1039 What is the trade prince's dream?

"... it's... it's... it's... it's... it's not..."

... where is this place?

A space that aggregates blurriness and the world's whites.This may be the first time I've felt so white and so close to nothing.Whiter than the sunlight seen during the voyage, but not dazzling.

I don't know what I've been doing until now.

Ask yourself if your memory is certain.His name is Leon Adonis Coronaria. The First Prince of the Kingdom of Anemone.....

"I... I... I... I... I... I can't..."

I hear someone calling.... whoever.

I've heard of it, it's close and far away.I looked around my neck, but nothing was white and I couldn't find it right away.

I didn't hear back from anyone.It's a weak voice that you can hear when you clear your ears.I thought I might be trapped here and weakened, but I also stopped breathing and looked for the Lord of the Voice.

Looking back, I didn't realize there was someone there.No matter how many times I called, I didn't know if I had touched my mind and walked in.Young people who bend in and tremble with their arms crossed to hug themselves are small in the distance, but actually seem tall.I reached out to the shoulders of a young man who turned his back on me, trembling slightly.

"I can't believe I'm away from Anemone..."

... it stopped.

It solidifies on the brink of touching it perfectly, and if I keep paying attention, I pull my hand.

I think he sounds like someone I know very well. [M]Pull a step before touching him, pointing his round back and pale hair, trembling with a shuddering voice.I doubt my sanity and reality more than he does, and I have no words. [M]

Checking your face is easy.Just grab your shoulders and let them look back.And yet I couldn't help but hesitate to touch him with a hug. [M]

"No... no, no...I don't want to leave... I want to go to this country... "

He is now the only one who spits out in a cloudy voice.

I didn't even notice him standing behind me, and I didn't even have to think about when he was "when" he lamented like a child.

He trembled over and over again saying, "No," "I don't want to leave," and it was pretty late for my legs to move.An hour in a world without clocks.If not, I can't touch him, even if I want to reach out again and again.I don't think I should touch him here at all.

Instead, I slipped my feet one step at a time, and I was able to get to the front.Even though he is so close, he still doesn't notice at all.I know more than anyone else how he feels mourning similar words. [M]It makes no sense to cut off words with tears and swallowing.

"No way... what are you doing...?"

"..." I will... "" the kingdom of Anemone "

"I have to leave Anemone... no..."

"Anyway, I'm a slave."

You can be a slave... I want to stay in Anemone...!... whoops... no!I, as a royal, did it for them. "

"To Freesia."

... the overlapping voices were different colors with the same voice.

Against me who shuts his mouth, he moans again. [M]No, I still try to stay away from Anemone while saying I don't want to leave.The appearance of repeating tears endlessly seemed different, and there was no sign of royalty except for costumes.There is no people who can count on him without dignity or domination, and without a shard of pride.

Who would want such a weak and pathetic prince to be king?

The same goes for the King of Freesia.Nothing as king.Just a weak kid.

"No... how could I just... be like this...?"

At the end, it was a biting, screaming voice.

Shortly afterwards, the tremors became larger and the body became smaller again.Until I look down at him, my face will be strong this time. [M]I've been aware of my distortions ever since.I realized that I didn't deserve it... and yet...I couldn't help but ask.

I couldn't bear to keep looking down, and I looked at him from the front with one knee on.Still not noticing me, he just keeps dropping.

"Eh... I tried... but it wasn't enough..."

"That's not true."

"I don't want to leave... I can't stay in Freesia..."

That's right.

No matter how much you say back, no matter how much you deny or affirm it, you won't notice.

The feeling of looking across the mirror makes my chest ache in the reality in front of me.I can't breathe while I grab it over my clothes.I want to touch him, but I don't want to.Because that's not me.

The most important fact cannot be told to him in front of him.I knew he was me, but I'm sure he wasn't me now.Nearly half of my head got cold when I thought it was the work of the special abilities.If you can't understand the words, it may be a kind of illusion even with special abilities.Well, let's figure out how to get out of here first.

Who was it...

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I couldn't afford to think about it with my muffled voice.

He held his restrained hand to his shoulder as long as he was careful.I look at him thirsty. [M]Having been able to touch him as natural, he raised his face again as natural and looked at me. [M]

The emerald eyes I saw must be as big as mine. [M]I saw the moment when a large grain overflowing from my wet, overflowing eyes fell.

It's too late to regret touching it.You can't leave him with me anymore.

He doesn't have anybody.

You haha......

There is not only a person who can be trusted, but also a person who can be called to help.

My face, which should have been distorted, was opened and turned towards me.All you have to do is overflow and fall like you've forgotten your tears.

I'm sure I look worse now.I know that my face is under pressure.

I touched him the same way as I touched my shoulder-gripping hand.Instead of stopping shaking, it's hard as a stone.The fact that there was no reaction just now seems to be a lie, and now it is nailed to my existence. [M]

Just like a twin, he lives in a different world from mine. [M]There is no one I can trust, no one I can count on.

At some point, I caught him in a seeped vision and hugged him instead of answering.I caught him with the hope that it would be a dream, not a past.

"Nh... it's okay..."

My arm trembled when I sang to him when the ice turned. [M]

My throat was as cloudy and dry as he was just now.If you put a lot of force into your eyelids, what was seeping through your eyes conveys to your cheeks.Still, I can't loosen these arms.Push from shoulder to fingertip and grab it in your arm.I just unilaterally pour words at him who can't make a sound in my presence. [M]

"It's okay... it's okay..."

I wonder if the pride of that day was like this.

I know how painful this man was and how he was about to be torn apart. [M]She was the only one who ever wanted to trust someone and gave me a frozen sun.

Lonely, sad, painful and painful.... I couldn't even use words like this.I'm sure he's more "human" than I was then.

I could only mourn inside my chest.He knows that he really always wanted to trust someone.

Instead of calling for help, I couldn't even ask for help.All I could do was accept that this was a royal duty.I think this feeling and emotions are filthy.... without even noticing the most important feeling.

"Eh... I hah... I have to go... for the kingdom of Anemone..."

"Yeah... I see, I have to go."

I have to see Pride.

Yes, I nod with my chest. [M]I can't tell him what the past might be.No matter how desperate I was, I wouldn't be there without that time and her.

I listened to his mourning again with all my strength.

"No... no, no... I can't see you anymore...!I want to see the people of Anemone as I have ever done...I can't even listen to them... I can't even see their faces... "

Ah, a, ahhhh... zero swallowing, squeezing your throat and swallowing as you squeeze your chin.

Can she be a merchant...?Even though I said... crops...? "

The boy told me a week ago.He smiled at me when I first boarded a merchant ship in the harbor.The waves of the ship, the smell of the wind and the taste of the tide sparkled my eyes.

The vegetables you provided me a few months ago were very delicious.In return, I was very happy to share the cooking method proposed by the castle cook.

They are still laughing in our country.

"Ah, my baby... maybe I won't see her anymore..."

It seems that there will already be three this year.

And it came to pass, when I called the name of the child whom I had not seen in three years, that it was filled without saying.She was a milk drinker held in her mother's arms, but now she stood on her feet without taking her hands off her.He showed his teeth and laughed that he was truly proud of his name.... whoo, why?

I can't believe I'm leaving Anemone...

Why am I so happy? [M]

No......

I even hope that you will never forget that feeling again.

Desperate for him, but insanely happy for me. [M]Meditating his first eye over his shoulders, he puts his cheeks on the shoulders that go up and down little by little.When he cries like a child, he hears me again. [M]

He finally turned his arm around my back and hooked his finger to find a place free from bumps. His temperature was a human fever.

"... it's okay. That's why we have to put up with it a little longer.... that way, I'm sure. "

Contrary to his moaning voice, my voice is faint and fragile. [M]

With his mouth close to his ear, he can still make a sound.I have a toothache that I can't talk about so much.

He was slightly pregnant with expectations.The tremor stops from him, who can only emit sound and stay away from my arm. [M]He listens to and accepts every word I say.I'm sure the emerald color will reflect me when I peek into my face. [M]

I want to say that you can be happy. [M]Meet pride, be saved, and raise everything you were supposed to drop.I am still in the kingdom of Anemone and descend into the castle as a matter of course.At this time, the right to inherit the first throne, which I should have already given up, is now here.

I don't know if all that was necessary for my life. [M]If I hadn't been lacking as a person from the beginning, I wouldn't have been betrayed by my younger brothers.... I never hurt Pride's name from the start.

If we stop him here before we meet Pride, we may be able to protect only her name.There is no stigma attached to the dissolution of an engagement.... but still.

"I'm sure. I'm sad and happy... because I can cry the most"

I can't tell you.

Never let go. I can't tell you the details.I want you to leave without knowing. [M]

I want you to be the only one in the world who made me cry the most, who taught me everything, and who revealed my wounds.

Please stay unaware of it.You don't even know the name of this heart and emotion until you're hurt and sad.I want to devote all my first time to touching and exposing her. [M]

His breath stops at my words. [M]He is so close that he keeps his ears shut.I'm sure my expression is as hard as I thought. [M]This is not the answer.

He brushes his back head with his fingers, flushes it, and strokes it down again with his hands around his back.I really wanted you to touch pride for the first time.But at the same time, my chest lights up a heartwarming heat that makes me feel everything that pride touched at that time.

I can't tell him anything because I'm happy now. [M]I will never let go, even if I have a way of discrediting Pride. [M]

─ It took me two years to grow up delicious!Enjoy!

Welcome back, Mr. Leon.Your Majesty was also waiting to return from the voyage.

- It's been a long time, Prince Leon.Thank you for your regular visit.My sister and Tiara told me that they enjoyed themselves very much.

─ Recently, I read the book under the castle.It was a romantic novel for women, but it was also folded into elements that men could enjoy.And Prince Leon.

─ Ah? I don't know what the difference is.If you want to hear it, drink with the Lord.

- Welcome, Leon. It's good to see you again today!

Because there's so much happiness here.

I want a future of pride and allies, and I really want to meet her.

You can never choose a future apart from the people of the kingdom of Anemone.In exchange, I won't give up my happiness. [M]

"... there are people who know us better than us.You'll find true happiness there. "

It's okay, you're not a doll.

Simultaneously loosen your tightened hands while saying that just inside your chest.Peel it down again from your back and take its hand while communicating the outline.I grabbed his right hand and his left hand, and for the first time I caught his face from the front.

With round eyes as he thought, he stopped with tears overflowing and his eyebrows narrowed in the middle.

It's hard to understand. When I returned the bitter smile with such understanding, my eyes widened as if I saw something incredible.

Put your hands together and hang your fingers around the ground.His eyes, nose and cheeks are red and his body temperature is transmitted to his face, which is close to touching the nose, even if the air is separated.

I'm the only one who puts strength into the entangled fingers and loosens them up again.The sound of rubbing and touching each other's skin echoed strangely in my ears.

"I'll be waiting. In our place of happiness, forever."

"What the hell... happened to you...?

He patched his right hand and stroked my cheek with his fingertips. [M]

Your hands are trembling and your eyes are shaking like crystals.Not just my words, but this look seems incredible to him.

I wondered how much I could have become like a human being, and I naturally smiled again at his praise.As soon as that happened, his expression was stunned, along with his breathtaking sound.I'm sure he can't do it now.

Thinking that the belly of his finger fell off his cheek, the finger tangled in my hand made a fist and left. [M]I put my hand up again to chase him... and he slipped through.

……

Drop your gaze and you'll see where his hands were supposed to be.

My hands began to disappear gradually from the tip of my fingers as if they were drinking white.He pulled his hand right in front of his face to see if this was unexpected.At the same time, he stared at me with a round jade, and when he followed his gaze, I was just as vanished.

"Time is running out" comes to mind with the feeling of waking up from a dream.

Turning into a twilight sky at dusk, he gets familiar with the white of the scenery.I don't want to lose sight of him now, thinking that maybe I am too.I wanted to see it through to the moment it disappeared.

Suddenly at the end, he sat down with a gloomy expression and matched me again as more than half disappeared into color. [M]Waiting for the last word while gazing down at your trembling lips.

"Eh... are you really happy in that country...?

I inadvertently tie my mouth to his question, which I don't know anything about.

He is relieved by the fact that he should have known he knew nothing.I'm sure in him I'm in Freesia, where I sing a song of happiness.

Fu, I look back at him with a smile.I want to tell the truth, and I feel different about him as he disappears.I'm sure you'll be surprised and unbelievable.If he were a dream or a fantasy, I would have liked to talk not only about pride but also about our friend.

But to my disappointment, he continues to disappear, and I choose the word before it ends in white. [M]

"I love you from the bottom of my heart... like a country I was born and raised in."

The first time I spoke of love, I had no further questions. [M]

Until the end, my words disappeared completely white. [M]The open eyes did not blink until the end.

I thought it might have been a little mean, but after all, I want you to give pride, not me, all the joy of that time.

I want him to remain unknown.That feeling of your body trembling from the center can't be changed into anything.

As I was about to disappear, there was no rush. [M]I thought it would melt like this, but at the same time, my heart roared slowly inside me to disappear with a sense of happiness.

Because before I woke up, I thought the lovely world was waiting for me.

……

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"Leon, are you tired?

Pride peeks up at me who can withstand the shortcomings.

I tried to cover my mouth to hide that my mouth was about to open wide, but it was a little late.I apologize to her for visiting me on a regular basis.

I apologize and laugh.The fragrance of black tea made me feel a little clearer, but at the same time it seems to have relaxed my strength.... or maybe it's because I got a pride smile on my face.

Though I thought I'd be so distracted in front of her, I felt a little relieved myself.

"I had a little weird dream last night.I'm fine, I'm fine. "

That's what he said and laughed with his shoulders up.

I felt bitter and misunderstood the taste of the cup.Behind his pride, he turned his gaze to care about the Knight of the Guards column and Alan.Tilt your head and laugh to show that you're not really feeling well.

Some of the fatigue may not have healed yesterday because I just came home from negotiations.... and last night.

"The royal sama can't be tired just by dreaming for one night."

Keh, with the sound of throwing up and throwing up, a low voice is raised from the wall.

Faced, Val, who leaned against the wall, sat side-by-side.Sefek and Chemet, sitting between them, leaned against him with their legs stretched out.Unlike last night, they are listening with interest to me and Pride today. [M]

"Val, this is not something you can say."

"Hate, it's not uncommon to drink until dawn.If you're complaining, tell Leon. "

Pride was quick to pay attention, but Val just whispers in a bad mood.

It's not because I drank too much, but it's not because of alcohol.He's right, I didn't drink too much last night.

Yesterday, the day I returned from trade, I stopped him from delivering to my country.I advised him to stay until his regular visit today because it was a long time ago and a good time to meet again.As usual, he slept on the floor and couch of my room, not in the guest room, but in Chemet and Sefek.

Even after just handing over the letter to Pride, it's not uncomfortable to see you staying in the room like this.To be honest, I was surprised that I still had some left because I thought I'd be home soon after I got pride in delivering my main luggage.

He is still lazy against the wall and is lacking in strength.Chemet, who had tied his mouth just now, raised his hand slightly.

"What dreams did Leon have?A scary dream?

I'm slightly surprised by his question, which blinks my black eyes.

I didn't think you'd hear that right now.In addition, without saying anything, Sefek turned his upper body forward with interest.I'm glad you two are more interested in me than before. [M]But I hesitated to say anything about that dream. [M]

It's a dream I remember from this morning, but now I can only remember it vaguely.I was there, he was there.I can't be ashamed to say it was a dream that comforted me instead of pride.

Besides, I'm not sure which was my point of view anymore.I didn't want to leave Anemone, and I was definitely the one who had the hope of seeing Pride.

"I'm not afraid..." and I slipped out of sight, and now I bumped into pride.Purple eyes photograph me like water. [M]Apparently she was worried, too.It illuminates me to tell the extra truth when I get here, but it's hard to hide everything.

…… I'm crying... it's a dream to stop the child from crying.I didn't stop crying at first, so it was hard. "

Put the cup down, tilt your neck and breathe out at the end.

It's strange to say it yourself, but it's the best way to say it.Either way, I deserved to be mentally a child, who kept mourning at that time.I wonder how they made me stop crying.

If you think so, you'll be more worried this time.Why was I crying so much? [M]I don't think it was a dream from before the Retribution War.I can't call it a boulder here.

"That was tough.Did you stop crying at the end?

Fufu, the pride of laughing behind her mouth slightly tilted her neck to match.

You must have relieved me because it was more dramatic than the dream I was worried about.The Kintetsu Knights standing behind me also had softer expressions than before.Especially since the column has been dating me about books every time of ceremony lately, it has become more familiar with me than before.This way, he rarely meets as Pride's bodyguard for personal conversations, but he is nevertheless really easy to talk to.

Oh, yeah. And I smiled back at Pride, and she took the cup and tasted it.

If you look back at the boy who might have been worried about you, he will be able to reach out again.

"Are you a child younger than me, or do you know Leon?"

Next time, Val next door raised her eyebrows and stared at Kemet, who repeatedly asked questions with wide open eyes.

"It doesn't matter," said Sefek, "because I care about Kemeto!"I fished my eyebrows at him.Chemet waited for my reply with clear eyes, completely ignoring the interaction. [M]

I was told it was small... and I tried to remember, but my face and appearance didn't appear as if I was hidden in a white fog anymore.I may be, but I remember too much. [M]Maybe it's Chemet, maybe it's Sefek.There may also be plenty of children who have met in social circles, children who have been introduced in transactions, and children who have met under the castle.

Even though the word "small child" appeared to me, it is still a young child.Already, with the tea's hot air, it's just getting thinner and thinner over time.

I don't know, but I keep my eyes wide open. [M]

"I know... I don't care.I was so happy when you stopped crying. "

"Leon thinks that even if he doesn't know, he's kind."

I'll give her back my heartfelt laughter, too. [M]

I can't remember who and what happened anymore.When I woke up, I felt tired, but my chest was warm.My head is blurred and I feel dreamy for a while... and I remember hearing from Val in the room several times.

Maybe he still has it on his roots.I thought about it all the time, because I still had a dream.

"Glad you stopped crying."

"Yeah, I can't remember how I did it anymore."

He said, "We're dealing with kids. We're used to these troublesome guys."

"Next time, I'll need your help. [M]You'll get used to it more than I do. "

Ah, and Val roared shortly afterwards, but Sefek blew water on his face faster than that.

He hid his face with his hands in her water, but it reached from the gap between his fingers to his eyes.If I treated the child clearly, I thought I might be angry, but I didn't.Apparently, I was more angry with "trouble" than "kid".

I asked the maid to bring the towel because Kemet was in a hurry to look for the towel and let her swim in the room.

Val was also confused by Sefek's scolding, and now he is staring at Sefek with sharp eyes as if he had forgotten my words.Although teeth like fangs do not come off, I think it is difficult for him to take care of the other two children.Speaking of which, I've heard that Chancellor Gilbert's lady can cry on her face or run away every time.

By the way, if Pride laughs at you to change your story until the towel arrives, that's all the fog in your head will plunge in the sun.He nodded and put his finger on the cup and carried it to his mouth.

It's a dream I can't remember anymore, but if you stopped crying with my words, I'm sure she's also kind and honest....

"Hmm... are you really happy in that country...?

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"I just got home.Aren't you tired?Rest easy today. "

Yeah, thanks. In return, I swallowed only the words that came to mind with the tea.... after all, it might be a little nasty.

After that, I still think about moving just another part of my head while enjoying a conversation without pride and other love.Before the memory of my dreams faded any further, I was newly wondering why I was told that. [M]

Dreams are also called deep psychology, but it is more doubtful that such questions arise in me. [M]Then I guess the person who would say such a thing to me is the "child" of my dream, but... I don't think that's who I know who would say such a thing.It is a well-known fact that I am happy in the kingdom of Anemone.I wonder how many people around me are being mean. [M]But his tone doesn't resemble his dream.Above all, I don't think Val would say such a thing to me, even though it's mean.

The more I thought about it, the more I heard about it in what context, the more I became moody about who the other person was, and the other part of it became heavier than fatigue.

"... pride. If you don't mind, I wonder if you could meet me at the harbor after this.There are many trading vessels today, and I plan to bring in rare ingredients. "

"? Yeah, yeah.I'd love to. But is Leon okay?Maybe you remembered something at work?If you'll excuse me, I'll be here today. "

No, it's not.I'll smile while I give it back. [M]

It is only natural that she should be surprised.I just got home by boat yesterday and told him that I wanted to go to the harbor again.But the trade is going well, and even today I'm ready to have her.Because I am familiar with the special effects that will clear up this moisture right now.

A sweetheart with a flowery smile in front of her.Someone who gave me everything back and taught me love.And then...

"I kind of wanted to catch an anemone breeze."

My beloved, my beloved, my beloved country.

A happier place than ever before.As long as I live in this country and have the smile of my people, my happiness will not change forever.

Along with pride who smiles at me, I refuse to invite you, if you like, and I drop off a friend who leaves one foot away, and then I decide to leave the carriage.

Take Pride's hand and get out.

The breeze of anemones that greeted me cleared my heart with just that.