

Fun, huh? To the man who laughs, I don't know anything anymore and my consciousness retreated again.

... I still wonder if I'm having any bad dreams. Yes... with the thought.