CH 63

Chen Sui raised his eyebrows, his eyes full of surprise. He was the one who completely distrusted Ou Shaowen’s ability to regrow organs Guan Qijun talked about; but Ou Shaowen answered so accurately and professionally that it didn’t seem to stem from imagination at all. 

“Where can I get this kind of instrument?” Guan Qijun did believe what he said without hesitation.

The certainty in Ou Shaowen’s eyes dissipated a little bit. He looked away and shook his head blankly, “I don’t know where one can get it now.”

He didn’t even know how the device worked, because every time it was used, he was firmly restrained, unable to see anything except the blindingly white ceiling. All he knew was that his body was connected to a dense net of tubes, and then there was an infinite, long, dark pain.

Thinking about it, he was… actually a little bit scared.

Every operation in the laboratory had its usual set of procedures, one after another, in a cycle. Now that he thought about it, that was what made him feel safe. He could be sure and knew what to expect, and when the process was over, he was whole and healthy again.

Unlike now, when everything was so unknown and he didn’t even know if he was going to die.

“Then what is the principle of its work?”

“It’s about imitating the function of the heart and powering the flow of blood. There are also some other small instruments for absorption and filtration, which are used to maintain cell metabolism.” He was a little distressed, “More specifically, I don’t know.”

Since he said the first sentence, Dr. Chen had been in a state of amazement. The knowledge he had since he was a child had been overthrown and broken. He actually began to think that what Ou Shaowen said might really be true. 

After all, the world was so big and the human body was so mysterious. He was not sure if there were some crazy organisations that were keen on human experimentation that could create a product like Ou Shaowen.

“Good.” Guan Qijun nodded, “During this time, I will do my best to use all the connections I can to see if I can get a similar instrument.”

Ou Shaowen pursed his lips, a little moved, “Thank you.”

Guan Qijun avoided his gaze and was silent for a while, “It may take a while, you’d better… not tell Ou Renjin for the time being.”

Before he could persuade him further, Ou Shaowen nodded, “I know, if Ou Renjin knows it, he will definitely not agree.” He paused and added, “He cares about me the most.”

He even looked in the direction of Dr. Chen and begged: “Dr. Chen, please help keep it a secret, don’t tell Ou Renjin about it.”

“I…” Chen Sui was very confused. In fact, he was not as firm as he thought. If he were really so principled, he would not have been in cahoots with Guan Qijun in the first place.

“Let’s keep it a secret first. For people with heart disease, don’t you want to make sure they are in a peaceful mood?” Ou Shaowen was very calm and mature at this moment, not at all like he was in front of Ou Renjin.

Guan Qijun’s expression was very stiff, and his body was trembling slightly. Finally, he took a deep breath, “Leave him to me, I will convince him. That’s the decision for now then, I’ll let you know as soon as I have any news.”

“Good.”

“Let’s go first.” He took Chen Sui’s arm and walked out, stopping when he reached the door, turning around and urging, “While you take care of Ou Renjin, you must also take care of yourself. I’ll buy something to eat and bring it to you later. Remember to eat on time.”

“Okay.” Ou Shaowen nodded, very obediently, “Thank you.”

As soon as they went out, Chen Sui broke free of Guan Qijun’s hand, his expression full of annoyance, “Don’t you feel bad about deceiving a person like this?”

“No.” Guan Qijun’s face was expressionless, “Besides, I didn’t deceive him, everything was his own decision.”

“He can’t be responsible for his decision.”

“He’s already an adult.”

“Ou Renjin won’t agree.”

“So keep it a secret.” He raised his eyebrows, “This is also his own decision. I’m just cooperating.

“Chen Sui.” Guan Qijun looked at him with no emotion in his eyes, “You should trust Ou Shaowen a little, maybe he really won’t die, then in the end it will be a happy ending for everyone.”

“The more logical outcome is that he will die.”

“He said it himself that he had transplanted his heart to others. As long as we can find the equipment he needs, everything will return to normal in two months.” Guan Qijun walked straight forward as if he hadn’t heard it. At the last corner of the corridor, he stopped and smiled at Chen Sui, “I know, you won’t tell Ou Renjin.”

After saying that, he pressed the elevator button and walked in.

Chen Sui stood still and watched the elevator door slowly close in front of him. The light cast a shadow on half of his face. His clenched fists loosened a little bit. After a while, he turned around and walked to his office.

Guan Qijun bought some food and came back. Ou Shaowen obediently finished eating, and extended his leave with his manager on WeChat.

He was most worried that his absence would affect the schedule of the entire team, and his words were full of guilt.

In fact, Ou Renjin had already said hello to Dingyi Entertainment for this doomed leave of absence. The two companies were cooperating recently and wouldn’t refuse to give each other face.

The manager readily approved the leave and comforted him: “It’s okay, everyone recently started working with their own resources, so you don’t have to worry about affecting them.”

Although this was not a favourable decision for the members with middle and lower levels of popularity, the entertainment industry was like that. Capitalists would take the risk, but they were only willing to invest in members with high commercial value.

Ou Renjin didn’t wake up until the next day. He still had a slight fever that didn’t go away, and neither the doctors nor the nurses showed any sign of relaxing; a long low fever could sometimes be more troublesome than a high one.

“You’re awake?” Ou Shaowen was sitting next to him and was using his mobile phone to look through some medical literature. This thing was actually not something you could search on Baidu, so he scrolled from top to bottom for a long time and didn’t find what he was looking for. 

There was still half a bottle of medicine hanging on the IV stand. Ou Renjin rubbed his heavy head with his other hand and hooked the corners of his mouth in understanding, “Nothing was wrong with the source of the heart. It turned out to be me who was faulty this time.”

Ou Shaowen couldn’t tell if he was disappointed and sad, so he cautiously comforted: “It’s okay, if you miss it this time, there will be another time.”

Ou Renjin turned his head to look at him, “I thought the first thing you would say to me would be: let’s use my heart.”

Ou Shaowen had made his decision and started to avoid talking about it in front of Ou Renjin. This was the first time he lied to Ou Renjin. He expected himself to panic but at this point a light smile came naturally, “So I have listened to you, I’ve been better behaved. Are you going to reward me?”

“Yes, I’m very happy that I didn’t hear you say such a thing.” As Ou Renjin said this, his eyelashes hid the look in his eyes. Somehow, Ou Shaowen felt that he… seemed to be a little sad at the moment.

“Do you want to eat something? Shall I cook porridge for you? White porridge without adding anything.”

“Okay.” He nodded and watched as Ou Shaowen walked out of the ward, closing the door behind himself. Then he closed eyes and let the numb disappointment overwhelm him.

He sneered softly, and for a moment a little bit of hatred filled him. But he didn’t know what he could hate. Do you hate fate?

Originally, before this, he was able to accept everything fairly calmly, not caring very much about anything except the hatred for his parents’ death. He even considered that if he was going to die one day, he would forget about legal principles and just take his revenge and get rid of his obsession.

Since his heart condition was diagnosed, he had been trying hard to accept that he would die one day, and he felt ready to have fun and live happily every day until then.

It was just that he met Ou Shaowen, and he suddenly wanted to live. Ou Shaowen was so simple and kind to everyone, and eager to repay you with his heart and his lungs, in the true sense.

He was worried; if he was gone, would Ou Shaowen meet a better person, a man or a woman? At that time, he would treat that person like he treated him, and then he might be cherished or might be let down.

He met Ou Renjin when he was a blank piece of paper, and the way he was now was to some extent created by Ou Renjin. He wasn’t given other options. After he left, would Ou Shaowen realise that there were still many ways to go in this world?

He was afraid that he would let him go too soon and that he would never be able to let him go for the rest of his life.

While his mind was in a mess, Ou Shaowen had already returned to the room with the porridge, “Let me feed you.”

He adjusted Ou Renjin’s bed slightly higher and took the spoon to feed him carefully.

Ou Renjin finished eating cooperatively and suddenly said to him, “Actually, I occasionally wonder what it would be like now if you hadn’t hit my car in the first place.”

Ou Shaowen shook his head, “I don’t want to explore such a hypothesis.”

“Why?”

“I can’t accept the hypothesis that there is no you.”

Ou Renjin patted him on the head, and said something cruel very easily, “Little friend, you should start preparing now. If you can’t even accept the hypothesis that there was no me in the past, how can you accept the reality that there will be no me in the future?”

Ou Shaowen put the bowl and spoon on the table beside him. When he heard these words, he was taken aback. He turned his head and stared at Ou Renjin with a fierce look, “It won’t be possible, you will get better.”

“Tsk, I don’t know how many times I have heard the comforting ‘You will get better’ since I was a child. It is perfunctory and useless.”

“Don’t say anything more.” Ou Shaowen threatened him viciously, “If you say anything more, I will immediately call Dr. Chen over and cut out my heart for you.”

Ou Renjin couldn’t help laughing, “This is the first time I have heard such a terrifying threat. I’m really scared.”

“Then don’t say it.” His tone weakened and he pursed his lips, looking a little sad as he repeated, “Don’t say it again.”

Ou Renjin’s little smile receded, and he turned away, feeling worried and distressed for such Ou Shaowen.

It was always possible to accept something slowly, even if it was something that you felt you couldn’t accept before.

He was just heartbroken that Ou Shaowen was bound to go through this painful and torturous process.