CH 126

The smile that came naturally to me when I found Dylan.

The situation was sudden, but it was nice to see him like this, but the feeling disappeared.

“Isn’t that a bit odd, Dylan?”

“……”

“You usually say things like ‘You were alive’ at times like this.”

“…….”

Dylan looked down at me like that. The attitude that felt different from the usual was meaningful.

“Why are you back?”

“……”

“Weren’t you back in your world, Rose?”

“… Do you know something?”

I couldn’t see his face well because it was covered by the darkness, but somehow I felt like he was crying and smiling.

“Come to think of it, you said you’d help me go back to Korea, right?”

“… Rose.”

“Seeing you help, you knew something, right?”

Why didn’t I know until now?

I just thought it was a good thing.

“Tell me, Dylan. Do you know something? How can I even go back to Korea?”

“……”

“Why don’t you say anything? Huh?”

I got up from the coffin and staggered towards Dylan.

It felt as though the weight to support the body disappeared as it moved like a grain of sand coming out of my hand.

But I recklessly ran to Dylan and grabbed his chest.

“How can I get back there?”

“…….”

“Why don’t you say anything!”

Why the hell didn’t I think of wanting to go back to Korea for the past 3 years of living here?

Why did you cut out all those memories?

All the questions that had been closed for three years erupted from this place like a volcano erupting.

I wanted to go back.

Into my world.

To my house.

It’s a cramped space, but it’s my only space.

The emotions that had been locked up for so long as they squeezed inside the blocked black box leaked out in an instant.

My eyes got hot.

“I have everything there, Dylan.”

Why did I live away from them all this time? why?

Why the hell didn’t you ever take them out and reflect on them?

Why did I forget everything?

“Dylan, please.”

I cling to Dylan’s arms as if he had all the answers.

As I got closer to Dylan, his face, which had been hidden in the dark, and his expression appeared.

He had a look on his face that he didn’t understand.

He looked at me quietly, and bit his lips.

“Didn’t you kill Yurtha and go back there?”

“What?”

… What the hell are you talking about?

“Why is Yurtha suddenly coming out? What are you talking about?”

“If not, how did you get back?”

“…….”

What the hell does that have to do with killing Yurtha?

“As expected, you knew how I could go back.”

He obviously knew something.

He just didn’t tell me. But why, why didn’t you tell me?

Dylan, who knew and didn’t tell me, was cruel.

“Why didn’t you tell me when you knew how to get back? Why?”

At that moment, Dylan’s face was completely distorted.

Surprised by the harsh expression on his face, my body instinctively tried to retreat. Dylan caught me like that.

The red eyes that looked at me in the dark flashed sharply.

“You know that. How can you get back?”

“…….”

“… But how could I tell you to die!”

Dylan shouted almost like a howling beast.

“And how can I…”

Dylan, who was about to say the next word, was unable to continue and shut his mouth.

‘… Is my death the way to get back?’

But since I’m back, that won’t be the perfect way.

There is definitely something more. But Dylan bit his lip.

“… You said you don’t remember that place anymore.”

Obviously it was

I don’t know why I couldn’t think of it then, but… Not anymore.

“Why do you want to come back now?”

“That’s because it’s my original world.”

It was a very natural reason to want to go back.

There remains my family, my home, and the life I have achieved.

There are no people who see me as the shadow of Rose like here.

In Korea, there is only me.

“Can’t you stay here?”

Dylan asked in a trembling voice.

I stared at him quietly.

“Why are you saying that? Obviously you said you’d help me. You said that you would bring me back to Korea…”

“That’s right. It did. I certainly did….”

“Then you’re not going to help?”

“You…”

His chin trembled. He barely opened his mouth, exhaling only hot breath with unstable breathing.

“You know it too.”

He grabbed my shoulders with trembling hands.

“I don’t want you to go back there.”

“…….”

I was speechless at that moment.

“… Why?”

You said you’d help me, Rose.

“… You said I was the only one.”

Dylan muttered in a voice full of anger.

Why did Rose say that? It’s not that I say things that I can’t take responsibility for.

“… I told you everything.”

His hand gripped my shoulder and lost strength.

“Dylan, I….”

“You have become my world, you have become my everything…”

He just pushed me away and stepped back.

Until my back hits the wall.

The moonlight shone on Dylan’s back.

It was revealed that I was not able to tell whether he was smiling or crying because it was covered in darkness.

Tears fell from Dylan’s red eyes.

“You are bad.”

“……”

“Liar.”

Do you hate being left alone when I return?

I thought that maybe in the past Rose had only Dylan. So she must have just spit those words out.

Dylan was enchanted by those words.

Because he’s a terrible loner, too.

‘But I’m not Rose.’

But I didn’t even dare to tell Dylan about it.

I was worried that he would get hurt, but…

If you’re upset that I’m not Rose, if you feel betrayed, if you don’t feel anything more towards me.

‘What if he doesn’t tell me how to go back to Korea?’

It was scary.

“Dylan….”

When I called him anxiously, I opened my mouth in a dismayed voice.

“Looking at what you asked me, you didn’t know ‘how’ I went back here, did you?”

He hesitated for a moment, then nodded.

A bitter smile appeared on Dylan’s lips.

It was a smile that seemed to be both good and sad.

Come to think of it…

<Didn’t you kill Yurtha and go back there?>

Dylan said so.

3 years ago, obviously…

<I promised you that if you help me, I will kill Yurtha.>

What does that have to do with my return?

“Aren’t you going to tell me because I didn’t kill Yurta?”

“What?”

“You said it. If you… kill Yurtha, you’ll help me go to Korea.”

“No, Rose. It’s not like that…”

Dylan bit his lip.

“You really lost your memory.”

A shrill breath was heard.

“You were the one who offered to kill Yurtha for me.”

“Rose… Me?”

“Yes. you did Because I need a solid position with no competitors, and you want to go back.”

“…….”

“So you’re going to kill the Transcendent.”

“… What does my return have to do with killing the Transcendent?”

“Yeah…”

Dylan hesitated for a moment.

His red eyes darkened.

“Because killing the Transcendent is the way you completely get back.”

At that moment, I was at a loss for words.

“Lie.”

“Why would I lie to you?”

Dylan clenched his teeth as if holding back a cry. As a result, the tone became stronger.

“… Why do I have to kill the Transcendent to go back?”

“I don’t know either. I just know that’s the way.”

What do you mean you don’t know? There was a question that flashed through my mind for a moment, but now something else was more urgent.

“The transcendent will die and I will die too?”

Dylan didn’t answer any further.

I knew well that it was right.

The way is murder. What nonsense is this?

To kill people.

No matter how selfish and evil a human being is, that is absolutely impossible.

I suddenly remembered that I killed a knight who was trying to harm me in the North.

It was an emergency and I instinctively killed it to live…

Thinking about that moment, my whole body trembled. My mind turns white.

“I can’t….”

“Then, don’t do it.”

I saw him

He saw me too

With each other in a mess.

“… Just.”

“…..”

“Just live with me, Rose.”

“…….”

“… Can’t you?”

He confessed his honest feelings to me with a face that showed his agony and shame.

But I couldn’t answer that.

“I’m sorry, Dylan.”

I rejected him.

*****

Little by little, my hazy mind began to return.

At that moment, the limbs were severed and the sensations that seemed to be broken into pieces are also revived.

The corners of Yurtha’s eyes trembled with pain.

Light from all directions pierced through the gap between the slightly raised eyelids.

As he slowly regained consciousness, Yurtha grabbed the last edge of his memory before she collapsed.

<Yurtha.>

<I hate you.>

Laughing brightly and without hesitation stabbing him in the stomach, she pushed him off the cliff without hesitation even once.

It was more painful to know that Rose had abandoned him without hesitation than the pain in his limbs.

Rose always made him sick.

She had never hated him for a moment.

It was about to come to an end.

Somehow he wanted to cry.

But he couldn’t let go of this pain.

Even so, if he could see her, he was confident that he loved even this pain.

Yurtha got up.

No, he was trying to get it up.

It was then that he realized

Somewhere in the dark, he was bound.

Like a beast.